Alright. So, as some of you know, I tried moving blogs to see if that could resurrect my Montgomery Scott muse, but that didn’t go as planned. Despite how hard I tried to focus on drafts and replies, he wasn’t coming back to me. See, the thing is: in four days, I would’ve had his muse for exactly two years. Scotty is still incredibly important to me. He’s helped me through some of the rough patches of my grade twelve and that will never change. Hell, maybe in a month, I might be back. But, the point is: Scotty and I need a break.
I love RPing as him, don’t get me wrong: he’s always been my favourite muse, but I just need time away from his muse so that way nothing I write seems forced. Roleplaying is supposed to be fun, but that’s not the vibe I’m getting. It feels more like a job, hence why I’ve been fucking off with the drafts.
I know I’m a bitch and I know I can be disliked for several reasons: I’m passive aggressive, I only talk to the same group of people, I come off as someone you can’t approach. I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I’m disheartening or you felt like you can’t talk to me. I know I’m a grump, who comes off as someone who doesn’t like you. That’s not the case at all.
I do appreciate the people who have stuck with me for the past few years, but sometimes people need a break from their muses. Its not that I want to break from Scotty, its just … no muse for me to actually work with. I’m sorry for being a piece of shit and changing blogs only to not have it work. Trust me, this makes me more upset knowing that the muse I poured so much work into isn’t working for me anymore. But hell, who knows! I could be back in a month. my muses tend to die out pretty quickly, so who knows? Maybe I’ll be back. I love you guys a lot, believe it or not, and I am super grateful for anyone who has stuck with me. Thank you.
* I’ve been active on combatsituation where I don’t feel as stressed and I’m actually having fun! Which is what roleplaying is supposed to be about. But if you’d like my skype or kik (same as the url), or anything: just ask.
Alright. So, as some of you know, I tried moving blogs to see if that could resurrect my Montgomery Scott muse, but that didn’t go as planned. Despite how hard I tried to focus on drafts and replies, he wasn’t coming back to me. See, the thing is: in four days, I would’ve had his muse for exactly two years. Scotty is still incredibly important to me. He’s helped me through some of the rough patches of my grade twelve and that will never change. Hell, maybe in a month, I might be back. But, the point is: Scotty and I need a break.
I love RPing as him, don’t get me wrong: he’s always been my favourite muse, but I just need time away from his muse so that way nothing I write seems forced. Roleplaying is supposed to be fun, but that’s not the vibe I’m getting. It feels more like a job, hence why I’ve been fucking off with the drafts.
I know I’m a bitch and I know I can be disliked for several reasons: I’m passive aggressive, I only talk to the same group of people, I come off as someone you can’t approach. I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I’m disheartening or you felt like you can’t talk to me. I know I’m a grump, who comes off as someone who doesn’t like you. That’s not the case at all.
I do appreciate the people who have stuck with me for the past few years, but sometimes people need a break from their muses. Its not that I want to break from Scotty, its just … no muse for me to actually work with. I’m sorry for being a piece of shit and changing blogs only to not have it work. Trust me, this makes me more upset knowing that the muse I poured so much work into isn’t working for me anymore. But hell, who knows! I could be back in a month. my muses tend to die out pretty quickly, so who knows? Maybe I’ll be back. I love you guys a lot, believe it or not, and I am super grateful for anyone who has stuck with me. Thank you.
* I’ve been active on combatsituation where I don’t feel as stressed and I’m actually having fun! Which is what roleplaying is supposed to be about. But if you’d like my skype or kik (same as the url), or anything: just ask.
alright, so i got to say some stuff, and i would really appreciate if any of you actually took the time to read this.
so, in case no one could tell: i’ve lost muse for montgomery scott. no matter how hard i try, or just anything i do to make his muse come back, it won’t. i think i’ve been pushing the muse too hard, and i want to make the move (YES, I KNOW--SHUSH) back to the blog i just archived barely a week ago. i’m fucking pathetic, i know.
i have severe anxiety. whenever i get upset about anything, i bottle it up and pretend i’m alright and then i have a meltdown. tonight, i had a total of two meltdowns (one at work in the midst of a sale), and i just. i can’t deal with stuff like this anymore. tumblr stresses me out, a lot. there’s been a lot of real life stuff that’s been stressing me out too. take for instance: i dropped out of college; the only people i see on a day to day basis is my family, etc. i can’t relax and the only time i find myself relaxing is in grand theft auto v. so, while i’m sorry for the spam of posts, i’m really not fucking sorry. half the time i don’t know if you guys hate me, or who is my friend because it feels like i’m screaming into the void and no one is hearing me. i rarely talk to any of my best friends anymore and that’s including the ones who are from this website. hell, the only person who i am constantly socializing with is jack.
i need tumblr to be an escape, and it just feels like with scotty: its not an escape. its a chore. yes, i realize i suck at replies here, but god: give me some credit. i’m pulling sci-fi stuff from the future out of my ass and seeing if it works. that’s not the case with my trevor philips roleplay blog or combatsituation, who most of you follow. i have fun there. i’m being the canadian trailer trash i know i am and bringing it out to his character. i used to have fun with scotty, but i just need a break.
i just need to take a break from montgomery scott. hell, i might even just delete this blog just to go back to the original account and put him on a full hiatus (--it makes sense to me, okay. like TONS of sense).
i do appreciate the people who have stuck with me for the past few years, but sometimes people need a break from their muses. its not that i want to break from scotty, its just ... no muse for me to actually work with. i’m sorry for being a piece of shit and changing blogs only to not have it work. trust me, this makes me more upset knowing that the muse i poured so much work into isn’t working for me anymore. but hell, who knows! i could be back in a month. my muses tend to die out pretty quickly, so who knows? maybe i’ll be back. i love you guys a lot, believe it or not, and i am super grateful for anyone who has stuck with me. thank you.
WOAH THERE ! that’s exactly what it looks like. i reached another milestone ! and since i felt my last bias list wasn’t as good as it could be, i decided to properly redo it, making sure not to forget anyone this time. if i still do, however, feel free to hit me with a fish. ANYWAYS, ON TO THE LOVELIES, YEAH !?!?!?
even if you aren’t on this list, that doesn’t mean that i don’t love you. seriously, thank you so much to everyone who helped me suffer the trauma of rebooting again and have an amazing day, yeah ? <3
“… my suits are not ugly. they are works of art, my suits. perhaps it is the purple? too much? too little? perhaps it would be wise of me to invest in onyx black blazers… mm, i think not. a turtle neck? perhaps, perhaps…”
“you say ‘perhaps’ too much. perhaps, if i wanted to wear a suit, i wouldn’t want it to be purple. jesus.”
what she says: i’m fine
what she means: montgomery scott is an important character who should not be reduced down to comedic relief. sure, he had silly moments, but he got into starfleet and worked his ass off. if that’s not enough, his prime timeline counterpart came up with the transwarp equation. he comes off as a butt monkey, but he is so much more than that. he got the lieutenant commander position by working his way up the starfleet ranks, and he later becomes a captain. he stole the enterprise back, and spent seventy five years alone only to feel unneeded by the chief engineer of the enterprise-d, and on top of that, all of his friends are dead in the prime timeline. his nephew got killed in both realities and his sister hates him for getting her son killed. he respects women too, and not just the enterprise. he truly is a cinnamon roll, too good for this world. too pure
"DOWNTON ABBEY?! JURASSIC WORLD?! A COUPLE OF EPISODES OF SEX AND THE CITY?! I’M A STAR, MAN!”
“Honestly, I can’t tell you if I’ve heard of you. I’m a huge cinephile, and unless you give me a name or something, I wouldn’t be able to pick you out.”
If you’re following me and you’re Muslim go ahead and send me a list of things you’d like me to tag ‘nsfr’
If I’m right Ramadaan starts the 17th so I’ll begin tagging on the 16th. I just want to make my blog as safe as possible for my Muslim followers during this time.
kianamaiart
tangentwithtanner
pixelskylines
turnnoffyourmind
gracieabrams
vaporwave
titsay
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