He hesitates, before sighing and handing them over to Sniper.
āI havenātā¦done it in months, butā¦Today was a lot.ā
He fidgets with the lighter, flicking it on and off. He stares at the ground for a while, before looking back up at Sniper.
āā¦.to be honest, ām still convinced Iām gonna go to bed and everything will justā¦Like today didnāt happen. Like I didnāt go and get in a dumb fuckinā fight with god-knows-what and nearly get killed, and y-ā
He stops himself for a moment, suddenly much more interested in looking at the ash stain on the concrete. When he speaks he does so much more slowly and quietly than usual.
āā¦.And youāll be gone again. For real this time.ā
His expression turns to aā¦dull one. Almost hopeless.
āSo, I thought, āWhy the hell not? Todayās not real anyways. Might as well burn through a pack of cigarettes like a spy. Who even fuckinā cares, right?āā
His tone is cold and bitter, with a slight hint of anger. Youāre unsure of who itās directed at. Youāre not so sure heād even have a straight answer to give you if you pried.