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#sigh

I'm so lonely, I just constantly get this stupid heartache I want someone to hold I want someone to care about, sigh

I'm so lonely but thats also the least of my problems so I've got a lot more shit to worry about before that but also goddamn would it help me to have someone to care about and talk to and hang out with all the time

Now you see, the thing is, i didnt expect anything, i didnt particularly wany anything, but it wouldve been nice i should have, and i didnt, and thats exactly whats wrong with me

Im such a loser...opportunity to connect with someone who seems interested? Nah. Id rather fuck it all up with a social seizure intstead

I end up in the same goddamn situation, over and over again, and i make the same goddamn mistake, over and over again

Why does my brain have to work this way, why do i have to think these thoughts

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Im lonely and i guess it really shows, especually right now. I dont know why i cant stop letting that one thing affect me but its all up in my head once again and i cant get it out. Please let me get it out. I dont need this shit. Its been more than a year. Why are you letting her talk to you lke that? Why are you letting that get into your head? It dont mean shit for your life. Know what im bad at? Moving on. But i have moved on. And thats something to be proud of, i guess. But you know what sucks? Thinking the same damn stupid things. Thinking the same damn self destructive thoughts. Thinking the same old stupid fucking script where i beat myself up and then someone tells me its ok and ill be ok someday but i wanna be ok right fucking now but im not and i dont know what this had devolved into but im not ok with how i think and how i act right now but something needs to change and i dont think ill ever really fix the way i think. Maybe i can change the way i act but my brain is so ingrained into these self destructive patterns of thinking and horrible repetitive slumps of depression and total lack of motivation that it really feels like a trench i can never get out of i ruin relationships and i ruin chancea i get opporrunity and i spit in its face and i have no social skills and thats just the icing on the cake Sorry Wanted to whine I guess

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And when we're in the future And now is a million miles away Will we start to reconsider what now belongs to yesterday, This whole life is moving fast for me, is it for you the same? And do you dream and when you do, do you wake up saying my name? You can be who you want to And you can see who you want to And there's nothing I can tell you now, except that I'm always thinking of you, even when I don't want to In more ways than I can count

Pretty girl comes into store I start helpin pretty girl Pretty girl gets flirty I immediately have a social seizure Pretty girl switches straight to business mode Fuck yeah?

Lonely lonely lonely

Id really appreciate being able to just word vomit all my problems to someone who barely knows me because i dont want to be judged even though i deserve to be for the decisions ive made

Im miserable because im stuck on something i shouldve left behind long ago..But I've made bad decisions and let myself slide into something quite self destructive and it was only a matter of time before shit hit the fan. It wasnt a sustainable emotion to have i guess. I just hate that im the one who got let down so hard

I just want to be able to feel good and have a genuine conversation with someone i care about but even when im at my weakest i still cant bring myself to say the things i want to say to the people i want to say them to

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