*.:｡✧ betrayal. * hiatus

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i think im going to be putting this blog on a hiatus. not only do i have my exams the next coming weeks but my time in the thirteen reasons why fandom has been less than favourable. this fandom is rather clique based – and you’ll find people who will throw others under the rug in order to gain sympathy – I suppose that’s truly any fandom - but when it’s to this extent it’s overwhelming. i want to thank everyone who has given this jessica blog a chance and appreciate each and every one of you. i will see you all in the near future!! ( if you want to contact me just shoot me a dm and i will provide my dlscord )

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i think im going to be putting this blog on a hiatus. not only do i have my exams the next coming weeks but my time in the thirteen reasons why fandom has been less than favourable. this fandom is rather clique based – and you’ll find people who will throw others under the rug in order to gain sympathy – I suppose that’s truly any fandom - but when it’s to this extent it’s overwhelming. i want to thank everyone who has given this jessica blog a chance and appreciate each and every one of you. i will see you all in the near future!! ( if you want to contact me just shoot me a dm and i will provide my dlscord )

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remember that time i met tyler hoechlin when i was playing derek hale on indie .... good times

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i’m tired of this fandom

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Maybe that’s just wishful thinking.

unsent messages sentence meme !! | accepting

         “ i  feel  like  maybe  everything  these  days  is  just  wishful  thinking. ”

    jessica’s  hand  dug  into  the  strap  of  her  backpack.  her  anger  flushing  threw  her  as  she  tried  to  keep  her  composure.   this  was  getting  overwhelming.  all  of  this  is  just  so --  it  seems  to  FAKE.  it  seems  like  a  nightmare  she  can’t  wake  up  from. 

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unsent messages sentence meme !! 

I’m never going to know if you ever felt or feel the same way and right now I’m not so sure I want to know.

Maybe we should have taken whatever it was that we had further.

Maybe we should have taken that shot in the dark.

Maybe we should have never started.

Maybe I’m being pathetic.

Maybe all of this is pointless because we both know we’ll end up back with one another anyway, we’ve always been driven towards one another.

Maybe we’ll both move on, have happy lives as friends, maybe I’ll stay in this horrid state I’m in and you’ll be happy, maybe it’ll be the other way around. Who knows?

Time is cruel, we lost our chance and trying to take it back was probably stupid, because now we’re both hurting…

Maybe I’m overreacting?

Maybe we’ll end up happy together.

Maybe that’s just wishful thinking.

[NAME], I love you, I want you to be happy and if that means sacrificing my own happiness then so be it, after all, it’s what I’ve always done.

I want to hug you, cradle you, I want you to tell me what’s hurting and I’ll make it better.

I want the world to go away, so it’s just me and you alone with one another…maybe I’m just being a pathetic, weak, naive, over-emotional, stupid, annoying, fucking idiotic teenager and maybe you hate me.

Maybe you don’t like my constant need of reassurance.

Maybe you don’t like my weight or my spots or my lack of outer beauty and only see me as an object to fuck and discard on the ground like I don’t matter.

Maybe it’s just the sad punk rock I’m listening to but I’m truly realising how lonely I really am. No matter how many friends I have to comfort me, I’m always in need of more.

Maybe you want [NAME] and not me, you can have her now. I’ll just leave the group and watch you two be happy from afar.

Why did this have to happen?

Do you know how much I’m breaking? How much I’ve cried? How much my heart is breaking at the very thought of you?  

Fucking hell I’m pathetic and stupid and I hate myself…

[spider-woman]

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because i can’t decided what to do for jess’s teen wolf verse please vote here on what you’d like to see!! it would be a huge help to me.

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because i can’t decided what to do for jess’s teen wolf verse please vote here on what you’d like to see!! it would be a huge help to me.

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when alisha is in teen wolf so u feel like u should make that ur teen wolf verse but @ the same time u refuse to watch season 6 ??

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“keep in touch, okay?”

i don’t remember what meme this is from 

        jessica  looked  around  to  see  if   hannah  was  speaking  to  anyone  around  them.  she  turned  a  couple  times  before  looking  back  at  hannah  with  a  dumb  founded  look  on  her  face.  ---  completely  forgetting  that  she  was  going  away  with  her  family  for   two  weeks.  because  like  --  she  was  still  going  to  be  drinking  this  hot  chocolate  for  another  twenty  minutes.

                    “  who’s  going  where, now ? ”

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“Fuck, I’m so wasted.”

i forget what this meme is from because it’s been so long but onrnb

           jessica  was  pissed  at   ALL  of  them.  literally  --  there  was  no  person  she  didn’t  feel  betrayed  by  at  this  moment.  mostly  because  they  ignored  her  --  didn’t  try  to  contact  her  after  justin  exposed  what  really  happened  at  bryce’s.   none  of  the  boys  were   there  for  her.  and  she  thought  she  was  their  friend.  she  thought  she  was  more  than  just  justin’s  girlfriend.  but  she  rolled  her  eyes  at  zach  before  speaking  aloud.  her  voice  hitching. 

                          “  careful,  BRYCE  might  get  you. ”

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“take a deep breath. start at the beginning.”

      i honestly don’t know what meme this is from but here we go

            jessica  struggled  to  do  just  that.  she  couldn’t  breath.  she  was  shaking  tears  were  flowing  from  her  eyes.  she  could  barely  find  the  words  to  express  how  she  was  feeling  --  let  alone  get  the  air  to  come  back  into  her  lungs.  she  felt  herself  crumble.  everything  was  just  pilling  up  --  not  only  was  she  still  trying  to  process  what  happened  to  her  but  --  because  of  how  long  it’s  been   ---  she  was  struggling  to  understand  why  hannah  didn’t  TELL  her.  why  she  just  ran  and  left  her.  how  could  she  have  done  that.  jessica  may  have  slapped  her  but   --  she  would  NEVER  have  left  her  alone  after  that.  after  what  HE  did.   and  she  couldn’t  believe  that  no  one  even  thought  about  it  that  way.   that  TONY  wouldn’t  think  about  it  this  way.

                         “   people  hid  it  from  me  --  my  boyfriend  hid  it                              from  me  and  you  did  nothing. ”

[legthief-deactivated20150506]

send me ☞ + a character to see how i would portray them.

[covrtney]

    are you interested in closeted-lesbians, who act sweet but are fake as hell   &&   will throw any    &&    everyone under the bus if it meant saving their own ass? if so, look no further!!   thisINDEPENDENT   &    SELECTIVE    courtney crimsen      from 13 reasons why is for you.

[candicepattxns]

jess in her cheer uniform - ep 1.07

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me: nervous about memorizing this drama thing me: finds out i have to write a 15 page report on it too me: fuck.