Watched a piece of art so good it made me remember why and How I love doing art. Feeling really rejuvenated...
"A Family Finds Entertainment" by Ryan Trecartin... it spoke to my creative soul so hard. It rocks. TBH I've been in an art fog for a long while, I had forgotten my roots... I remember them now.
I used to do weird live action, mixed media, and 2d animation. Poetry artbabble nonsense. There's traces of it on my youtube channel. I haven't even thought about that stuff in ages. I think, part of my block is because I had to think about "selling" my art. The type of art I Really want to make is difficult to "market" or even be sold.
I'm not saying I don't "Like" making linear, digestible things like Be Kind, My Neighbor, or Great God Grove, I do. But, there has to be a balance. I need to go sicko mode every so often. Make art with unfiltered, uncensored, unpolished thoughts & visuals.
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I'm always thinking about my "career" i.e. what's going to put food on my plate next, and it brings pause. I do have to face reality: you can't really "sell" weird short films on the internet. They don't generate big Digital Circus or Helluva Boss numbers (this is not a dig- cool projects, so glad they found their bag) that qualify for revenue. It's just that the things I want to make aren't... as linear, story focused, as easily readable. The art I want to make is messier and borderline unpalatable. More like the things I used to make, like AH, HE'S SICK or HI, YOU PEACH. To a harsher extreme, I think.
It's totally possible to bring this energy to the table with games, though. The issue is that they're hard to do on your own if you have no programming knowledge, haha. I think games are an amazing opportunity to make career money off your raw artistic vision, it's doable. I always loved making games because it's so viable & fulfilling to combine every form of media I love into one. Just so versatile. I'll see what's possible here, but maybe not right now. I have a lot to learn.
Comics have always been a compromise to me. Audiovisual and motion is so integral to my work. But again, videos like I want to make aren't viral candidates that'd feed me- and animation takes SO long (not the most valid excuse). So, comics became the fastest way I could get an idea out of my head and into my audience's hands. I could control all facets on my own with relative speed. They're marginally profitable, so it made sense to me to make them. I like making them, but Still, they're a compromise.
I definitely want to "go back" and dabble in what I used to love. Animation, mixed media, live action, what have you. What form it comes in, I still don't know. I still want to do comics sometimes, but they don't fulfil me as much as I'd like.
I'm feeling a lot better about making art and that makes me happy. That's all I need for now...
I'll think about what moves to make... thanks for reading.