CHAPTERS 61-64 HAVE LEFT ME BROKEN AND UNABLE TO FUNCTION PROPERLY so here's another long rant about albert james moriarty that i have kept pent-up, part one of idk how many posts i will make after this PLEASE BEAR WITH ME I ONLY JUST FINISHED CH64 AND I CANT KEEP ALL OF THIS TO MYSELF
first off, these panels right here from chapter 61. you have no idea how much my heart broke. here, we see a flashback of albert's childhood and we see him talking to a boy and at first glance, albert felt relief to be able to talk about their aspirations in life without feeling the need to bring up their respective statuses.
AND IT JUST HURTS THE FUCK OUT OF MY FEELINGS WHEN IT WAS REVEALED THAT THE BOY'S INTENTION OF BEFRIENDING ALBERT WAS SOLELY BECAUSE OF HIS STATUS. AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE, HE ALREADY HAD HIS TRUST BROKEN. THE PAIN IN HIS EYES AFTER FINDING OUT ABOUT THIS BETRAYAL??!???? THERE'S SO MUCH HURT BEHIND HIS EYES AND I AM SOBBING
every single person who approached him was only interested in befriending him BECAUSE OF HIS STATUS and even though he's smiling in the last panel (as seen on the third photo on the right), there's a hint of sadness and disappointment in his face: he may be surrounded with people but none of them shared his ideals and because of that, he felt even more alone.. with nobody to talk to about his plans, his perspective of the world and the changes he wants to see in it
even his own biological brother then didn't understand him, didn't know him well enough because unlike albert, william shared the same viewpoints as any other noble
let's proceed to the day when albert showed compassion towards a man who he believed could still change if given the chance to atone for his sins. albert was a firm believer that maybe, just maybe, if the man reflected about his actions and the consequences it might bring, he'll become a better person
what happened after was when things took a turn for the worst on albert's behalf I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHERE I'M GOING WITH THIS POST BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT TO SAY AND I'M A CRYING MESS
this was the part in chapter 61 that really broke my heart. albert has been kind and patient with the people around him, regardless of whatever status they have in life.
but what did he get from those in the end? he was betrayed and was left questioning whether the things he had been doing was right all along
HE FELT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE MAN'S DEMISE AND BLAMED HIMSELF FOR WHAT HAPPENED WHEN HE HAD NO CONTROL OF THE SITUATION CAN YOU HEAR MY HEART SHATTERING INTO A MILLION PIECES RIGHT NOW
the incident left him in a place of hopelessness and he even got to the point of wanting to do away with his life BECAUSE HE COULDN'T TAKE ANY MORE CRUELTY, ANY FORM OF BETRAYAL, ANY FORM OF THE WORLD'S SUFFERING ... ALL HIS LIFE GROWING UP, HE WAS SO ALONE AND WAS SO SUFFOCATED WITH THE WAY THE WORLD WORKS .. he didn't even feel that he had enough power to change it because he thought of himself to be a coward, who lacked courage
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?!
ALBERT JAMES MORIARTY, YOU WERE NOT A COWARD. you stood firm with what you believed in, you offered to help the orphanage with the time that you had and made a lot of children and the people who worked there happy, and you never allowed the world to distort nor taint your own viewpoints. ALBERT JAMES MORIARTY YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA HOW THE SMALLEST ACTS OF KINDNESS YOU HAVE SHOWN TO PEOPLE MADE AN IMPACT IN THEIR LIVES; WHAT THEY CHOOSE TO DO AFTER WILL NEVER BE YOUR FAULT






















