The Scar

Brian Austen | 30 | Serial Killer & Drug Lord Extrordinaire London, England "It's a pretty big shock to realise that the only people you can identify with are psychopathic killers."

[thetrippalder-blog]

Thanks. [he mumbled his words before devouring the steak] Just because he’s some old fat fuck that doesn’t know when to die off doesn’t mean he owns everything under the sun. He can piss all over the blood suckers, but there’s no reason he should be on us, too. We’re not even his kind. 

That wasn’t even my intention. He started going on about respect and I just said I wasn’t his pet. Next thing I know he’s got his teeth in me.

[scarsausten-blog]

Aw, come on, don't call him old. He's only like a century older than me. [He almost laughed, putting the hearts in a bowl with blood and waking over to Luca] He's on you because you're on his team, simple as that. [He shrugged, handing the bowl to Luca] Eat up.

But if it continues to be out of control, let me know and I'll handle it. 

[thetrippalder-blog]

[he walked in, staying close to anything he might be able to use to keep him standing in case if his legs were to give] What makes him think I should bow down and lick his feet, huh? [he stammers over his words quite a bit, while he makes his way towards the closest seat and sits down] 

[scarsausten-blog]

[Brian shook his head, closing the door behind him and walking to the fridge. He tosses Luca a raw steak and begins defrosting two hearts.] He's the original, head honcho, came-from-sand-and-blood guy. He's a little entitled. You don't have to act like his pet, but fuckin' fuck man. Don't get your ass killed over it.

[thetrippalder-blog]

Amando.

 I wasn’t going to let him treat me like some bitch pet he could kick around. 

[scarsausten-blog]

Get inside before I strangle you, pup. We need to defrost a heart or two for you before you fucking die.

[thetrippalder-blog]

"God damn it, why does this bullshit keep happening to me?"

[scarsausten-blog]

The fuck happened to your ass?

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[revamandoricci-blog]

"Well, as long as I am not the one being called a teddybear by everyone. I’m a happy vampire and I might even sparkle like those in those horrible movies."

[scarsausten-blog]

"Eh, I get mutt more often than teddy bear. Then I kill them and all is well in the world again."

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[revamandoricci-blog]

Yes, You really are a sight to watch. Always whisking your tail and showing your teeth all too happily it’s almost adorable. 

[scarsausten-blog]

I'm a wolf, I like to growl and have the occasional tummy scratch. Don't judge. You're always walking about snarling at people and drinking the streets of Rome dry and I don't say anything about it.

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[revamandoricci-blog]

Oh please. Just two-hundred years. You barely missed me. 

[scarsausten-blog]

I've had enough to do to pass the time, yeah. What brings you around? You must have missed me. I know I'm delightful.

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[revamandoricci-blog]

Just came to visit an old friend. 

[scarsausten-blog]

Been a while since you came around, Strigoi.

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[laurennesrage]

"I’ll find out," she promised him. "And I’ll bring you his head."

Despite struggling with her own thoughts, she didn’t fight him once he pulled her closer; in fact, made it easier by wrapping an arm around his broad shoulders as she allowed herself to breathe, truly breathe, for the first time. She had her gaze fixed downwards, and when she looked up, found him already staring— and at first, she stared back. But after a second, she realised what he was doing — seeing more than he was supposed to see —, and looked away. She was never able to tell how he did it, get past such a perfect vessel, that was only even broken when her energy was focused on using her powers, but he did it anyway. 

She exhaled and looked back at Brian, leaving aside what she looked like. His words took away any weight that had been heavenly upon her shoulders, the proof of that coming in the most life-filled smile that a creature who walks side by side with death could bare. “Are you just saying that to make me happy?” She had to ask. “I will do whatever you want me to do, because my… love outweights any sort of loyalty I have to anyone, even to myself. I’ve been choosing who lives and who dies ever since I can remember; maybe you should choose, now.” Her voice was barely a whisper now, as though there would be consequences should they be caught talking about such things however unlikely. She inched closed and kissed his cheek before saying, “If you decide to live, I’ll be with you for every second of it— if you’d like me to.”

[scarsausten-blog]

He could not be sure why he believed her with such ease, even with a promise so bold, but he did and there was nothing for him to say, so Brian simply smiled.

The nearly gold irises that fixed themselves on prey in the dark of night, now shone with an unnatural brightness as Brian gazed upon the form of a woman— a Valkyrie— to whom he never could have guessed he would form such an attachment. Though it was much more than a simple desire now and he knew it. Brian could feel how deeply he needed her in the very fibers keeping his muscles intact. The thought of living without her or leaving her alone in this world, as he had been, was physically taxing and emotionally draining.

"I would do anything to make you happy," he admitted, holding her face in his hands. "But this is as much selfish as selfless." His smile faded as she offered him the choice to leave an earth he detested, until now, and had she never come into his life, Brian would have taken it without thought. His gazed dropped as he shook his head. "I want to stay," he said finally, through a heavy breath. "I want to live each moment with you until the sun burns up and the wold ends." Stroking a thumb across her cheek, Brian gazed into her mesmerizing eyes and smiled. "This life, the next, and everything after— I want to spend it with you as my wife, my love, and the only person I will ever need until the end of all things."

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[laurennesrage]

"Then who did?" She asked, a certain heaviness in her voice that wasn’t typically there otherwise. "I’ll kill them, whoever they are, if that would make you happy." 

She listened to him, nodding at the information given. She should have known, she’d been around for long enough to be exposed to such information, although werewolves and their hierarchy were never of her concern until her and Brian’s paths decided to cross. “I’ll get you an Alpha,” she said quickly. “I’ve found people over the centuries that were actually trying to hide, how hard can this be?” Placing her hand atop of his, Ren forced a toothless smile, but looking at him made it difficult to support it. She kept it up for as long as she could, but before the beat was up she began shaking her head; there was no reason to start hiding things from him now. She’d said it, and she meant it: she had better chances at fooling herself than she had at fooling him.

"You’re right," she smiled, not hiding it this time. "Everything is selfish. I want to help you die, because that’s what you want… but I’ll be here forever, even if you leave. And— the idea of living in a world without sickens me."

[scarsausten-blog]

"If I knew, I would tell you." he sighed, shaking his head. "It simply is, now."

Brian wrapped his arm around her waist, pressing his forearm against her back as he pulled the Valkyrie closer, listening to her explain how she would help him meet the end he so desperately desired until his eyes found her face for the first time - both times. First, the shell of a human and, second, her true face. He could not forget her like each and every other being that had waltzed in an out of his immortal life, but he didn't want to forget her, either. 

Brian thought carefully before speaking for what felt like the first time. "If forever gave me you, I would gladly watch the world end." His voice was barely above a whisper and caught in his throat, wrapping around his tongue before falling over his lips. "My love for you far outweighs any desire I have to leave this earth."

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[laurennesrage]

"You’re a creep, have I mentioned that?" She laughed. "Well, I don’t exactly love it either."

The lines of her laugh slowly died down until there were barely any left, simply the ghost of them could be seen as she flashed a sad smile by the time he finished pronouncing his words. She’s always liked to believe that loneliness couldn’t possibly be a part of his reality, since she was there— others, as well, but they were were counted. So was hers, but not even were her lifetimes longer than those of a normal being, there was no escaping of the fact that she would come back shortly after, as she had been doing ever since Earth was Earth. 

"I’m sorry that you have to live like that," she forced herself to say. "You can always befriend Amando, maybe experiment a bit. Be the new Louis and Lestat. A goddess, maybe? They’re immortal."

She allowed her teeth to sink into her bottom lip as her thoughts spun inside her head before speaking again, “Can’t your Beta kill you? Isn’t that how they make new Alphas?” Another pause as she took his hand in hers, the thought of his dead body almost impossible to block away from her conscious mind. “Just make it a good fight, eh? I have to be the one to— It would be an honor—”

[scarsausten-blog]

"If I had a dollar for every time you've said that," he snorted, trailing off as he watched her smile fade into oblivion. 

Absently, as though instinct directed his actions, Brian lifted his hand and let his fingers lift her chin with a gentleness otherwise absent from his person. Her apology pulled the corner of his lips into a taught smile laced with centuries of anguish.

"It is not you that made me this way," he nearly whispered, running his fingers along her jaw. "This is how I was born, it is my curse." He attempted a laugh at the thought of befriending Amando. "He shall always be around should I become lonely enough, but it is unlikely that I will kindle a friendship with him."

Brian nodded slowly and exhaled softly. "Were I simply the alpha of any pack, yes. My Beta could kill me whenever she gained the strength, but I cannot be killed in such manners. I am the first of my kind; born into the curse and bound to it for eternity or until another Alpha of my kind comes to kill me."

His eyes rested on her hand, holding it tightly. "No, it would be an honor for me to be taken home by the one I love."

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[bloggingasromeburns-deactivated]

You’re big, but I’m fast. 

I’m sorry, Your Highness, I got carried away by seeing you like this. I won’t tell anyone.

[scarsausten-blog]

You better not or I'll turn your fur into a muff. But how the fuck do I even propose? I don't- this shit is not my strong suit. 

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[laurennesrage]

"Wait, weren’t you?" She asked teasingly. "The whole pretending to be someone’s grandma thing? Too bad you can’t pull that trick on me, since I never had a grandma. You in a nighty is quite possibly worth one of my lifetimes."

"You’re the one to talk, you’re not waking up as a child every time you die," she chuckled, looking down as she thought back at the times she crossed the line of life and death over her countless years. "Trust me, I’ve kicked the bucket a few times and it does not feel good.” She stooped, and allowed herself to study him for a moment. “Are you saying that you would like to die?”

[scarsausten-blog]

"Yeah, that was me. Definitely. I just can't resist brunettes in red cloaks and shit." he scoffed, cracking his fingers. "Eh. I'd rather you didn't die, but whatever floats your boat."

Brian examined the delicate line of her fingers as she spoke, silently marveling at how something so powerful could inhabit such a delicate creature. "Hm?" he hummed, looking up. "It's an experience I wish I had access to, yes. Being alone gets old after a while."

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[bloggingasromeburns-deactivated]

…

Oh God. Go get married. And I better get a good seat or else I’m telling everyone how much of a wuss you really are, Mr. “I Love her with every drop of bloo— that was beautiful and I need a moment.

[scarsausten-blog]

You know sometimes it is really difficult to keep myself from tearing out your heart or cutting out your tongue. If she says yes, I'll give you a good seat if you promise not to fucking tell the internet everything.  

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[laurennesrage]

"Thank you," she said. "And now I’ll pretend to believe it. See? Works perfectly."

"Selfish reasons, I assume, but I’m not complaining."

[scarsausten-blog]

"We're good at this whole pretending shebang," Brian chuckled inwardly. "Maybe we should have been actors."

"Not much in life can be considered something other than selfish. Especially when you don't have the luxury of death."

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[bloggingasromeburns-deactivated]

I could really use a quesadilla right now. Oh— about the thing? I mean, does it matter what I think? Unless you’re planning on adopting me or something, because on that case, she’d probably be a cool mom, but you’d scare all my boyfriends away. 

Okay, I’m sorry— it’s weird. Talking about this. With you. Uh, do you love her?

[scarsausten-blog]

You're my Beta, it matters. And I already scare all your boyfriends away, so it wouldn't be anything new.

Yeah, trust me, I fuckin' know. It's weird thinking about it, but it is what it is. Yes, Gui. I love her with every drop of blood I have, but more importantly I respect her and I would protect her with my life if she fucking needed it. Which she doesn't.

[scarsausten-blog]

Need somethin'?

[bloggingasromeburns-deactivated]

I know, that’s why it would be even more concerning. So what is—

[scarsausten-blog]

Yeah, I figured you'd react like that. So, thoughts?