documenting the experiment

chronicles of cognitive decline

[bakwaaas]

this life is mine it did not come to me I chose it I fought for it even the mistakes and the bad days and the regrets they’re all mine

[catcrumb]

[cranberry-branflakes]

they should invent temporary death where I can just not be alive for a while and then be fine like nothing happened and move on

[boy-moans]

you should be able to hit the vibrator like a weed pen if you don't have time to jack off

[loveridden1999]

[depsidase]

[juney-blues]

i'd say i carry a normal amount of all the mild social rejection i've ever received in my body like shrapnel

[greelin]

did perfectionism ever truly protect you from harm or neglect as a child though. ultimately. Lol

[sokodraws]

...is that so wrong?

[csny]

everymorning: i think im about to die. i think im going to die. im actually going to die. this is it. im going to die. im going to die immediately.

every single night: lock in. OK. Lock In. Change your Life. I love you. Lock in. This is going to be big. I’m going to change the world. Ready? I love you. Lock in. I have an idea. Lock in.

[albva]

They should let you vomit a black sludge and when you are done you feel better about yourself. Also the black sludge forms into an evil clone you can make out with.

[cranberry-branflakes]

they should invent temporary death where I can just not be alive for a while and then be fine like nothing happened and move on

[schrodingersguy]

less afraid of being a coward

absence of shame feels cold and threatening

cowardice an illusion of safety

Afraid of being less afraid

Less afraid to be ashamed. Less afraid of giving in. Less afraid to be less ashamed. At once, self multiplying

[sandmandaddy69]

[schrodingersguy]

godawful shitty feeling of dread in my heart

[schrodingersguy]

I was dreaming that nothing made any fucking sense and my mom wouldnt listen to me and i looked in the mirror and my mom was me, and i was trapped, and woke myself up screaming, classic

[greelin]

did perfectionism ever truly protect you from harm or neglect as a child though. ultimately. Lol