#drunkrambling

[higgsmonaghanonthebeach]

So... I've had this ridiculous urge to shave off my eyebrows ever since Jenna Marbles did it in a video. Just knowing that they're there BOTHERS ME. I would do it if I wasn't still in school and didn't have to have Zoom meetings everyday. HOWEVER... I don't know if that's enough to stop me. Will someone please stop me from shaving my eyebrows off??? I'm SO CLOSE to just doing it.

[louisianacunt]

Fuck

Like fuck! I hate that I like this guy and he knows but he likes someone else. Why is gay dating life so fucked up? I tried Grindr but fuck that doesn’t work nobody want a LTR

[littlebloodysenpaii]

Drunk Rambling

I don’t think anyone truly realizes how much I feel everything. And it takes me getting smashed to really feel it too Fuuuuuck.

I hate feeling. Especially when I get overwhelmed by feelings I can’t control. Or the hurt someone may feel, or I may feel.

I just wish I could fix everything… and everyone. Fuck, mainly fix myself. No one knows how broken I really am. I feel shattered, but I still look beautiful. Like broken stained glass. How can you fix that?

[savagejourney]

Im lonely and i guess it really shows, especually right now. I dont know why i cant stop letting that one thing affect me but its all up in my head once again and i cant get it out. Please let me get it out. I dont need this shit. Its been more than a year. Why are you letting her talk to you lke that? Why are you letting that get into your head? It dont mean shit for your life. Know what im bad at? Moving on. But i have moved on. And thats something to be proud of, i guess. But you know what sucks? Thinking the same damn stupid things. Thinking the same damn self destructive thoughts. Thinking the same old stupid fucking script where i beat myself up and then someone tells me its ok and ill be ok someday but i wanna be ok right fucking now but im not and i dont know what this had devolved into but im not ok with how i think and how i act right now but something needs to change and i dont think ill ever really fix the way i think. Maybe i can change the way i act but my brain is so ingrained into these self destructive patterns of thinking and horrible repetitive slumps of depression and total lack of motivation that it really feels like a trench i can never get out of i ruin relationships and i ruin chancea i get opporrunity and i spit in its face and i have no social skills and thats just the icing on the cake Sorry Wanted to whine I guess

[a-wallflower-of-sorts]

It's hard knowing you'll never be good enough for the person you truly want. It's even harder watching the right person be there and having to be happy for both of them.

[thinkofstars]

One day I hope I find somebody that treats me like a person and sincerely cares I feel like nobody ever would Fuck

[intothebleu]

Last night was crazy insane awesome and also bizarre. I slept passed out in a child's bed somehow and maybe got three hours of sleep before Carissa came looking for me because I didn't cuddle with her and she couldn't find me :3 I feel drunk still and warm and giddy and really happy to have such amazing people in my life and also still angry about creepzilla who came in here last night and tried to take advantage of my drunken friends. No. Okay. I love you guys.

[thegiantredpanda]

Nothing was the same

It's a new year, with this comes new beginnings. I'm honestly excited for what's to come. This past year has brought much wisdom and even a cure to the depression that I thought would kill me one day. I'm excited for the success that lies ahead and (hopefully) for love. I've matured to the point where I *believe* I know what I want/ need in a significant other and where I can have a decent amounting confidence when it comes to woman. I know I can do better and I WILL. I honestly fear what I have with Malesa though. I told her for the first time I loved her...like that's big deal for me honestly. I don't like to say that those words to people. That adds her to the list of family members( which I'm not 100% if I feel that way for ) and my 3 homies back home ( DW , RM, & AD) . Like that's big for me.... I hope she realizes. I just fear getting depressed and mistaking that love for her as something different. ... Or maybe she actually is the right person. I may never know. . Anyway,I had a good time hanging out with old friend and their new friends although I don't think they drink as much at their schools as we do at mine bc I don't think I was ever really drunk drunk, but still. I talked to father about getting a text about the engagement, I talked to my best friend ( DW, he'll be my #1 for I while I love that guy), ordered that stupid over expensive 10 deep jersey from karmaloop, and I texted taylor. I think taylor is beautiful and if I somehow manage to make her mine this semester ( she's beautiful, smart, family oriented, doesn't drunk and she's all about some Jesus ) I honestly think I'll be one of the happiest, luckiest guys in the world ( if I manage to simultaneously keep my grades) .... ... .. . I should prob go to sleep Happy new year all and , Stay positive