Silver Linings

Perhaps this my home after all

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Rp blog of an oc for a friend

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[secretsofthebelow]

"Uuu, I dunno. I like to do what Scar does. I follow him."

He looks back up at them, expression back to that blank, emotionless stare from before. Big, empty eyes stare up at Silver, looking to them for guidance.

-💤

“…okay, uh I don’t really do much, and I’m trying to rest…”

I muttered the last part under my breath rubbing my face for a moment before nodding.

“Okay! I know what we can do! Do you want to go on a adventure with me?”

[secretsofthebelow]

His eyes widen a tad, looking up at them with a frown, this time he didn't need to force it.

"Okay. I am sorry, Silver. I'm not him."

The canary looks down at his feet, hanging his head.

-💤

“Don’t be sorry for being yourself Sleepy, I’m happy to be with who you are.”

I smile gently and ruffle his hair affectionately, smiling bright despite deep down I was screaming.

Screaming because my child was gone.

Because the light didn’t leave, it simply disappeared and this was left in his place.

It was a mockery of my light.

But it still deserves to thrive as all lights do…

“Now what do you want to do today?”

[secretsofthebelow]

"Thank you, Silver, you are also good at hugging."

He murmurs, before pulling back and looking up at Silver again. The boy smiles up at then once again, little and forced, but there.

"It's okay that you compare me and him, maybe I can make you feel better this way. You can pretend thst I am him, and you will feel good. We can hang out, or play games, or sleep. I don't know what you would normally do."

-💤

“No! Absolutely not!”

I state firmly pulling back to look the child in the eye.

“You are your own person and should be treated as such. Just because I have my own problems does not mean you should try and become complacent in it.”

“You are Sleepy, and you are a much different person from the Abel I knew don’t worry.”

[secretsofthebelow]

"Uh huh. Well, I am sorry that I remind you of the boy that looks a lot like me and has one of the same names as me."

He scurries cloder and puts his forehead against Silver, then wraps his arms around them. When Sleepy speaks, his voice is muffled.

"This is called a hug, and it's makes you feel better when you feel bad or don't understand feelings."

So strange, so unfamilar. When had Sleepy ever offered to give Silver a hug? When had he ever had any sort of physical affection without flinching away?

-💤

I tense up at the hug before forcibly relaxing hugging him back.

No.

This is wrong.

This isn’t him.

This isn’t him hugging me.

This isn’t STARLIGHT

YOU ARE WHATS WRONG-

“Thank you dear, your hugs are very nice, it’s not fair to you that I’m comparing you and him.”

[secretsofthebelow]

"Oh! That's funny. I'm sometimes called Abel, and I also look a lot like me! What a coincidence."

He smiles, oblivious.

-💤

….

…hm.

In the very wise words of Copper

‘Is he an idiot or something?’

But I couldn’t say that to his face.

“Well that is certainly a coincidence…!”

[secretsofthebelow]

He simply looks up at Silver for a moment, waiting for them to continue, but they don't. He deicdes this meants he must creaye a conversation.

"Silver, do you know that I like to eat carrots? And vegetables are good for you and they taste good and you can make soup from them? And Scar can make soup and—"

Sleepy's rambling abruptly stops, and he narrows his eyes a bit. The boy seems to realize that Silver looks upset. A small frown appears on his face.

"What? What's wrong?"

-💤

I startle and blink sighing and laughing at the same time openly rubbing my eye now.

“Well you just remind me of a boy I know, his name is Abel and he looked a lot like you is all. I’m a tad emotional because of it.”

Abel, Sleepy, Starlight, all the same person. All of whom I’ve disappointed.

[secretsofthebelow]

Sleepy gives a quick giggle, reaching up to boop Silver's nose back. No huffy, shouted response, no swatting their hand away, no squawked "don't touch me!!", just a smile and a repeated playful gesture.

"It's okay, sometimes I don't remember things too. I forgive you."

It was all so different from the boy that Silver knows.

-💤

I swallow hard blinking back tears threatening come out of my already red eyes.

I wanted him back

I wanted his bite back

His anger

Everything

Why couldn’t I have that?

“…okay thank you Sleepy.”

[secretsofthebelow]

"Eeehhm, from you told me?"

Sleepy stares up at Silver blankly, thinking back to when they had first interacted. It was a brief moment, but he did remember.

"Hehehehehe. You thought I was the one who forgot, but it's you! Silly."

-💤

“Heh guess I did huh? Silly me!”

I giggle and smile, booping his nose lightly as I do so.

‘So he does remember the conversation we had when he was a blank slate…’

“Sorry about that must have slipped my mind!”

[secretsofthebelow]

"Remember about you..."

He tilts his head to the side, looking off elsewhere as he tried to see what he could recall about the person in front of him.

"You are Silver, a being of the void, nothing more, and nothing less. You are good, sweet to me!"

-💤

Oh void…

“Ah…I see yes that is correct, I am a being of the void. How do you know that Sleepy?”

It was like he was reading off a manual when he said that…void…

[secretsofthebelow]

"Uuu... I don't know! At least some minutes..."

Sleepy doesn't seem to have a very good sense of time anymore. Or maybe he simply can't remember how to state the amoutn of time. Either way, Silver knows he must have been here for longer.

"I have a best friend who is, he's known as Scar. We eat food, and he is nice to me. He makes me a bed when it is time to close my eyes and go to... beddy bye."

His expression goes neutral again, the default expression, and he pulls the blanket off of his head.

"It's when you close your eyes to have sleep. And sometimes there are nightmares."

-💤

“Ah Scar, he’s a good man, very kind and gentle. I’m glad you made such good friends with him!”

I say smiling gently flying down to the ground so I could see eye to eye with the child.

“And he helps you with sleep as well? That is very nice!”

“What do you remember about me?”

Part of me was worried what the answer would be.

[secretsofthebelow]

"Heheeh!! Hi, Silver!!"

A small smile appears on his face, and Silver can easoly tell he's putting a lot of effort into trying to make the expression look natural. Sleepy had spent a lot of time trying to perfect his smile, once he was told it meant someone made you feel good. He wanted to show other people that they were nice.

"I am okay. I feel good."

He states matter if factly, punctuating it, again, with a little grin. The boy tilts his head.

"Are you okay?"

-💤

My hands shake slightly as I reach towards him before stopping and pulling back. Who cares if I was okay?! The last time I had seen Sleepy he was…

He was…

(Dead eyes. Wrong. No emotion.)

“I-well yes I am doing well.”

A complete lie.

“How long have you been here?”

[secretsofthebelow]

For the majority of the time Sleepy has been in the sunflower fields, he had stuck by Scar, or inside of Trader Scar's, exploring his belongings. This time, he'd decided he wanted an adventure! Staying in the same place made him curious what was beyond what he had seen. To prepare for the outside world, Sleepy wraps himself in a blanket that Scar had given him a few nights ago, as if it were a cloak. Scar wears a cloak, and he looks pretty cool, so the boy figures he must also look cool like this.

He doesn't have to wander far at all, in fact, only stepping out the door, before he encounters someone else! And it just happens to be someone he's met before. Perfect!

"HELLO!!"

He chirps with amusement, attempting to startle the sunbathing being.

-💤

I was trying to relax after my talk with Scar, my face and leg had been pushed back into being normal. But my arm was still pure black and would be for a while due to my exhaustion.

Though when Sleepy shouted in my ear all sense of where I was went through the window. All I heard was one being who shouldn’t be here.

And promptly let out a noise that was between a scream of terror and a yelp of surprise.

“COPPER! What are you doing-“

Ah. That wasn’t Copper.

“Sleepy? What on void-When did-Are you okay?!”

[secretsofthebelow]

I…really want to drink lava…

[sleepy-is-awesome]

I do not suggest it, Silver. Lava contains no nutritional value, and you would not benifit in any way by consuming it. Molten rock, mineral crystals, and volcanic gas are very likely to cause you much more harm than good. Please don't.

[secretsofthebelow]

Look. I know that…well actually I didn’t, but look at it! It’s not like I have any organs to harm.

[secretsofthebelow]

I…really want to drink lava…

[secretsofthebelow]

Scar is just a coward. You are friends. You may never see me again, but belive this. He merely fears attachment and losing you. You are friends.

“…”

“Few would choose to be friends with me.”

[secretsofthebelow]

(Quick tw for blood! And self harm! Uh oh!)

Pip looks up at Copper, glaring daggers at him. Silver can sense a large shift in his mood as his thoughts become more and more negative. He doesn't seem as eager to please anymore, he doesn't even seem to want their approval. There is a dark sort of morbid air surrounding him that Sivler can't quite put a name to.

Wordlessly, the Watcher summons a dagger at his side. Staring dead at Copper with a darkened eye, he stands tall and drives the obsidian blade into his chest, heaving out a large breath. He does this once again, plunging the weapon this time into his stomach. Then another, just beside the last wound. A shimmering mix of dark crimson and bright violet bleeds out of the i injuries, staining his pale white shirt. Pip's gaze doesn't waver for even a second, intent on giving an entertaining final act to Copper. He stands in place as blood gushes down the front of his shirt, barely trembling, his chest heaves for air.

-🌀

Silver coughs and bends over covering the whole parts of their face in abstract horror. Oh void this is worse then when they did it this is worse thisissomuchworse-

They were heaving, why were they heaving? They didn’t even have a stomach.

“Oh great void no-“

Copper of course had a much different reaction, watching him stab himself over and over. Before a snort rang through the void then another then a laugh. They were still staring at the wounds with a wide manic open mouthed smile.

“I’ve never seen a person do that before! Man you are truly the highest form of entertainment I’ve ever had!”

They tune and grab Silver’s wrist the only one covering their mouth, or what was left of it.

“Cmon look look! He’s doing that for himself! Not even for me or anyone else! Isn’t he FUNNY?!”

The void being didn’t reply. Simply staring at their other half in horror. They jerked their head back to Pip, breathing getting faster and faster.

“Get out…get out get out GET OUT!!!”

They immediately pressed Pip’s code into a force leave command out of the void. Get the Watcher out. Get the blood out. Get out the other beings blood out of their tainted void.