usually, im just trying to get some sleep

A blog focused on schizotypal personality disorder, its symptoms, and my experiences with it. my experiences are not universal by any means, but feel free to ask me your questions and i’ll do my best to answer or offer advice <3

[recoverymatters]

🌟 Creating your own Self-Care Box 🌟

Step 1: Get a box, any size is fine! 

Step 2: Decorate it! (I used wallpaper and paint) 

Step 3: Buy things to go inside your box - Remember this is your self-care box, so fill it with things that distract, comfort, relax and cheer you up in times of distress.

For example:

Sensory toys  🌟 

Puzzle books 🌟 

DVD’s 🌟 

Colouring books with pens or pencils 🌟 

Soft toys/teddies (These are great for comfort) 🌟 

Stickers 🌟 

Play-Doh! 🌟

Write a few letters to yourself for when you need them 🌟 

For example - Your favourite memories, reasons to stay alive, reasons not to self-harm, you can do this, motivational quotes, the things you love about yourself

Diary or Notepad 🌟

Step 4: Once you have all your items of choice put them all into your box! 🌟 

Step 5: Whenever you feel low, anxious, scared, alone, angry or distressed. Go to your box. It will always be there for you when you need it. 

If you make one, take a picture and show me! 

Stay strong my warriors  💖🌟 

[siavahdainthemoon]

anyone who dissociates semi-constantly, please avoid traditional mindfulness

I have now been told by two mental health professionals in two days that under NO CIRCUMSTANCES EVER am I to practice traditional Mindfulness exercises

Apparently ‘feeling like I’m dissolving’ and also that ‘I’m rising out of my body’, and being passing-out-exhausted afterwards, are all the complete OPPOSITE of what’s meant to happen

Who knew???

But seriously - this is something that apparently happens to people who are low-key (or not so low-key) disassociating semi-constantly, and is really really not good for you. So if you’re one of those people, like me! then there are other forms of mindfulness that may be more appropriate for you - specifically touch/sensation based, rather than the guided-thinking, breath- and sensory-focusing exercises that make up traditional mindfulness programs/exercises. Talk to your local health care professional if at all possible. 

But basically, if you know you have issues with disassociation, and somebody recommends a mindfulness program to you, BRING UP THE FACT THAT YOU DISASSOCIATE. Because normal mindfulness can be super bad for you. There ARE apparently mindfulness programs that can be helpful, but they have to be catered to the disassociation. So.

Please bear that in mind, everybody.

[wolfinthethorns]

To add: mindfulness practices are also contraindicated for people who experience psychosis, paranoia, or hallucinations, and there’s debate over how safe they are for people who live with OCD.

[tdmickey-archive]

everyone: lol !! the mandela effect is so weird !!!!! we have bad memories lol !!!!!

me, a schizotypal, with 22 tabs open, a documentary playing, and an entire coffee pot sitting on my desk:

[clowncryptic]

one thing i really hate that non-psychotic/schizoid people do:

“”maybe they are actually real!””

“”what if they are actually ghosts/demons/people??!””

“”maybe the voices are trying to tell you something””

please stop

it’s scary enough having to see and hear the things i do on a daily basis

and the only thing that keeps me safe and not fucking loosing it completely is knowing that it is a symptom and that it’s not real

[dpdr-ness]

Hey there!

reminder i have games, masterlists, playlists, and resources tags. keep yourself busy, try not to stay in the silence. it can be harmful sometimes

[paastelbee]

things not talked about enough the in schizophrenic/schizophrenic-personality disorder community:

-being high functioning and being told your experiences aren’t as valid or believable if you tell people -talking in weird patterns or mixing things up and constantly getting made fun of -like ever sentence you say someone repeats it back in a mocking tone and then laughs -actually having emotions but not knowing how to express them so people think you’re cold and awful -getting rid of your friends on purpose because you feel Bad and Horrible

[this-is-psychosis]

I often talk about reality checking and going along with it when helping someone deal with delusions, but I felt as if I didn’t really make it clear to what I meant when I said it.

Recently I saw a post similar to “how to sneakily give your delusional friend a reality check when they told you not to” and honestly, that’ll just make us lose trust for you. Because we can tell when you do that.

[mentalhealthexperiences-deactiv]

Resources for Psychotic Disorders

What is Psychosis?

What is Psychosis?

The Symptoms of Psychosis

Psychotic Experiences

What are Hallucinations?

What are Delusions?

What is Disorganized Speech?

Catatonic Schizophrenia 

Negative Symptoms of Schizophrenia

Psychotic Disorders

Schizophrenia and Other Psychotic Disorders

What is Schizophrenia?

Schizophrenia Fact Sheet

Symptoms of Schizophrenia

About Schizophrenia 

What is Schizoaffective Disorder?

Symptoms of Schizoaffective Disorder 

Schizophreniform Disorder

Delusional Disorder

Symptoms of Delusional Disorder

Brief Psychotic Disorder

Schizotypal Personality Disorder

Dealing with Psychosis

How Can I Help Myself?

Coping with Hallucinations and Delusions

Getting Help and Support (Hearing Voices Network)

Schizophrenics Anonymous

Schizophrenia Treatment

Dealing with Paranoia 

Self Help for Psychosis

CBT for Psychosis

[schizoidprince]

tstpdfw speaking in broken sentences just because it feels right

[neurofish]

yeah, being on the schizo spectrum is lots of fun!!!! nothing makes sense and everything is scary

[eggysunwin-moved-deactivated201]

there aren’t enough positivity posts for how i feel so shoutout to the people who:

hallucinate but not enough for it to a) be a symptom; b) earn sympathy

hear voices/songs/other auditory hallucinations but not enough to affect them, therefore feeling invalidated for psychosis

have delusions and are told a) maybe it’s something else, it’s not real; b) you’re imagining things

then continue to think that those people aren’t real/are plotting against them

shoutout to all of you. your symptoms are completely valid. you’re completely valid.

[avoidantdoe]

That nice stpd feel when someone actually explains why they didn’t understand what you said, doesn’t jump to conclusions based on your confusing speech or writing, and/or just asks you to repeat yourself or clarify something.  

[schizotypal-pd]

tstpdfw

your best friend reads your text but doesn’t respond, and you spiral and begin to question reality

[kaerlighedsbrev-deactivated2020]

okay but lets talk abt how easy it is to abuse psychotic people, esp if youre nonpsychotic. ppl know that clustered ppl are easier to abuse but no one mentions those on the psychosis-spec when honestly, its a big deal.

it is so easy to gaslight us, because our perceptions of reality are already warped anyway. so when someone makes us doubt, we will believe them (even with actual proof of the opposite sometimes), because we cannot trust ourselves.

when we trust you, its so easy to make us dependent on you? its so easy to tell us youll keep us safe, and that the bad things youre doing are to help us.

you can so easily feed into our delusions, either by making us distrust everyone else (esp if were paranoid) or to make us trust you more, or just to get a good old laugh.

making us believe were hallucinating when were not, purposefully twisting our words when were disorganised, making us depend on you for a check on reality, telling us you know whats best for us bc our psychosis will make us cope in “bad” ways, ignoring what we tell you, blaming our reactions on our psychosis, making us seem irrational, threatening to hospitalise us because people will definitely believe you when you say were dangerous, there is so much more which nonpsychotic people do that no one talks about.

but most importantly:

you can excuse your abuse, make others believe youre in the right, because we wouldnt know whats best for us, right? no one would believe us when they know were psychotic, and thats so easy to take advantage of.

people really have to look out more for psychotic people that are being abused, and trust their words over their abuser’s

(please spread the word also if youre nonpsychotic)

[otteraffe]

People like to forget schizophrenia/schizoaffective/schizotypal isn’t just “seeing things”. It’s severe social anxiety even with your family or best friend, disturbing recurring thoughts, violent thoughts/plans, being overly sexual, sensory overload, wanting to cause chaos just because you totally could, thoughts of self harm, etc. Its not pretty girl with pibk, dirty hair following something across the ceiling.

We’re fucking terrified, not beautiful and tragic.

[this-is-psychosis]

I often talk about reality checking and going along with it when helping someone deal with delusions, but I felt as if I didn’t really make it clear to what I meant when I said it.

Recently I saw a post similar to “how to sneakily give your delusional friend a reality check when they told you not to” and honestly, that’ll just make us lose trust for you. Because we can tell when you do that.