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independent salazar slytherin & reincarnate roleplay. highly private // mutuals only. written by andy. 

[sebastiians]

INDEPENDENT ROLEPLAY BLOG FOR SALAZAR SLYTHERIN & REINCARNATE originally of the harry potter universe, expanded into many verses. adored by ANDY. gmt based. 29 years old. please only interact if you are over eighteen years old.      please see the MAIN GOOGLE DOC for more in depth details about salazar/sebastian. also found @ corignem primarily.

[meyerlansky]

i buried him. six feet deep. he went into that box so easily.

bonus:

[sebastiians]

𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐀 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓, 𝐈 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐘𝐎𝐔. // independent salazar slytherin & reincarnate oc. adored by andy.

[lucifersresources]

deaf havana // the present is a foreign land rp meme.

edit/alter/change pronouns etc as you see fit!

pocari sweat. 

used to be my home.

now it’s a place i can’t afford.

it’s all my fault. 

you can’t really be homesick when your whole life is a mess. 

i dreamt that we fell to our deaths. 

i woke up alone and upset. 

coz i drink to forget. 

i’ve got nothing left. 

this is as low as it gets.

how the hell do i come back from this?

19dreams. 

it’s been a minute since we believed. 

i’ve been looking for ways to live. 

i’ve been knocked back. 

try to keep this alive. 

time ticks on, people die. 

some of us get suck in here, left behind. 

it leaves us to wonder where in hell life goes. 

we’re all getting jaded. 

i can’t help myself from wondering. 

are we chasing the same dreams i had when i was 19?

calm down, come down. 

try and pick your head up off the ground. 

time ticks on and life drives by. 

friends feel like a portrait of a different time. 

you had long hair and boundless hopes. 

i might feel dead to the world. 

it’s just another day. 

is this my time drawing close? 

i’ll find some other way to keep it going. 

i’ve been left to wonder where did my youth go? 

i put you through hell. 

i put you through hell.

i put you through hell, but don’t you know i was right there as well. 

i was right there. 

i’ve been down so many times. 

i’ve been thinking that i was the worst of us. 

i was never the first to trust myself. 

i could fuck things up. 

you’ve always had enough of my hell. 

i’m gone.

make it okay until the morning. 

i can only try to leave this piece of me behind. 

i don’t need reminding what i was like. 

i know i wasn’t right. 

is it all a waste of time? 

am i just chasing good trips that went bad?

nevermind. 

you were reliving the years you missed out on. 

i don’t believe in god. 

i don’t believe in god, so i ain’t got a shot at redemption. 

i ain’t got a shot at redemption. 

i fell out of love again. 

i fell out of love again. not with you, but with living in general. 

i lost a lot of friends. 

i’ve been on a losing streak. 

my heart’s made of stone. 

i can’t trust my own damn feet to show me the right way home. 

it’s been a hell of a year. 

i was living in a haze. 

i needed to get away. 

travelled miles to end up sleeping on your floor. 

i’m not sleeping well at all anymore. 

i see you in my dreams. 

but then you’re gone again. 

i can’t seem to shake you off. 

you’re everything to me, just like you’ve always been. 

on the wire. 

my love feels low. 

i guess it’s time to figure out. 

everything changes when the drugs run dry. 

there’s nothing between us.

there’s nothing between us, it’s just bottles and bags. 

i’ve been feeling older. 

fallen down so many times.

i’ve given up on moving higher. 

i never wanted to leave you. 

it’s done now. 

you don’t wanna believe me when i’m strung out. 

i’m getting tied up. 

thought i could balance on a line. 

i can change. 

i’ve lost faith and i can’t lose more. 

how could i survive? 

if i could get out from my past. 

trying/falling. 

is this hopeless? 

would i cope less somewhere new, without you?

i’ve been low less without you.

i feel new. 

i’m still open, tired, hoping i’ll make it through without you. 

i’m scared i’ve wasted all this time until now. 

where is the worth in these years?

maybe i’m not better, but i’m trying. 

i’ve been over-hung for too long. 

wake me up, i’ve been falling. 

someone/somewhere. 

i saw you from the train. 

you didn’t look a thing like i remembered. 

god what a mess i’m in. 

is this when the pain kicks in?

i broke down when we got back to your house. 

i shouldn’t have come here. 

but i can’t be alone. 

after all, we’re just strangers. 

this love is faithless. 

i found hell. 

all my demons stick around till the morning. 

the ghost of you was haunting me. 

i’ve been crying out.

i’m trying to focus on the positives. 

you break apart like porcelain. 

i can’t make you whole again. 

you don’t know the half of it, you never did. 

i can’t fix you. 

i didn’t want to meet the people that you knew. 

each glimmer of progress was drowned out by hopelessness. 

it filled my veins with fear.

i just wanted to run. 

outrun my youth. 

reverse the years of selfish sin. 

i’m done.

maybe in another life we would be nothing but passers by. 

you’re just someone, somewhere in the dark. 

help. 

feeling like i fell by the wayside. 

i can’t get back up. 

turning 31 doesn’t feel right. 

now it’s all done.

i should have chose sleep over staying up. 

i couldn’t find peace in the darkness. 

i numb the senses. 

who should i believe? 

i lost you.

am i dead or dreaming? 

i’m too low to be alone. 

my head is an ocean of misery. 

i’m hard to be around sometimes. 

you helped me to my feet again.

i was never there when you needed a friend. 

i’m drowning again.

please let me in. 

the present is a foreign land. 

i’ve been living in the present as a foreign land. 

i wanna take it all in.

i don’t see any future calling. 

you’re not getting younger. 

what’s time but pressure in a number? 

the past pummels me like an avalanche. 

time’s insidious disconnect eats away at me. 

i might find some other way. 

how can i reconcile this world that i don’t recognise? 

nothing ever seems familiar anymore. 

kids. 

what a pity to see the lives we let go of. 

we gave up too soon. 

the people around were the air that i breathed.

we could stay young forever. 

set fire to a cruel world. 

sometimes i wonder where you’ve been. 

i heard you got sober, moved away. 

someone died and you were never the same again. 

guess your time came and went. 

i’ll be alone forever. 

we were just kids. 

we know nothing. 

was it all in my mind? 

you can leave home, never look back. 

you might get lost from time to time. 

you’re still just a kid trying to survive. 

going clear. 

i don’t know what’s happening to me.

i do lines on the weekend.

don’t you say a prayer for me.

sometimes i pray i die in my sleep.

i lose time with my real friends.

i gave up before i tried.

maybe i could tell it was over.

i fall back behind my lies.

maybe i don’t wanna be sober.

you just get lost in the pages of the books you love.

inexpensive wine is keeping you numb for the mean time.

but the devil is calling me.

remember me. 

maybe i was a liar. 

i’ve been getting tired.

i don’t think i can get any higher.

we’ve expired. 

i really wanted to make it work.

i broke first.

it takes its toll. 

i’m losing touch. 

i can’t take it. 

i never wanted to be still here, just history. 

we were so blind. 

god, what we could have been. 

how will you remember me?

[sebastiians]

𝐒𝐄𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐎'𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐎𝐍  // visage.

[lucifersresources]

pinterest inspired meme part two

edit/alter/change pronouns etc as you see fit!

maybe we just found forever at the wrong time. 

someday, time will pull us back together again. 

time pulled us back together again. 

i am utterly fascinated by you. 

what if one of us has the guts tonight? 

we didn’t know what life had planned. 

this is not goodbye. 

i saw you in my dreams. it felt real. 

i am going to be their nightmare. 

you are summer to my winter heart. 

if i don’t find you in this lifetime, i will wait for you until the next. 

you should be here. 

there’s always a home for you here in my heart. 

you melt my frozen heart. 

if you’re staying, i’m staying. 

can you remember your death? 

i never really stopped loving you, i just got used to your absence. 

at least we were under the same sky. 

i could keep you safe, they’re all afraid of me. 

it’s going to take all of your heart. 

knowing you is knowing what home feels like. 

i can’t stay away from you. 

you captivate me in ways no soul ever will. 

you were my safety. 

you will never be unloved by me. 

you will never be unloved by me, you are too well tangled in my soul. 

with you, i feel a little less war torn. 

i don’t hate you for breaking my heart. 

choose people who choose you. 

show me the most damage parts of your soul, and i will show you how it still shines like gold. 

pain makes people change. 

we ignore truths for temporary happiness. 

now that i know you exist, how do i not love you?

how do i not love you? 

no one is you, and that is your power. 

you took everything from me. 

all i am to you is a tragedy, right? 

i didn’t want to be controlled. 

i am still rebuilding, bone by fragile bone. 

all i have left is anger. 

please don’t love me. 

[dailyshadowandbone]

FREDDY CARTER as KAZ BREKKER

Season 1, Episode 2: We’re All Someone’s Monster

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[sebastiians]

cfmort·:

you   lean   against   the   wall ;   a     quiet     regard .     ❛   i   appreciate   you   have   rather     interesting     seating   habits ,   sebastian ,   but   you   realise   of   course ,   if   you   don’t   move   your   legs   i   won’t   be   able   to   sit   down .   ❜ 

     gaze flickers down to where feet rest on the cushion of the chair and you huff out a laugh-- head shaking before it comes to raise, eyes meeting with tom’s. “but this chair counts as mine. i may be sat on the arm of it, but it’s still mine.” head tilts as the very edge of a smirk begins to take form playfully upon features-- tongue bitten between teeth for a moments pause.  “i’ll willingly share it though, if you can handle feet in your lap.” 

[sebastiians]

' put the book down , Sebastian , there's a good boy . ' ( okay but like what we were talking about today jdbfljbf - cfmort )

oh maann  //  @cfmort  

       head raises slowly– attention already halfway focused on tom, gradually having been drawn away the moment he stepped into the room.  eyes flicker from the book, an exhausted movement. you have always KNOWN tom wanted more-- wanted to understand all the darker powers, to see how they could aid him, further his desires. it’s something you’ve never been afraid of, never shied away from.   the determination, dedication to uncovering a deeper power is something you have ALWAYS understood-- in both lives. 

  ( but you never imagined there might come a day when he would keep it a secret from you-- would withhold information, dance along the edge of a LIE even.   with ALL you have given him, all you have shared-- you never imagined there might be secrets between you. ) 

 fingertips DRUM lightly against the cover of the book-- lip drawn in between teeth for a moment before you finally SIGH and allow muscles to sink, to relax. body leans back against the table and you let the book rest, held at your side as you lock tired eyes with his.    --wonder how he might talk his way out of this one, will charm you round.    is it even possible? 

    “or perhaps you can tell me what’s happening with you. since when did we start keeping secrets from one another?” 

[aneurinbarnardsource]

[aneurinbarnardsource]

[93myq-deactivated20170129]

my mother looks at me & sees my father’s mistakes (plural noun; fragmented families don’t know how to coexist). my father looks at me & sees everything i used to be (noun: innocent & soft hearted). my brother looks at me & sees the worst of my parents (verb; shaking, hurting, burning); he looks at me & sees the only thing in our family that might get out alive. i look at myself & see a monster (noun; blood hands & a venomous mouth & a failing heart).

and i’ve failed them all ; p.v.s. (via sarchengseys)

[hilariesjeffrey]

[sebastiians]

"Imagine... Imagine what we could teach to others!"

oh look at these cuties!! | @draconicn  

“it shall be exceptional. the things we are going to show them! and– and just think, of how much safer they will feel? that they will know all of these wonderful things. have a place to grow, to explore their magic without fear of ridicule. it will be amazing!” 

[sebastiians]

"Why did you leave, then?"

heidi askin’ the tough questions yooo | @draconicn  

it was a question that he knew was coming. he knew one day, it would happen; every one of them would ask, would want a further explanation from him. but what could he do? what could he possibly give them that they didn’t already have? an apology, of course. salazar had been too stubborn to even consider they were owed one, but that was where they were different. sebastian knew they deserved it. the way he treated them– the way he left was terrible. 

rubbing at his eyes, sebastian shuffled where he sat before he looked at heidi properly again. “my ego was hurt. i– the way i saw it, everyone in that castle had turned on me. nobody understood me, and i hated that. i know now, that the problem lie a lot in communication. i didn’t explain any of it, ever. the hatred and FEAR that made me do the things i did, i never fully explained it. not that it would excuse any of it but–” sebastian sighed, bringing his hand up to lean his head on it. “i’m sorry. for the pain i caused you, for my fucking shit words to you before i left. for all of it. if i could go back now and redo it all i would.” 

[sebastiians]

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