brain melt

blog to vent about my mental health with SzPD, ADHD, PTSD, PMDD, depression, anxiety, gender dysphoria, etc etc and other traumas. 🚫 no neurotypicals allowed 🚫

[schizoidrats]

My grandma who i havent seen in 16 years (because she said im evil and have a darkness inside me because I was 15 and wanted to talk to my friends on the computer all day) keeps trying to add me on fb

[valtsv]

like i don't say this as some kind of fucked up humblebrag it's something i'm deeply ashamed of but i hurt a lot of people before i realised that i wasn't only indifferent to romance but that there was no obligation for me to perform it at all. so when i say "i won't make you happy" or "i can't give you what you want" it's not some insecure self-deprecation thing, it's your final warning. i'm not wife material i'll chew off both our legs to escape.

[plushcorp]

yoy all just hate me because I'm cold and distant and don't put effort into any relationships and off putting and frustrating to try to help or make plans with and I don't text and I don't call and I don't like doing much and I constantly make excuses for it all

[schizoidrats]

I have a severe infection in my jaw that almost went sepsis and it's really killing my will to live since I cannot get a sergeon appointment for another few months

[schizoidrats]

Overwhelming anxiety because I have to work with a coworker who mildly annoys me

[schizoidrats]

I thought my manager was gonna yell at me but I got a raise instead!!!!!!

[schizoidrats]

Buying so much stuff online and making future convention plans or else im gonna kms even tho I can't afford to keep buying stuff!!!!!!

[12thgrave]

“your trauma doesn’t define you” no actually it does. it dictates every aspect of my shitty life.

[honestloverboy]

Sorry for having symptoms of a mental illness I literally told you I have it will happen again

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[schizoidrats]

I begged for change in my life and now nothing is the same anymore

[breanna-lynn]

“Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing.”

—

Elizabeth Gilbert

[toastbutteregg]

[gotterhag]

This is an EXTREMELY blessed post! And accurate! When I first moved out I was so excited for my new place I slept on the floor and had my tv there and that was it. Loved it. You grow and you build and you gain and you lose. I lost that place and everything in it. Now I have a new place with new things and it’s very much home.

[dexdefyingstunts]

In the future, there is a small, quiet room that is just yours, where you are safe and you are free. In that room your shoulders will finally start to come down from around your ears.  Nobody can come into that room unless you let them.  In that clean quiet place, you will work and you will study.  You will love and you will heal.

-Captain Awkward, “Should I Move Away From My Abusive Family?”

[bitchesgetriches]

Leaving Home before 18: A Practical Guide for Cast-Offs, Runaways, and Everybody in Between

Ask the Bitches: “I Just Turned 18 and My Parents Are Kicking Me Out. How Do I Brace Myself?”

{ MASTERPOST } Everything You Need To Know About Living Independently for the First Time

[schizoidrats]

Stopped taking my meds stopped cleaning my room stopped eating stopped sleeping stopped taking care of myself

[schizoidrats]

I think that maybe...perhaps....the 10g shroom hell hole I was in last year gave me HPPD because I will randomly get shroom-like movement visuals or ill wake up with the same full body and brain intense feeling that only shrooms gives me but I haven't taken them since my bad trip

[vacuiterror]

yk its bad when u wna cry in ur mothers arms like a small child again even though she ruined you

[schizoidrats]

I moved to a place with no noise ordinance and the neighbors here take full advantage of that and it's driving me up the wall