The girl that i have had a crush on for almost a year just got a boyfriend.
i am extremly happy for her, she has become one of my closest friends, but i have been holding in these feeling for her for months. even during the period when i barely talked to her i was able to recall the inside jokes we had made and they connections we created.
Over the past few months, we have been hanging out one-on-one all the time, going to the mall forChristmass shopping, and she finally let me see her house, which she had kept hidden throughout our entire friendship. and so many other occasions, then after one day, when we spent 3 hours hanging out in her room, redecorating it, it was perfect. It was like we had been friends since childhood, laughing, bringing up inside jokes, her brother seeming like he knew me somehow. Then he called. Her long-distance bsf (who we will call T) calls and starts making jokes, seemingly being a great guy, but then when she tells him that she has a friend over, he says "Indigo?" and then goes back to being himself.
i thought this ment something, possibly, until the next evening. she is driving me home from school per useseal, and she tells me. "T confessed to me last night" i was in shock, but in a funny way because i thought that she wouldnt want him because they were basicly best friends and he lives half way across the country, she then says "i can't say that ive never thought of it"
the conversation eneded there, she dropped me off and i texted my best friend that the whole thing was over because T confessed and she seemed like she was slightly interested in him back. then she commented on my tiktok "you look good with short hair" this made me so happy, i thought it was over and then she comments on my post complemting me, the girl who has never commented on a tiktok post in YEARS comments on my complenting me, i thought i was back.
until today, the weekend passes and now the week is of new. monday, nothing new, tuesday- i am sitting outside working on a painting and she shows up and she tells me that she finally painted something, it was a painting of a mountain. then she scrolled and said "this ones taylors and this ones mine"... this was normal, before. they have been friends forever and they have done things like this before so before i wouldnt have thought anything of it, but now after he confessed to her, its not normal.
On the drive home , she tells me that he is constantly complemnting her and tells me the turnning point "hes coming here." The week of valentines day T will be in my state to see his- "girlfriend".
she says that nothing is offical but they are saying things that couples would say, and now i know that it is over.
i am still the most happy for her, she is one of my closest friends and wheather or not this becomes something with T is somehting time will tell. this entire situation is a sign from the gods that the path has been changed and now there aere new choices to make, and i am the one who must make them.
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