6/01/2026
Alright, this is my first time writing about stuff and anxiety, and I promised myself that i won't be taking this stuff with me in 2026 as well. Things umm Things aren't bad, it's actually going pretty good, honestly, but i don't know i don't feel happy i should be happy right?
i got the intern i wanted, my interview went well, my family is safe and healthy but i.. i feel like i haven't achieved anything in my life, and i don't know but it feels so wrong not have my life figured out by 21
I'll be turning 22 this month and i have got some friends that'll wish me and say stuff i'm not sure i'll get many wishes cause umm that's the tradition, right? and i remember i didn't used to hate my birthday, i remember being excited buying candies and new clothes hoping that tomorrow will be my day, my friends will treat me special and i'll invite them and have the best day ever but but i never did got that treatment umm wanna know what's the worse part? remember after distributing the candy in class you go classes to classes distributing those candies to different teachers with your best friend Welp ladies and gentlemen there wasn't one kid that wanted to come with me and i don't know why? i just don't get it why i was a good friend with a lot of people but ig i was never good enough ? college was the same and you know what
Phil you were wrong the key to a good birthday isn't low expectations it's having no expectations at all
I have stopped trying, I have stopped trying to force things, but sometime i wish i wish i had someone, a person that would be willing to hear me? i sometime think i do but maybe idk , ik this one is going to be same but umm hey you know you and none cares honestly but don't change yourself dude be kind be kinder if you're angry it's fine but you don't need to yell , pain is not the problem hurting others is
be kinder be accepting in this pursuit for happiness let today be a defeat and tomorrow to be another chance to win
Bhumi
