[scissorheart]

Welcome to my page (NSFW)

i post about sad and triggering stuff 🤙 active as of august 22

info about my ed if anyone cares idk:

sw: 63kg

gw1: 60kg 💘

gw2: 56kg 💘

ugw: 50kg 🔒

i think im 5’8ish ??

i also like twilight, video games, anime and other shit

[scissorheart]

i have been gainin a lot of weight i want to die

[thegenderal]

Meet a gay goth call that a fruitbat

[supermanstoddlerleash]

[pilldiettpilldiett]

Coca cola zero >>>

[nap3r0ne-deactivated20220903]

Some of y'all are out here literally posting thinspo, diets, tips on how to starve yourself for 70 hours and recipes then saying shit like "I'm not pro, stay safe everyone 🥺🥺"

[mollyjames]

Sometimes I think about how many people I met in food service who smoke. I think about growing up in an upper-middle class neighborhood, and how it was drilled into me that smoking is addictive and bad for your health. I think most people, in America at least, are well aware of that. Whenever I would decline a cigarette, on the rare occasion it was offered, saying I dont smoke the reply is always "good, don't start."

I think about the long shifts, working on your feet all day, with breaks scheduled down to the minute. Every second of your day controlled by the clock, regardless of how tired you might be. However, in food service, there is one exception. The smoke break. Most managers respect the smoke break. The old school ones do, at least. The newer crop less so. Food service is fast paced, highly stressful work, and nicotine, in addition to all of its addictive and damaging properties, is a relaxant. If a burger flipper or barista says they need to step outside for a smoke, you let them do it, and you dont begrudge them for it.

It's such a strange bit of kindness. One that we know is terribly harmful in many respects, but performed anyway. I think about all of the interconnected systems, of health, of education, of exploitation, that leads a person to knowingly trade in years of their life for five minutes of peace. I wonder how many people in my upper middle class neighborhood would propose simply banning the smoke breaks. I wonder how many people I know would just break.

[formerlymsw]

writers: *intentionally write villain as sympathetic*

fans: *sympathize with villain*

the purity police on tumblr dot com: 

[formerlymsw]

For everyone on this post asking which villains I’m talking about/what kind: this post was written especially about the all villains that you particularly hate, and it was written to spite you, personally.

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[volturialice]

an image of the

WHAT

the universe has once again said Twilight Rights

[tobi-w1th-an-i-deactivated20220]

Where is the weight loss

[toothistired-deactivated2024092]

i don’t have an ed i just have a weird relationship with food

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Me: I don't have an eating disorder

*binges*

*purges*

*restricts*

*repeat*

Me: I couldn't possibly have an eating disorder

[scissorheart]

when u weigh urself 🥰🥰🤩🤩🤩🤩

[harrystylinslut]

DON’T assume my pronouns

ASSUME that i love The Cat in the Hat (2003) directed by Bo Welch starring Mike Meyers

[rottenhumangarbage]

tw: descriptive ed behaviours

i know recovery is really hard, and not everyone is ready for it. that said, here is some harm reduction advice for eds

- laxatives generally take a while to work and your food will already have been mostly digested by then. they only remove waste material and can really mess up your electrolyte levels when abused. better to eat smaller meals after binging than abusing laxatives.

- purging by vomiting is similar to laxative abuse in the way that your food has often already had a lot of the calories absorbed, your teeth, nails, and of course your esophagus can be severely damaged and your electrolytes can also be thrown out of balance. again, better to follow up binges with smaller meals rather than purging.

- after an extended period of fasting, youre at risk of refeeding syndrome which is extremely dangerous. eat small things in small amounts and avoid salty or processed carbs. try fruit or veg with a lot of water such as melon or cucumber, or small amounts of high fat, phosphate containing food like cheese or yogurt, maybe with a multivitamin. reintroduce food slowly and do not let yourself binge after an extended fast.

- dont go straight from a large binge to a heavy restriction. go from binge to normal eating first or a binge-restrict cycle will be easier to fall into and harder to break.

- ideally you shouldnt eat less than 1200 calories a day, your brain needs 500 just to function and youll still lose weight on 1200. diets telling you to eat 200 a day long term are very unsustainable and put you at risk. eating 200 calories a day for maybe a day or two definitely wont kill you, but you should aim for a few days a week where you eat 1200 or above - or all days a week, but i understand that may be a scary concept for people who are struggling with restriction.

- dont fast for more than 72 hours. if i cant stop you from doing so, then please make sure you check your general wellbeing, vital signs, and blood pressure if possible.

- make sure you drink more water than you usually would than on normal eating days when/if fasting. try not to drink more than 4L on any day, and especially not in a short time period (drinking 4L in 1-3 hours puts your brain at risk) "Overhydration can lead to water intoxication. This occurs when the amount of salt and other electrolytes in your body become too diluted" Source: healthline

- after youve lost maybe more than 10lb, use tape measures rather than scales because water fluctuation is going to make more of a difference which may not make you feel that good.

- light exercise is good to retain muscle and keep your metabolism from dropping too much - doesnt have to be hard workouts, but a good walk or even laughter can help.

- try to eat more protein, fibre and healthy fats than you do carbs, however on an average day you do need a little carbs. keto diets only prevent water retention long term.

- caffeine is an appetite suppressant but also increases heart rate, blood pressure and anxiety. feel free to drink it but know your limits.

- artificial sweeteners may make you hungrier. doesnt mean you cant enjoy them on occasion though !! "Inconsistent coupling between sweet taste and caloric content can lead to compensatory overeating and positive energy balance." Source: ncbi

- GET ENOUGH SLEEP. lack of sleep significantly increases hunger and can reduce metabolism, making you feel worse throughout the day. "Laboratory studies have clearly shown that sleep deprivation can alter the glucose metabolism and hormones involved in regulating metabolism, that is, decreased leptin levels and increased ghrelin levels." Source: ncbi

[scissorheart]

all the ‘fat positivity’ people are so fucking rude

it doesn’t matter if you’re deadly skinny or obese, it’s unhealthy.

[duoseon]