deaf havana // the present is a foreign land rp meme.
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now it’s a place i can’t afford.
you can’t really be homesick when your whole life is a mess.
i dreamt that we fell to our deaths.
i woke up alone and upset.
this is as low as it gets.
how the hell do i come back from this?
it’s been a minute since we believed.
i’ve been looking for ways to live.
time ticks on, people die.
some of us get suck in here, left behind.
it leaves us to wonder where in hell life goes.
i can’t help myself from wondering.
are we chasing the same dreams i had when i was 19?
try and pick your head up off the ground.
time ticks on and life drives by.
friends feel like a portrait of a different time.
you had long hair and boundless hopes.
i might feel dead to the world.
is this my time drawing close?
i’ll find some other way to keep it going.
i’ve been left to wonder where did my youth go?
i put you through hell, but don’t you know i was right there as well.
i’ve been down so many times.
i’ve been thinking that i was the worst of us.
i was never the first to trust myself.
you’ve always had enough of my hell.
make it okay until the morning.
i can only try to leave this piece of me behind.
i don’t need reminding what i was like.
is it all a waste of time?
am i just chasing good trips that went bad?
you were reliving the years you missed out on.
i don’t believe in god, so i ain’t got a shot at redemption.
i ain’t got a shot at redemption.
i fell out of love again.
i fell out of love again. not with you, but with living in general.
i’ve been on a losing streak.
my heart’s made of stone.
i can’t trust my own damn feet to show me the right way home.
it’s been a hell of a year.
travelled miles to end up sleeping on your floor.
i’m not sleeping well at all anymore.
but then you’re gone again.
i can’t seem to shake you off.
you’re everything to me, just like you’ve always been.
i guess it’s time to figure out.
everything changes when the drugs run dry.
there’s nothing between us.
there’s nothing between us, it’s just bottles and bags.
fallen down so many times.
i’ve given up on moving higher.
i never wanted to leave you.
you don’t wanna believe me when i’m strung out.
thought i could balance on a line.
i’ve lost faith and i can’t lose more.
if i could get out from my past.
would i cope less somewhere new, without you?
i’ve been low less without you.
i’m still open, tired, hoping i’ll make it through without you.
i’m scared i’ve wasted all this time until now.
where is the worth in these years?
maybe i’m not better, but i’m trying.
i’ve been over-hung for too long.
wake me up, i’ve been falling.
i saw you from the train.
you didn’t look a thing like i remembered.
is this when the pain kicks in?
i broke down when we got back to your house.
i shouldn’t have come here.
after all, we’re just strangers.
all my demons stick around till the morning.
the ghost of you was haunting me.
i’m trying to focus on the positives.
you break apart like porcelain.
i can’t make you whole again.
you don’t know the half of it, you never did.
i didn’t want to meet the people that you knew.
each glimmer of progress was drowned out by hopelessness.
it filled my veins with fear.
reverse the years of selfish sin.
maybe in another life we would be nothing but passers by.
you’re just someone, somewhere in the dark.
feeling like i fell by the wayside.
turning 31 doesn’t feel right.
i should have chose sleep over staying up.
i couldn’t find peace in the darkness.
my head is an ocean of misery.
i’m hard to be around sometimes.
you helped me to my feet again.
i was never there when you needed a friend.
the present is a foreign land.
i’ve been living in the present as a foreign land.
i don’t see any future calling.
you’re not getting younger.
what’s time but pressure in a number?
the past pummels me like an avalanche.
time’s insidious disconnect eats away at me.
i might find some other way.
how can i reconcile this world that i don’t recognise?
nothing ever seems familiar anymore.
what a pity to see the lives we let go of.
the people around were the air that i breathed.
we could stay young forever.
set fire to a cruel world.
sometimes i wonder where you’ve been.
i heard you got sober, moved away.
someone died and you were never the same again.
guess your time came and went.
you can leave home, never look back.
you might get lost from time to time.
you’re still just a kid trying to survive.
i don’t know what’s happening to me.
i do lines on the weekend.
don’t you say a prayer for me.
sometimes i pray i die in my sleep.
i lose time with my real friends.
i gave up before i tried.
maybe i could tell it was over.
i fall back behind my lies.
maybe i don’t wanna be sober.
you just get lost in the pages of the books you love.
inexpensive wine is keeping you numb for the mean time.
but the devil is calling me.
i don’t think i can get any higher.
i really wanted to make it work.
i never wanted to be still here, just history.
god, what we could have been.
how will you remember me?