brain melt

blog to vent about my mental health with SzPD, ADHD, PTSD, PMDD, depression, anxiety, gender dysphoria, etc etc and other traumas. 🚫 no neurotypicals allowed 🚫

[kosmogrl]

the thing is, it’s never too late for anyone to start over except me. I’m doomed and it’s over for me

[wordsmayneverhurtme]

[faintlyhauntedsanctuary-deactiv]

Why does nobody ever talk about the worst part of SzPD. How you can be incapable of doing even the things you want to do the most because you can't want to do anything. Even the most important things in your life have zero importance to you. Nothing can make you motivated. I fucking hate anhedonia and avolition. It is ruining my life.

[genderindifferent]

Being schizoid harms you not only from social isolation but also because of neglect towards yourself. I do not care about my health, I rot as my body gets more and more ill. Ironically, I barely care that I have serious physical conditions to manage them. Schizoid people have the worst quality of life because it is a personality of self-sabotage.

[kosmogrl]

not a caller not a texter but a secret third thing

[kosmogrl]

don’t contact me. ever

[schizoidrats]

My grandma who i havent seen in 16 years (because she said im evil and have a darkness inside me because I was 15 and wanted to talk to my friends on the computer all day) keeps trying to add me on fb

[valtsv]

like i don't say this as some kind of fucked up humblebrag it's something i'm deeply ashamed of but i hurt a lot of people before i realised that i wasn't only indifferent to romance but that there was no obligation for me to perform it at all. so when i say "i won't make you happy" or "i can't give you what you want" it's not some insecure self-deprecation thing, it's your final warning. i'm not wife material i'll chew off both our legs to escape.

[plushcorp]

yoy all just hate me because I'm cold and distant and don't put effort into any relationships and off putting and frustrating to try to help or make plans with and I don't text and I don't call and I don't like doing much and I constantly make excuses for it all

[schizoidrats]

I have a severe infection in my jaw that almost went sepsis and it's really killing my will to live since I cannot get a sergeon appointment for another few months

[schizoidrats]

Overwhelming anxiety because I have to work with a coworker who mildly annoys me

[schizoidrats]

I thought my manager was gonna yell at me but I got a raise instead!!!!!!

[schizoidrats]

Buying so much stuff online and making future convention plans or else im gonna kms even tho I can't afford to keep buying stuff!!!!!!

[12thgrave]

“your trauma doesn’t define you” no actually it does. it dictates every aspect of my shitty life.

[honestloverboy]

Sorry for having symptoms of a mental illness I literally told you I have it will happen again

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[schizoidrats]

I begged for change in my life and now nothing is the same anymore

[breanna-lynn]

“Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing.”

—

Elizabeth Gilbert