This post will be be different from my entire page. It is an information point mainly discussing girls:
As a once perceived female, I have anger. Today I walked down the streets of my beloved town and I remembered the first time I went down it on my own. I was terrified and walking quickly because I heard horror stories and I felt sad about being separated from my family (I got a little bit lost). The FIRST pub I quickly walked past I was a scared object. I don't remember what they said, but it was something about being on my own and a pretty girl and just general catcalling. I was that sort of age where I didn't have any dislikes in food or in people. That must've been the first thing I disliked. I was so scared and it took me a long time to go out by myself.
This wasn't the first time I was sexualised, nor the last. It hurts me the disparage between men and woman, or more apt between men and girls.
May I iterate at this time that there is so much good in this world. Mostly reiterating to me so I don't throw something.
Dance took up a lot of my life when young. At the age of maybe 6 I learned to "sexy dance". Couldn't have been more than 4 when I started this sport and I remember so clearly being told to suck everything in. Ballet does rely on core strength, and I thought there was something wrong with me for having a bum or having a tiny tiny stomach that stuck out in revealing leotards. I was teased by the teacher for having breakfast.
It's one of my earliest memories.
I thought for years this was the fault of the leotar, that girls shouldnt wear such things. Turns out it's the people, the teachers, our unwanted observers.
Today, my boss walked behind me centimetres past me and I froze. His towel brushed my arse a little bit that could have easily been a genuine accident. What wasn't an accident was how close he was to me than his male co-workers. All shift he treated me like an idiot for asking questions about the workplace that I'm new to. I know for a fact that if it was a man asking the same questions that he would be inquisitive and wanting to learn, but I perceived his responses to mean that I am shrill and annoying.
We are taught from a very young age that men are dangerous and it proves to be right. We are taught to fear them all. Never during lessons was I surprised to hear the horrors of the world because it's ingrained from birth.
Half of our population is scared of the other.
Half of our population feel scared when a man is behind you.
Half of our population can't deal with this fear anymore.
We have been crying out for centuries to be taken seriously.
Since women being able to vote, there has been a shift of "women have all the rights already, why do we have to change because of one bad thing that happened?"
We need to change because grown women are afraid to be alone.
We need to change because children get cat called.
To you, we are equal because we can do the same jobs as you.
We see the ways you treat us differently but we are AFRAID to speak up.
We can't lose our jobs over this. Many do. I was replaced by a boy in my first workplace because he would be stronger than weak little girl. I lost my next job because I spoke out about feeling not safe.
I feel afraid when there's only men in the room. I feel that I can't say anything and I'm helpless. I feel that I'm the idiot, no matter what. One man can make a room full of girls/ women feel threatened.
A 16 year old today was told off because her legs were on display and it wasn't professional. I've seen men bartenders wear shorts all of the time.
There are different standards for you and for i, all because you presume me female.
We don't want to anger you in case you strike out and hurt us.
Because we've all been hurt by people like you.
I implore for the women/ former women to find a single woman who hasn't been scared of a man just waking down the street, just being looked at for too long.
Reply if you have never been scared of men.
Reblog if you have never not been scared of men.
A poem to end this speech.
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