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Intro

I made this blog to vent about things.

I have an ileostomy.

Currently recovering from a proctectomy. aka barbie butt surgery.

I had ulcerative colitis which led to a bowel perforation which led to an emergency open surgery which led to the doctors removing my large intestine.

I’m early 20s

they/them

Every time I think about getting the rest of my stitches out I start crying.

I seriously can’t fucking do it. The pain is way too much.

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Got my stitches removed today from my proctectomy surgery.

One of the worst fucking pains of my entire life.

Was swearing and crying the entire time. I have to go back next week because I was in way too much pain to get them all out.

They got 10 I think there’s 3 left.

I had to keep taking breaks because it hurt so much.

I felt so awful because I was probably wasting the doctors time.

I’m so disappointed in myself that I couldn’t get them all out today.

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There’s 6 left, 6 fucking stitches. And they’re nearly in my vagina fuck this.

Why can’t they just put me to sleep for it. I seriously don’t know if I can do that again

Got my stitches removed today from my proctectomy surgery.

One of the worst fucking pains of my entire life.

Was swearing and crying the entire time. I have to go back next week because I was in way too much pain to get them all out.

They got 10 I think there’s 3 left.

I had to keep taking breaks because it hurt so much.

I felt so awful because I was probably wasting the doctors time.

I’m so disappointed in myself that I couldn’t get them all out today.

It would be really awesome and cool if my surgery wound healed

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I want the stitches out

3 more days to go

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Yeah so I have to wait another week fuck this stupid fucking bs

I want to draw but it’s so difficult to do on my side. Can’t wait to see the doctors and ask about lying on my back

I got my period fuck my fucking life.

I just wanted one month without it. Last surgery I didn’t get it for 2 months

I want the stitches out

3 more days to go

I’m lying in bed in pain wondering why I’m in pain like mf you were cut open and had parts removed and then sewn back together. It’s gonna hurt

saw the surgeon today! he said it all seems really good and that stitches can come out next week!

I was really worried about the site being unclean and gross but now I’m feeling really relieved.

It would be nice if I could skip the whole healing process and be ok again

I think the most painful part about this surgery so far is that I had a reaction to the stuff they put on my wounds so its very itchy and red

I want to have a shower but they’re making me wait until morning :(

I should probably go back to sleep but I’m worried if I do then when I wake up I won’t feel like having a shower anymore.

I know I’ve been complaining a lot, but this surgery was so much easier to deal with compared to the last one.

I thought I was going to be in loads of pain again and I haven’t been which is really really nice. It still hurts but nowhere near as bad as before.

They put me in a different room which I would be able to cope with but there’s an older man in here too and the toilet is right next to his bed. He doesn’t have his curtain shut so I have to walk right past him to get there.

He’s done literally nothing wrong I’m just stressing the fuck out because I don’t want him to acknowledge me. There’s another toilet but it’s way further away. Idk I’m just fucking anxious and want to go home

the bedsheet has been changed yay!

was going to also have a shower but I went on a walk and started to feel really hot and kinda sick so I’ll probably have one later.

I wanted to change my bag too but i’ll wait until after I have a shower later

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