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least chill person evr

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"wasted potential" you are still living!!! your potential is still here, you can carry on

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"when they find your bones, they'll know you were a ()" no, actually, they'll know i was loved and missed. can the same be said for you?

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i wish i was more certain of literally anything in my life

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you're like a pack of cigarettes to me.

i say i'm finished with you, that i'm tired of being at your beck and call, of calling you my weakness.

so i quit, i finish with you, and i feel good until the night comes and i miss you like nothing else. i just want your comfort, i downplay how much you hurt me.

so i go out and i buy a pack and promise myself it's my last.

but hey, it's just a pack of cigarettes, right? people have quit before, i can quit you whenever i want.

i just wish your burn didn't make me feel normal.

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time is only wasted if you learn nothing from it. even suffering and pain can teach you your limits. even grief can teach you about the vast expanse of your love.

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the father, the son and the spotify playlist

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neither suffering nor joy are eternal but both can change you for the better if you let them.

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i will be a good parent, and i will treat my children gently and lovingly. it will not be a revolution to them, i will not let them know any other life.

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you are my heaven, my eden, my quiet. you know me like i've never been known. i will look to you forever, and look at others through the lessons and love you've taught me.

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showing love through little looks and smiles, through a warm body to be next to and an ear that'll listen.

i cannot let you near me, not the way others can to their lovers, but i will never let you feel abandoned.

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we are running,

but You're a killer

and i'm your best friend

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i have so much love!! in me!! so much aching adortation!! but i cannot say those words!!

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please love me. please wait for me and guide me. let me disinfect your wounds when i bite you.

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nothing is more embarrassing than trying to move your way into someone's sight and be noticed by them, only to realise that they aren't looking away. they aren't ignoring you or avoiding your eyeline.

no, they just don't see you. you could be an inch from their face and they'd just look straight through you.

they don't ignore you, they don't want the chase or the catch. they just do not care like you do.

and for a moment, you wished they hated you, just so they'd think about you.

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i wish you'd look at me with love and care and understanding. i wish you'd look at me with the same hidden affection i look at you with.

lord, i wish you'd just look at me.

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no matter my disbelief or distrust for religion, i shall always find myself crawling back to the cold and judgmental arms of Catholicism and weep over a Hail Mary

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i think of you when i see the stars and the sun and light dancing on the ocean. you do not think of me.