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Weird things keep happening to me and I don't know of they are “signs” or just coincidences. A few days ago I was in line at Chipotle -- I get the same thing at Chipotle every visit -- a bowl with white rice, chicken, hot sauce, a small amount of sour cream, and a lot of cheese. Well, guess what the guy right in front of me ordered? A burrito with white rice, chicken, hot sauce, a little bit of sour cream and a lot of cheese. I mean the way he order was almost word for word to how I usually order. I know Chipotle doesn't have THAT MANY options, but it was still so weird to me.

But listen to this dude....

When I was in the second grade, I lived down in Galveston, Tx. My very first crush was my little brother’s baseball coach’s con -- he was in Ms. Goodwin’s class with me.. Carson Kauffman. I mean, every girl had a crush on him, but he was the very first boy I ever liked. I never saw him again after the second grade, because I moved into the Houston area. Well....I have tried to find him on Facebook and other social media sites and had no luck. I finally found him on twitter and we had a few conversations about how its been so long...yada yada yada. Well, we lost touch for a while after that. Yesterday, I started my first day of summer semester 1 at Texas State and guess who sat down RIGHT IN FRONT ME? CARON KAUFFMAN! I just KNEW it was him. I still had his number form when we last spoke and I had hoped it didn’t change, so I texted him after he sat down. “Is that you right in front of me?” He saw my message and turned around real slow and grinned and I said “heeeey!” He turned back around. I planned to catch him after class, but he was speaking with the teach and I didn't want to wait outside like a stalker and be all weird, so I left. I texted him later on that day and told him it was nice to finally see him after so many years. I didn't get a response. I am now sitting in class just waiting for him to get here in hopes that he may say something to me -- or maybe even just smile. I don't know, but life is weird lately.

Besides the fact that life is getting weird, how do I get him to take some sort of interest in me? I usually come on really strong and I’m usually straight up and ask if someone wants to get together soon whenever I feel the urge. I never hold back...but I don’t think I can do that with Carson. I think maybe I need to hold back. Maybe just ignore the whole thing for a while -- maybe see if he will come around to replying to me or maybe take an interest?

Im a huge believer in true love and people who are “meant to be” and cliche shit like that -- this just seems like one of those weird situations. Any thoughts on this matter..anyone?

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No cheesy captains; I just want to say something that I think everyone needs to hear. God throws challenges at us for a reason. Yes he loves us, but some challenges were meant to hurt us. We can't understand this all the time, but one day we will. He will take people out of our lives just as quick as he brings them in. Maybe you were best friends for six years and now you don't speak. Maybe you only got to spend two weeks with someone and somehow you think they will be in your life forever. And just when everything was going YOUR way, he snatches them up out of your life and puts them somewhere else. You think it's the end of the world, but really it's not. It doesn't matter how YOU wanted it to work out, because things only work out how God wants them to. It's hard to wrap my brain around. It's hard not to be mad at God for letting things/people hurt me. But, I trust that it has always been apart of his plan for my life. Who knows why though... Who knows why I spent two weeks showing a military man around Austin, Texas. Who knows why we crossed paths right before he had to head to South Carolina. Maybe we somehow made an impact on each other's life. Maybe I taught him something that he may hold onto forever. He taught me many things -- about life, about love, about myself. And although things aren't going to work out how I hoped for them to, I'm smiling. Why? Because I know how God works. I know he's got my back and I know he only brings these challenges into my life to better me, strengthen me, and to teach me. So yes, my heart hurts that he's gone. And yes, I feel like he took a piece of me along with him. But, that's what is suppose to happen. We take piece of people and use the experiences they gave us to the best of our abilities. So maybe one day when he thinks about his experience in Texas, he'll think of me and all the things we taught each other and he'll smile. But as for me, I'm smiling now. I thank God for all the trials and errors I go through - that's how we grow. Remember to grow through what go through and smile; even if you don't want to. (at Austin, Texas)