(( So, like, TWO YEARS ago I said I would come back
I didn’t come back
I still want to come back though ;;;
So a real explanation: I was going through a lot of difficult things emotionally at the time, especially regarding my school work and my family. I tend to be bad at committing to things admittedly, and when I get really stressed out over something or just don’t feel in the mood for talking to anyone, I have a bad habit of literally dropping everything and disappearing off the face of the planet. I really did need to, at least on a personal level, and I can’t say that my life is entirely back on track, but it’s a lot better, and I’m happier for it.
This blog is still something that I treasure to this day. I was really happy whenever I interacted with anyone, and I’m really proud of what I accomplished. Not to mention, Rune Factory is still my favorite game series, and even though I haven’t been on this blog for two years, occasionally I get a flash of desire to come back and write more and experience the fun times I had on it. I still do.
So, I’m guessing no one I interacted with in the past will see this, or if they do, will really care since I did just disappear like a jerk, but I want to apologize for it. I can’t say it’ll never happen again, since it most likely will, but after reflecting on myself, I don’t think I could ever totally abandon this blog either. If I gain interest in something, I get really invested; as soon as the enthusiasm drops, I can’t look at it for fear and anxiety that I have failed everyone who I bonded over the thing with. Then I regret it, which is what I’m feeling now. I still want to roleplay with Alcott, I still want to make more headcanons for the Sechs Empire, and I still want to be a part of the Rune Factory community despite everything.
In short, I might start over with this blog. Not everything of course, I’ll leave all my headcanons and ideas I had for Alcott alone, but I highly doubt most of the people who I was talking to are still around in the fandom. I hope that I’ll still be received in a welcoming spirit despite my personal and interpersonal flaws, and even despite my long periods of absence.
I rambled on and on there, but I guess what I just want to say is:
I’m sorry for leaving
and I’m coming back now. <3 ))