pain is temporary;

Erica ☠ Gilbert We're all our worse enemy Student. Journalist. Sylvia Plath Lover. I don't have the energy nor do I have the time to fill an entire box on a social media platform about who I am and what I like. If you actually want to get to know me, good luck. People are a waste of space and time, filled with lies and impossible standards. If you want to impress me then you're already failing. I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my lids and all is born again.

[satanshellcat]

text ✉ evan (erica)

Ava: Alright, but what if I forget about that one night you drunkely decided to wear an onesie and go outside? We had to carry you home. Being stuck in a cabinet for an hour isn't as funny as the thing /you've/ done.

[moments later]

Ava: No, but listen to me. Remember that girl I told you about one time, after we finished our shifts?

Ava: You know how people feel when they really want to say something but they can't, right? That's how I feel right now. Holy shit. She's the wisest, the most beautiful person I have ever met and, hell... I like her. Like a fuckin' lot.

Ava: I just can't even bring myself to tell her about the way I feel because I am afraid that I will only mess everything up. This is the part where I metaphorically throw my hands in the air, flop on the bed and hide my face in the pillow, groaning.

[minutes later]

Ava: I even imagined how would it feel to hold her hand; I am a fuckin' teenager. Fuck.

Ava: Are you free tonight? I feel like you need to talk me out of doing something dumb, Evs.

[ a few minutes of smiling later ]

Erica: And.. what girl are we talking about? I could talk to her for you.

[wrgldn]

It wasn’t bad. I would probably watch it again, with you. They’re definitely better than my Power Ranger knee high ones. But, I am sure everything’s better than that.

We’ll think of something together, then. Am I, really? Why?

[satanshellcat]

As you know I never say no to a Smallville marathon. Hm, I don’t know. I find those kind of cute. 

That sounds like a much better plan. I don’t think I can explain the ‘why.’ Do I need to? You’re... the grass roots, the stage, the podium, the mic. I’m just the words on a piece of paper that gets verbalized, but you’re.... you’re more than that.

[satanshellcat]

avastjames:

I think I remember it, I’ve seen it in Smallville once, haven’t I? I tried. Sure; just enough time to get ready. Going to put my birthday socks on, totally.

How incredibly romantic. Pretty clever, too. I will let you come up with a name, yes? You’re the brains, I am the… something.

Yes, yes you have. One of many. An A for effort and all of that. Birthday socks, huh? How fancy.

Oh hush. I am terrible at names. What about.. Avaica? That is awful. Strike that from your memory. You’re the everything.

[wrgldn]

You’re the Lois Lane to my Clark Kent, I can get behind that, for sure. Now, now; when I should come over? Should I bring something? Or just myself?

I wouldn’t care. Technically, I am away from them, so nothing bad or weird would ever be happening to me, or people I am surrounded with. I don’t really want to have anything in common my parents, let alone have a gang to lead; I don’t even know how it works.

[satanshellcat]

I can too. They do have a beautiful story together no matter how many retells they get. Hm. Come over in... 10 minutes and just bring yourself.

We can make our own gang -- just the two of us. Instead of fighting people and under the table deals, we fight for good storylines in comics and under the table combat controls in video games. All we need is a name.

[wrgldn]

No, no. I will make sure to remember that. You called me a Superman. Well, kind of. Not exactly, but you did. I like it. You don’t get to be called that everyday, right?

I have no idea. Maybe they were criminals or something, none of my concern, now, am I right?

[satanshellcat]

Well, I could clarify your identity for you if need be. Since I’m always, without a doubt, going to be Lois Lane.

Ah, but what if that was true? What if you’re the daughter of a crime boss couple? Now that’s good story telling. 

[satanshellcat]

avastjames:

No, I am free. We could do that, for sure. Frankly, I had nothing planned and I just wanted to sleep this through, but you’re being a hero now, truly. Saving me from my misery, stuff and things…

It’s weird. Too bad she doesn’t have any pictures with them.

Well, even Lois Lane had to save Superman on occasion. ... And we’re going to ignore how cheesy that probably sounded and never speak of it again.

Why doesn’t she?

[satanshellcat]

avastjames:

— doesn’t matter. It’s just an another day to me. Depending who I am spending it with, really. If I was still a child in Minnessota, I would have a big party, because my brothers are pain in the ass. Right now, I have no idea.

But, thank you.

She used to sneak out at night to chat with her friends. She kept telling grandma that she’s going on a date with my dad. Kind of lacks of logic, but — no, that’s really dumb. I’d be more concerned about those dates.

So.. you’re not doing anything tonight? Do you want to? We can watch the stars and have birthday popcorn. With lots of butter.

Sounds like the friends were more trouble than your dad. That’s not something you hear everyday.

[wrgldn]

The thing is… I — I am not talking with my mother, therefore I am not giving her hell, at all. She likes to pretend I don’t exist. It’s mutual, at times. Well — most of the time, if not always.

…and here I was, hoping she will be the first one to call me.

Grandma’s awesome, though. She always tells me something new about her. 

[satanshellcat]

Why would she be the.. wait, today is your birthday. This is the part where I say, “Happy Birthday.” right? You do celebrate it, don’t you?

Well, what was today’s new and interesting fact?

[satanshellcat]

— refreshing. A call from your dearly beloved grandparents, ain’t that some shit? How my grandma gave birth to such a bad person like my mother is completely beyond me. Poor, old woman. Having to put up with her stuff for longer than twenty years must’ve been hellish. No wonder she’s so patient now.

Here’s to another year, I guess?

The saying goes that a woman’s daughter will give her the same amount of hell she gave her mother. I don’t believe in it, but it’s helpful... I suppose.

[satanshellcat]

It would be. Also, not biased. Truthful. 

Eggplants, gremlins, demons, devils, etc etc. Kids are easy to manipulate with candy and toys.

[wrgldn]

Still standing by the point that it is not. I might be cute, but my laugh is horrible.

Creative, really. I believe it’s a writer’s thing, right? I wasn’t that easy; I remember not liking anything sweet - just video games were making me do my chores, nothing else.

[satanshellcat]

We’re just gonna go in circles, aren’t we?

Possibly. Wait, you didn’t like anything sweet? How is that possible?

[satanshellcat]

Your laugh is cute.. for lack of a better word.

He sounds like he’s gonna be just fine. Most eggplants are.

[wrgldn]

I changed my mind; totally biased. Honestly, it sounds weird to me, at least. But, I am not going to argue, ‘cause it would be pretty pointless, I believe.

Eggplants? Well, I don’t know about them, but I think I would be angry for some time. 

[satanshellcat]

It would be. Also, not biased. Truthful. 

Eggplants, gremlins, demons, devils, etc etc. Kids are easy to manipulate with candy and toys.

[satanshellcat]

Your voice only? As much as I love your laugh you may need to add a few more to make it work.

It’s a brain injury waiting to happen. 

[wrgldn]

My laugh is horrible, come on. You might be slightly biased. Only slightly.

Do you think that kid’s alright? I am pretty sure they threw a tantrum and made their parents buy something extra to soothe the pain. Poor gremlin…

[satanshellcat]

Your laugh is cute.. for lack of a better word.

He sounds like he’s gonna be just fine. Most eggplants are.

[satanshellcat]

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[satanshellcat]

I’m sure that’s an entry on America’s Funniest Home Videos.

Despite my overrall disdain for my parents I can honestly say they didn’t put me on their shoulders growing up. I doubt my mother would’ve allowed it anyway.

[wrgldn]

Must be it; do you think I would make a good laugh track, though? Would they pay me if they used it?

It’s all kinds of risky. I didn’t even play with my parents, so I kind of can relate to that. I mean… mother would flip out if anyone ever lifted me that high up.

[satanshellcat]

Your voice only? As much as I love your laugh you may need to add a few more to make it work.

It’s a brain injury waiting to happen. 

[wrgldn]

Just a little pro tip to all parents out there; you should probably know how tall your kid is when you put them on your shoulders. There’s no excuse for you to walk in to a random shop and forget to duck. Sure, it was a great sale on painkillers for all the pain you’ve caused but I’m sure that my karma is pretty much screwed for the day for hiding behind the shelves and laughing so fuckin’ hard I almost cried. I kind of feel bad for that kid, though. Like, holy shit, tell them to wear helmets or something, too.

[satanshellcat]

I’m sure that’s an entry on America’s Funniest Home Videos.

Despite my overrall disdain for my parents I can honestly say they didn’t put me on their shoulders growing up. I doubt my mother would’ve allowed it anyway.

[satanshellcat]

thetobyanderson:

The sweet little ones are fine, it’s the grumpy ass orange throwers that you’ve got to look out for. What makes you hate Walmart though? If you don’t mind me asking of course.

...Orange throwers?

Too many people.

[satanshellcat]

teddyhendrix:

I think there’s a good chunk of people in the world who hate it too, but what’s your reason?

Too many people.