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[saturnsdove]

You can call me whatever, I'm an intersex adult (24+) and this also affects how I view my own gender identity (any pronouns and terms outside of she/her and fem terms are okay), despite this I still feel a connection to womanhood and will occasionally discuss this. I am also intellectually, neurologically, and physically disabled (all tho the latter can be qualified as invisibly so, due to my country not giving proper support to those who are, and I had to adjust my life accordingly), I also have a TBI, epilepsy and mental illnesses I struggle with, please be patient with me. English is not my first language. Also aroace.

This blog will be primarily about discourse regarding my own experiences regarding my identity, queerness and disabilities, and also fandom discussions and media analysis (primarily in media that I am personally interested in, I do not take requests to tackle other media I am most likely disinterested in).

I have an extremely low tolerance for these topics below, and will block extremely liberally accordingly (sorry this will be long):

- proship discourse/ship discourse in general.

- "fiction doesn't affect reality" takes and the likes that do not want to acknowledge nuance.

- TERFs, TRFs and other variants: fuck off.

- discourse surrounding terms such as transandrophobia and the likes, if any of my posts are tagged as such, it's upon request for those to filter it out. I do not tolerate anti trans masculinity in general.

- ace discourse/bi discourse/transmedicalism/exclusionist discourse: I've been here for too long please do not get me started on the rampant aphobia, biphobia, misogyny, and transphobia.

- misogyny, if you're misogynistic in the slightest capacity, it is on sight, low to absolutely no tolerance for people casually swinging around terms such as "bitch" "slut" (especially in reference to others) "theyfab" "foid" "pooner" etc.

This also includes people trying to hide their misogyny by trying to punch down on trans men and transmasculine people, you are not clever, it is not well hidden, we can all tell that you're trying to find an acceptable target to act your misogyny upon, fix yourself.

- pro para in any way shape or form, I do not want to discuss any nuances, I do not want to discuss the "poor innocent no contact paras :(", I do not want to hear it, block me instantly. This topic in particular is EXTREMELY triggering to me as a survivor of grooming and sexual abuse as a child.

- radqueers, fuck off.

- white therians are on thin thin THIN ice, that is also currently melting, behave or you're also immediately blocked.

- anti Blackness and other forms of racism, pointing this one out in particular as tumblr users have the urge to compare their blogs being deleted to "social murder", and white queers comparing themselves to Black children who got brutalized and/or lynched, and white trans women using terms like "transmisogyny affected" as a substitute to "racialized". Fuck off

ALSO WHITE PEOPLE SAYING "RACIALIZED" INSTEAD OF SPECIFYING ARE IMMEDIATELY BLOCKED ON SIGHT.

Also this includes fandom racism, towards real poc in fandoms to characters of colour. Fuck off.

- people so deep into kink culture that they literally cannot discuss anything outside of a sexualized lens, including media discussions or actual discourse. No not everything is about your kinks or is trying to kink shame you, and if people talking about being dehumanized and fetishized and you feel offended by that, deeply self reflect immediately.

Also if you do not tag your kink stuff/nsfw stuff correctly, bye, fuck off!

- marxists, white socialists/communists/whatever, I know the majority of you only learned stuff through skimming through the main theory written by Karl Marx and Disco fucking elysium, and never bothered engaging with anything else on the subject(s), ESPECIALLY FROM POC PERSPECTIVES. Please do not bother, you're only embarrassing yourself.

Also tankies are eliminated on sight, get your racist pro genocidal ass out of here.

- zionists and other anti semites: stop trying to justify killing (mainly indigenous) children, and stop trying to "epicly own" zionists by going full anti semite.

Free Palestine, for ever and always.

There's probably a bunch more that is escaping my mind right now but this will suffice for now.

More about me below the cut.

I've lived in poverty for the majority of my life and would not wish this upon anyone, eat the rich.

Queer and victim advocate, disability and animal rights activist. Also a feminist.

By animal rights I do not mean "wah wah we need to go vegan :( anti zoo and aquariums" types, I mean ethical farming and treatment of animals (which is also directly linked to giving land back to indigenous groups around the globe) stopping the exotic animal trade, and not treating animals as toys and accessories (and etc.). They are living beings who need delicate care.

I'm not giving out a list of specific diagnoses I have nor what intersex variation I have, outside of information that is neccessary to know, such as me being epileptic and having a TBI, which affect some of my neurological abilities. Sorry if I don't come across as clear or anything, I have trouble understanding language (as a whole) sometimes.

I am very critical of certain pieces of media and fandoms, and also the queer/trans community in particular here on tumblr.

Okay I have ran out of brain juice so this post might get updated in the future, we'll see.

[deltaomicronfive]

Can anyone help a black transfem with tech and stability for my teaching job? I only owe 250 in rent and need help with procuring a good computer. If I had to set a goal myself it would 750 for other bills and tech by August, when my class starts.

Please please consider helping me out financially to get my best foot forward as a small time educator. Thank you.

Current Goal: 0/750

Link to a post with all my pay apps and gfm info below:

Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your

[deltaomicronfive]

500/750‼️

So many notes, so little help.

Please consider helping me procure the computer on my wish list and pay my 124 electric bill due next week 🙏🏾

[socialmurderer]

Under my evil totalitarian regime all trans girls aged 10-17 will be given 2 state funded hammers to beat every "baeddel" sisterslop pseudo-transfeminist larper they see. And if they kill them they get free college and a puppy

[deltaomicronfive]

People you should be uplifting.

I am out of the mutual aid race so speak in terms of consistently making posts for an tending to notifications about mutual aid. I have work and school to chase but it has never meant anyone is far from my heart or mind. My boundaries and time is my own. But I should have pointed those who want to help in the right direction before locking my inbox down.

I'm gonna correct this somewhat by just telling you who to follow.

Ok. @aboud-lives @nesmamomen and @wolf-aid are advocates for their lives and families in gaza. I trust them deeply.

@politevowgiant is an aid advocate for incredibly endangered queer refugees in sudan.

@wormkink @virovac and @nonbinary-support do life saving mutual aid rotation.

@heartpdf @sharkboyry @chilewithcarnage and @black-sasuke are black friends of mine I consider especially vulnerable. @afropiscesism and @boom-baebee also need uplifting during this time.

We cannot snap our fingers and save everyone. But we can correct some of the math in our rotten world.

[deltaomicronfive]

Added my friend @boom-baebee in their hour of need.

[deltaomicronfive]

Hey! Another update is that my friend at @heartpdfs has a vital "s" in url because that main account is suspended.

Please give my friends a chance.

[leftwingwatch]

On Tumblr, pedophiles write thinkpieces on how black trans women are an arm of institutional transmisogynoir because you refuse to platform pedophiles on your political blog...

[secondquarrel]

so venezuela has become a usamerican colony. like that happened and everything carried on like normal

[secondquarrel]

like i know venezuela is going through a huge humanitarian crisis right now and their political regime is low in the list of priorities when tallinmg about it obviously it's just it shocked me to read trump congratulating his secretary of energy on how well he's running what used to be a sovereign country until a few months back you know

[isuggestforcemasc]

>be me >see blog with based handle >shinigami eyes highlights in red >click on handle >read bio >"transmeds fuck off" every time.

[isuggestforcemasc]

[stoptheantisemitism]

Guys Chabad is not a good organization/movement. They're extremely pro Israel Zionists. I've yet to come across a chapter that isn't.

Chabad is an extremist right-wing religious org laundering violent Zionism and imperialist hegemony as community outreach.

Some of the stuff said by their prominent figures/"leaders" are so racist and dehumanizing it's unbelievable. Rabbis Shlomo Cunin (Chabad of California), YY Jacobson, Dovber Pinson, Mendel Kessin etc are just some of the figure heads who have said dehumanizing things not only about Palestinians (including children) but basically anyone who isn't a pro-Israel Jew.

Look at this quote by Rabbi Yitzchak Ginsburgh

Eli Schlanger the Rabbi who was killed at Bondi spent the last few months advocating for Israel to further take over the West Bank. He advocated for the murder of children and considered every Palestinian Hamas.

These are not good people. Let's stop pretending they are

[stoptheantisemitism]

Even Haaretz published an article about how Chabad is turning into a right wing movement and closely aligning itself with people like Ben-Gvir

I feel obligated to point this out. It's alarming and we need to not only address it but make people aware of how these right wing organizations operate.

[stoptheantisemitism]

A reminder that Chabad is an extremist right wing organization. Their entire message in recent years has basically been that a Israel is more important than universal ethics.

They have distorted Judaism to fit their narrative of violence and domination.

[gluttonforpunsmanship]

At my university's pro-palestine camp, back a few years ago, the chabad house was located across the street and doing counter protestors. I remember one woman, a Jewish lady and pillar of our community (she leads several Jewish initiatives, book clubs, and is an all around wonderful human being) was on the pro Palestinian side, discussing how the horrors of Israel were not representative of all Jews, and when she walked over to chabad to ask if they could turn down their music in respect to a moment of silence, they told her she wasn't Jewish enough to claim that heritage (even though her parents escaped Germany's camps) and then they called the cops for trespassing on their property

[this-is-trans-joy]

i wasn’t gonna get involved with the whole “trans man gets a tattoo of a uterus on his back” discourse because i think it’s the stupidest thing i’ve ever heard but nearly every post i’ve seen about it has either been “trans men are too obsessed with their agab” on one side or “trans men are allowed to feel connected to their agab” on the other side and i’m just wondering if we all missed the part of the tattoo where it’s very clearly a depiction of being imprisoned by that particular body part, and given the state of both trans rights and reproductive rights right now can anyone maybe possibly figure out why a trans man might feel like that and want to express that?

[this-is-trans-joy]

like i really don’t think this is some giant conspiratorial secret TERF psy-op or whatever the fuck i think a random trans man that no one here will ever meet in their daily life got a tattoo of a body part that he possesses and has strong feelings about and trying to turn this into some kind of commentary on trans men as a whole and why we’re all actually agab-obsessed TERFs is genuinely crazy behaviour. you NEED to go outside and get a hobby I’m being so serious.

[comikbook]

schizophrenic people are constantly made to be a joke or a quirky edgy meme in recent years and it actually makes me insane. psychosis as a word has become watered down last year there was people “schizoposting” people joke about hallucinating or unreality because they think its funny and god forbid an actual schizophrenic person posts about their experiences because then you get people dming you with scary images and cryptic text to try to induce psychosis like that cant fucking kill someone i hate all of you people

[experiment41]

we are NOT bringing 4chan incel terminology to this site, take that "foid" out of your post and go wash your blog out with soap

[cognitohazardous]

the memeification of fascism is a proven method of perpetuating and instilling it in other people. Layers of irony will not protect you once you adopt racist, sexist, ableist, transphobic terminology into your lexicon. you'll be acknowledging and nursing the mindsets and connotations borne of those words.

[lagtrainzzz]

i think transfems should be allowed to be good at sports.

sometimes a trans woman wins against a cis woman. sometimes a cis woman wins against another cis woman too. yet only one of them is allowed to win without facing consequences.

it's not enough to support transfems in sports if your support hinges on us being bad at them.

[rars]

saying this as a lesbian who loves women's boobs--sexually, even! but i don't think that we as a society should consider breasts inherently female or inherently sexual. a flat chest should not be seen as the "default" for gender neutrality but instead just one way a person can present. boobs should be normal. anyone of any gender can have boobs

[lovestruck-lusagi]

trans girls are allowed to be annoying and stereotypical and socially inept and hyperactive and hypersexual and various types of animalgirl and there's nothing you can do about it. in fact if you're mean to that skirt go spinny reddit trans girl i'm stealing your entire house

[qcharlie]

there's nothing more radiant than a trans person's smile and you must dedicate your entire life to making them occur as often as possible. it is non negotiable

[qcharlie]

you see that sad """"man"""" ? imagine her cheerful and happy with giggles because she's loved by those around her and accepting herself. beautiful right? send her 1 thousand dollars for estrogen Now

[saturnsdove]

Okay, allow me to rephrase: all I said was to decenter pericis men from trans discourse, yet people from both sides came swinging at me, taking my words in the worst possible faith then what I *actually* said.

Might I ask what part about decentering pericis men got you all so riled up? Why make up imaginary scenarios rather then defending the very real people who already exist? Why question "who's saying that lol" when if you've really never seen any posts about the subject prior this post was clearly not meant for you? Calling someone essentially stupid and "not believing in transandro theory" when saying that trans mens opinions should come of higher value regarding issues that affect THEM and not pericis men? Why is your first idea as a white queer to immediately bring up anti Black violence against Black men who are experiencing an intersection of anti Black and patriarchal violence?

What the fuck is going on?

[saturnsdove]

still can't believe that all I said was to decenter pericis men and people got so PISSED