❝ if a solar system ain't so far away, then across the earth is only child's play. so wait for the moon and i'll be next to you. ❞
XELLE/OCEANE — 20 ଳ she/they ଳ seasian/filipino ଳ tag guide
heya! welcome to my selfship/ocxcanon blog! there will be self-indulgent content, rambling, gushing, and more. turn back now if that isn't your cup of tea! ♡
i've secluded myself from the community lately, but that doesn't mean i don't allow newcomers. i'm a burnt out college student, so socialization will definitely fluctuate. but please do interact, i'd love to see all your ships!
current main f/o's: senku ishigami (dcst), masky (creepypasta/marble hornets)
PLEASE DNI: pro.ship, dark.ship, r.pf shippers, zio.nist/anti-palestine, anti-lgbtq+, anti-blm, racist, sexist, ableist, exclusionist. idc what you do, i'm just catering my online experience and i'd prefer if you stay away from me. i block liberally.
check out my f/o list (google sheets) first! for both your well-being and mine. my sharing status for certain f/o's will be listed as well.
if i followed you despite sharing an f/o that i'm nonsharing with, it means i have made an exception for you and don't mind setting up a tag system for the both of us.
please keep in mind that i'm an adult! i won't stop minors from following me, but it's best that you don't. just keep wary.
i will never outright talk about explicit nsfw (i have a blog designated for that), but please remember to block the #suggestive if you are uncomfortable with that.
non-selfshippers can interact/follow, as long as you stay respectful and don't spread hate to me or any of my friends.
please be warned that i use caps, keysmash, and swear a lot! i sometimes tag it if it happens too much in one post, but it's not guaranteed.
i'm into several horror media, some of which may include heavy and sensitive themes. 🙏 i try my best to tag it with trigger warnings. i have to let that be known before you follow me because i will most likely post about it.
i am also in the process of healing from my 3-year romantic relationship. i may occasionally vent about it. they are usually tagged under my vent tag (#xelle.vent), feel free to block it if you'd rather not see it.
ଳ. ⋆˚꩜｡ my other blogs
main: @oceaniiee (very messy and unfiltered, not required to follow back)
art blog: @sea-xelle (not very active)
rb support blog: @moonjellifsh (no need to follow it)
after hours/nsfw: dm/send an ask for url (won't give to nonmutuals & minors)
question, is my current f/o list difficult to navigate/read? i've been thinking of transferring it into a doc or carrd, mostly for aesthetic purposes...
the first time "you're mine" slips from his lips without even thinking about it... it's a heated moment and the words are out before he can even process the implication of them... he never thought he would feel this strongly about you, about keeping you. never thought he would want you all to himself like this, but it happened so suddenly, before he ever had a chance to stop it. he didn't expect you to say that you're his in response, but when you do, something shifts and now all he cares about is staying like this for as long as possible, with you.
maybe coraline had a few toxic exes who greatly mistreated her, and she would always beg for them to not leave her (but they do anyway). that experience distorted her view of love. she thought the only way to make herself loveable was to utterly devote herself to her partner with no question, let them do whatever they wanted with and to her, even if it hurt her physically.
maybe that's how she ended up being sexually taken advantage of. she didn't know it would go that far. she just wanted to be loved. carrying heavy emotions from her past, they were further amplified ever since she was tranformed (since the operator feeds on extremely negative emotions). that's why her "love" is expressed in violent and gruesome ways. that's why you could call her a yandere. that's why she's so obsessed with tim.
i and tim have only been officially together for 1 month but it feels like we've known each other for years >_< how i wish younger me chose masky instead of ol' stinky jeff /lh
i joined this small, public discord server in hopes of making new friends but there isn't even a conversation going on 😭 everyone just keeps saying hi and nothing comes after... even if there was, i genuinely don't know what they're talking about. majority of the members are teenagers, i feel like a grandma because i can't understand these kids 😭
I'm not great with words, let alone writing a letter. But I wanted to make an exception and write something for you.
You truly are everything to me, doll. Ever since I saw you in that part of the woods months ago, my head has been quiet. Light. Peaceful. Just like what I feel whenever I'm around you. Your voice, it's addicting. I crave to hear it just as much as I used to when I first heard it. Of course, I grew to love other aspects of you... you and your pretty eyes mesmerize me.
I never thought I would find someone like you, who loves me unconditionally. I never even thought I would get a girlfriend in the first place. I don't know what you saw in me, I'm a violent guy who had a rough past. But you saw past that and only saw me... not as Masky, but as Tim. Words can't express how grateful I am to have you, Coral. You have helped me in ways that I couldn't have done alone.
I wish I could properly express my feelings, but I told you, I'm not great at this. I would rather hold you in my arms and have you whisper sweet nothings to me. How about I go fetch some of that candy you were eyeing in the store the other day, hm? It's the least I could do for you, other than being your personal object of affection. It would make me the happiest man if I saw that cheeky smile on your face again.
i have settled... on making my anh (my abbreviation for the game name cz i don't want to type the whole thing every time) oc to be a sea slug/bunny... heh... it would just be really nice to have a sea creature as a staff 🥹 maybe i'll make her a nurse... since that's the role i enjoy playing... maybe she'll go by she/he pronouns too... seems fun...
