Trap in her own thoughts.

nrifh

[secrethideoutxx]

Let me introduce you to my beloved bellbell,

I always wanted a pet cat but my both parents will say NO to cats but when i turn 21 my mom surprised me with 2 cute bunnies that they illegally brought in from JB, i name it flappy and bella. I thought both are females until one day i noticed in between 1 of my rabbit leg there's something dangling from it. So i changed it name to bell.

I didn't know how to take care of rabbits so i just assume they were the same as cat. They will poop around the house, bite the phone cord multiple times, even chew on the furniture and they dislike being carried or even cuddles.

There were times i will bring them out to play on grass patch around my estate and some of my neighbours will come down and play with them.

Bellbell playmate flappy passed on at my grandma's place and it struck me deeply as i didn't managed to even say goodbye and how it was being thrown in the dumpster. I cried like someone beat the hell out of me but i moved on and i told myself that i will take care of you properly.

Thank you bellbell you soften my dad heart and he accepted your flaws treat you better than he treated his own children. Eventho at the end of the day my dad will complain to me that you bite him and peed on him but He loves you and adores you like his own child.

A few months back when i notice your scrotal was swollen i brought you to the vet and when the vet told me you probably have tumour/cancer i was heartbroken. I knew you were in deep pain but you didn't show it to me. I promised that i will give you as much comfort as possible. Everyday i pray to allah to lighten your pain or atleast make it go away but i knew it won't.

You were waiting for the right time to say your last goodbye, one month before my wedding my emotions was up & down i cried every single day. You knew how i feel and let me pet you in the middle of the night whenever i'm in need of someone company.

One week before my wedding, i whisper to you that i will bring you to the groomer to make you look handsome and smell good, but i also noticed that your hip area were swollen and there was a red lump.

One day before my wedding, you knew i will be staying at my husband place and knew that someone will be by my side for the rest of my life. I didn't say goodbye to you as i was packing my stuff to sleep at my mom place. I couldn't sleep peacefully at night, i tell myself maybe i'm nervous but it was the other way round. I woke up at 9am and happened i see a text from my sister saying you're sick.

I cried the moment i saw pictures and videos of you. Straight away i ran to my mom room and cried like a child, she was so shock and i told her everything she quickly asked me to go back to my dad place to be just right beside you.

The moment i reached i step inside the house i saw your ears went up, i knew you were waiting for me. I crawl to you and said i'm sorry for leaving the house without saying goodbye. I re-position you to your side as my sister told me that you would go back to the same position you were whenever my sister moved you and i saw a relieved face from you.

I repeatedly say the syahadah and selawat nabi in your ears. I managed to feed you the last sip of water in your mouth and whisper that i redha if you were leave me now and i don't want to see you suffer.

You took your last 3 breath but every breath you take you make a sound and i will remember that sound for the rest of my life. I managed to called pet burial services to give you back to allah the proper way.

Thank you for the past 8 years bellbell. Every wedding anniversary i celebrate with my husband i will remember you too bellbell!

Love you, rest well!

[secrethideoutxx]

Sometimes i ask myself what am i to you?

You prioritise your friends first rather than me.

When it come to me you always say i'm tired, its a long day at work. But when it comes to your friend how tired you are you still able to travel distance for them. You fully focus on them and able to have a full on conversation. But when it comes to me when i wanted to share my day with you, you will look tired and can't even bother listen to my conversation. The reason "i'm tired."

So what am i to you?

I'm tired for always being your second.

Nowhere near, nowhere there.

[rmdrk]

each person will feel things their own way. each person will hurt the only way they know how. will love… the only way they’ve been taught to love. not everyone will see things the way you do. feel things the way you do. and you can’t force your beliefs on people either because that’s not love. that’s not having compassion for other people. we all have our own right to see the world with our own eyes, therefore, understanding is key. and I don’t mean saying it, saying you understand someone without putting yourself in their shoes. without respecting their views. you have to really know yourself and your environment to understand why people are the way they are. you have to go through enough pain to keep your heart open. to be compassionate towards other people. understanding is key and not everyone will understand you and that’s okay. but the point is, to remember how all of us are different and try to understand that not all of us are meant to be the same. and you should never believe you understand it all because believe me, there will always be something to learn. there will always be something that will take your breath away. something that will make you question everything—your own beliefs and your own way of thinking. people, things and places, like life, are always evolving and you must evolve with them… if you ever want a fair shot in accepting your flaws and the flaws of other people. and before I finish, I just want you to know… that the beauty of it all is this, the more you understand people the better you will understand yourself. from the known and to the depths of your soul… people will always shape you. all that you are is all you’ve experienced with them. and dont ever forget… that the people you love will always have a piece of your heart. they will always be with you… no matter what. #rmdrake https://www.instagram.com/p/Br3yRT2nnET/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6bcinz0xxna1

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[islamicrays]

When you decide to bring a child into the world you are deciding to love for the sake of Allah.

To raise a child to know Him.

To love Him.

To worship Him.

When you move from being just husband and wife to also being father and mother your relationship shifts. You no longer have to think about only each other’s happiness but also your children’s happiness.

You both sacrifice for your children and make decisions which, you pray, will allow them to be happy, kind, compassionate, giving, and pious human beings.

You both put your hearts on the line. When you hold that little one in your arms you each feel that there is nothing you wouldn’t do in this world to protect them.

But then you constantly fight in front of them.

You put each other down in front of your kids

You allow coldness to develop between the two of you.

You blame each other and shame each other.

And your children hear everything. What they don’t hear they feel. They perceive. They will know.

To love your children is to be good to your spouse. To treat them well and to honor them.

And if that means reaching out for support when going through a hard time it’s worth it. The time, money, and effort you make in saving your marriage translated to your children too.

As parents we often think we’d do anything for our kids until that “anything” means having to grow and change ourselves.

Here our egos are selfish and stand in the way.

Children don’t need perfect parents. Parents that get upset and then repair things also model problem solving skills.

Hearing the occasional squabble isn’t going to harm them for life because they will know that love is also imperfect.

But when coldness, fighting, and tension becomes the norm it impacts everyone.

Why not give them so much more?

A marriage is always a work in progress but the effort, the sacrifice, and the time invested to make it better as time goes on will not go unnoticed by children.

To love your children for the sake of Allah is to also focus on “half your deen” in marriage too.

Because one day they will grow up and be someone else’s spouse.

Megan Wyatt

[secrethideoutxx]

5th august.

First wedding with you,

Many more wedding to come,

Lastly ours.

Love you 💕

[quotemadness]

“I’m obsessed with you. Utterly, willingly and wonderfully so.”

— Michael Faudet

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“Love makes the shy brave and the brave shy.”

— c.c.aurel

[mufti-ismail-menk]

Almighty, we are attacked moment by moment with images on television, the internet, books and newspapers that leave us vulnerable to sin of every kind. Protect us from all things evil. Cleanse our hearts, & strengthen us so we’re able to face the Devil even better than before.

Mufti Ismail Menk

[secrethideoutxx]

22nd. Thank you and our love story will start now. More cute adventure with you. Love you with every breath i have.

[mufti-ismail-menk]

When you want something badly, confide in the Almighty. There’s no need to tell others about your plans. One of the best ways to do it is to talk to Him when the world sleeps; in the depths of the night, away from distractions of the waking hours. Ask from your heart. Sincerely.

Mufti Ismail Menk

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