My 1st Born
Disclaimer
Being Mommy can be so delightful and yet so nerve-wracking. No wonder there is no word greater than Mother. Though, no one can be prepared enough!
Prologue
It was a hot summer morning , life was mundane , perky and giving its jolts from time to time. But I had no idea , there was a thunderbolt about to arrive, and I would never be the same again.
‘Life gives quick shudders
When you have most things figured out , and everything that matters
Sometimes they come happy and gay
Others nay
This one was about to alter my whole being
For this whirlwind was to change my mind , psyche and the very concept of love & kin’
Entre
He barged into my life and jumped onto my arms , knowing he belonged there. Before I could get my share of oh! What a cutie pie , oh! My bundle of joy etc…he bounced out of my grip and ran into the house , like he knew it all so well , like he belonged there forever.
Name-Sake
Naming your first is not an easy task, right ? It does not have to be just perfect . It has to corelate , vibrate the essence of love when you call out their name. All those heavy thoughts kept me occupied at work, amidst huge data files and very loud colleagues and a louder boss. But it affected me not !! Ha! Ha!
‘ You are the stone in my jewel , that pricks and shines
Green as you are, forever you will be mine
Precious you will remain, as we partake our journey in this world
Wait my Gem , I have named you the world ‘
The discussion didn’t go well with Jade’s Daddy. I was mocked , reproached and laughed at..I laughed along and then got firm. “ But it is a female name , this Jade”. I was often asked to change my decision , for what will the world say ? We had yet to show him off. He was to go through some rigorous introduction and approval. Hah! Now did Jade care ?
He peed and pooped on the jury and ate their shoe to reiterate . My mommy is the best and my name is there to stay……
Growing Years
Self-doubt kills !
Jade aka JD as we called him sometimes , my free spirited baby with a gleam in his eyes and such a happy face always. He seemed so perfect , such a cudlly puddly puppy !!!???
Only he was not ! Headstrong , Destructive , Naughty to the core , Devious , Unsympathetic as a human child towards struggling parents , and relentless energy. To sum it up an ‘Entitled Brat’ . I was scolded yet again “ Now you know what that name went and did to him ? Jade … a similar sounding expression translates to Jeadh in Bengali , which means OBSTINATE .
Oh! No… I was now filled with self doubt L
But then he called me out Woof … Then I called him out, ‘Jade, come here, my baby ‘
Then he ran and jumped into my arms and gave my cheek a lick, and closed his eyes in my arms… Then I didn’t care for any of the wonderful characteristics of my imperfect one , then all I did was held him on… for I knew it was just for a while. He had other madness to do…
The name shone on my Jade like the very Gem and he beamed ( this time happily chewing on Daddy’s shoe )
Timer Set
As the clock strikes morning and Night
Someone wags incessantly with raised ears
As the bowl is picked
The bark and twirl begins
Someone cannot contain his joy
For the Joy is to Gobble, more so devour
“Eat slowly Jade” The food is not going anywhere , says Mommy
But was he Ever about to take that chance ?? Nay Mister J
Life is Food , Food Be Life… as he happily lived with that , all his growing time
The Love was real…..The Romance of eating , more like a quickie. Now here , Gone then!?!
Sibling Love
Was Jade ever lonely , nay !!! But we were concerned pet-parents. The parent teacher meeting concluded with Jade getting an ‘ F ’ from his trainer ! “Darn this unruly dog. I give up” said the trainer , and off he went!
This was grave . Jade needed to be tamed. So the grand rule since time immemorial was applied here as well. One of the primary reasons for an outburst in population, without a doubt. All chimed together “ Get Jade a companion … A brother or sister “. That was that….
Enters Enzo ( our Dalmatian ) into our life , while we were still coping with JD’s unruly madness.
He was tender , with a tiny pink snout , and soft paws. Our Gemstone an overbearing , overfriendly and more than curious bear. But this tiny companion as the name compliments , gave our Jade some much required exercise , as most definitely needed. The two ran and ran and ran…playing football with the colony boys to climbing mountains , splashing in river waters, searching for everything mother earth had to offer… from stones , to dirt , to live fish! The curious two… Oh! What a pair they were.
Conscience
Your gift was sublime
More than the gift of love , it was care that grew within me, than a mere like
I grew manifold ,all in but the silent night . all genus big and small now entered my heart, alike
For I saw it bigger and better in the wee hours of the morning
You brought back what I had lost , hiding in the corner of my heart
Now all of you were kin , without extricating
I was not about to go back that path
It is your likeness I pledged to guard
When in the silent nights I heard a whimper
My heart sank, for I could not contain my pain
That spark which had dimmed, was now glowing furiously… deep within
Letting Go.....
It happened all too fast
The decision was tough; the pain like a galloping horse
Food was your life , Life worth living for the mere sound of Food-Time
How my son could I see you lying there , gazing while others ate from the bowl
Unimaginably ; you let it all go…
I knew you saw the angels the day you refused to eat
They had come down with their own sweet treat
A treat only you , my JD could taste
For it remained for us mortals , who tried and tried to keep you close to the heart , an utter waste
As you smiled and told me with your pain-filled eyes ,
“Mommy ! The clock is ticking …let me go, for I shall be reunited with my loving bunch”
Far too many crossed over the other side, oh! My loved tribe!
Your agony was mine , my child, when suddenly I was filled with strength
The strength to leave your hand while the angels elevated you
There ! you will see familiar faces as you travel life’s expanse
Thence you said ; “there is that familiar face and sound called mommy…that seems to be fading away as I make my final passage .I know one day we will play together again , don’t cry my loving mother”
“I bid farewell with that hunch, knowing we were eventually meant to be together”
For My 1st Born
Jade / JD / Dooflu / Bubbles / Aurengzeb
I am because you are, JD Boy!
25th May 2007 To 11th Nov 2020
Loving | Spoilt | Funny | Stubborn | Caring | Focused | Happy | Handsome | Winner