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I love you I love you I love you It's beginning to feel like I'm never going to stop. You ask why I stare when I'm over, I see you once a week at most, I will admire you while I can. I don't want to forget what loving you is. I don't want you to forget what loving me is. I can feel the hole in my chest when I think of you not loving me the way I love you. Please don't forget. Please.

I think I held you for a second too long. My fingertips are throbbing. your absence makes my chest ache, it's almost like you never left. I just want you in my arms right now.

Drunk. In my feelings. And hating myself for still having all these photos. Looking thru them forms a lump in my throat and I forget to breathe. I miss you I miss you I miss you I can't wait to stop missing you.

It's beginning to feel like you hit me up just to make sure I'm thinking about you. You just find some reason to hmu and then act like you're too cool to talk to me. What type of game are you playing?

I had asked you to stop fucking me if you're sleeping around with other people. I didn't think about this sooner but after that you kept denying me. "I've been satisfying myself." It was foolish of me to believe that. I guess I just wanted to believe the lie. Just like the time you told me you had condoms bc it was easier to clean up the mess after you jerk your shit. LMFAO IM SO DUMB. I know damn well you're out here fucking other bitches.

I turned 20 today. I'm still as pathetic as I was when I was 15.....

I'm going to see you in like twenty minutes and I have really bad butterflies. Partially bc that's what happens when I haven't seen you in a while, and partially bc I feel like this might be the last time I see you. I hope that isn't the case.

I need to watch my expectations.

I keep having freak dreams with you and I wake up heated bc ya girl can't even get a text back Lmfaooo

Fuck you and your handsome ass self 😟

I miss you making me cum

when I think about it for too long I start wondering who's cumming for you now and it makes me sick.

I don't think I'm gonna talk to you after I get my money. Not for a while at least. This is really draining my good energy. I spend a lot of time thinking about you. Not necessarily where you are and who you're with, but mainly just missing you and your energy. The more I reach out for you the less you reach back and I'm noticing a pattern of me breaking me own heart. This would be the second time I use you to hurt myself. I've got to stop. I'm self destructive. I am letting you destroy me and you don't even know it bc you aren't even trying. I handed you that power, you didn't even want it. It's time to take it back. I want to become the master of letting go.

Just give me my money so that I know I don't have a reason to hit you up. I will literally use any reason. It's so annoying. I'm so annoying. I WANT THESE FEELINGS GONE ALREADY YO ITS BEEN LIKE 4 MONTHS NOW. HONESTLY WTF IS REALLY GOOD YOURE OVER IT why can't I be?

I go back and forth from not giving a fuck and missing the shit out of you. Today it is the ladder.

I've gotta stop expecting you to want to be there for me. "You know I'm by my lonesome now." Alright. Cool. Good for you. You do that, man. You say you wanna see me move on but the second you think you see me doing it you get passive aggressive as hell. At least I'm straight up about my aggression towards you and other bitches. I don't beat around the bush, I let you know it bothers me. I let you know I'm still in love with you. I don't wanna see that shit. You on the other hand, wanna act like you don't give a fuck. I hate it bc I can't tell if you're faking or not, if I'm misinterpreting your actions or not. If you don't give a fuck about this anymore, then just don't hit me up anymore. That would hurt less then these half assed conversations. It's like you're trying to keep me stuck in between loving you and getting the fuck over you.

Back and forth. Back and forth. Stay back, Sharon. What the fuck.

So much has changed...except for me loving you. When will it end?

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