Wonder&Wander

Welcome

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Stressed depressed and looking for what’s next

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Why are there so many rules when it comes to mental illness?

A firm reminder tw

You don't need to cut to be depressed

You don't need to cut deeper to be depressed

You don't need to always be sad to be depressed

Depression isn't a contest

You don't need trauma to be depressed

You don't need a certain amount of trauma to be depressed

Anyone who tells you otherwise is just insecure and trying to validate themselves.

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I’m so unhappy

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It’s not safe to be vulnerable with you

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I’ve slipped back into depression..

It snuck up on me..

I didn’t even see it coming …

But I can definitely feel it’s presence..

It’s pressure

It’s suffocation …

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I died in my dreams.

I was scared…

I didn’t feel any pain though.

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You’re special because you are YOU

But you’re an option because you are just a person.

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I don’t know what I want

That’s why I can’t find anything

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I’m full of rage and I only know how to combat it with Love…

But I truly need to be alone and learn to calm this monster inside me and show it love versus showing others love.

The angry monster inside me is the one begging for love comfort and attention yet each day I give bits and pieces of my love to others and else where

While this monster silently suffers and awaits the return of the one true love…

Self love.

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I’m lonely

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Love me like you don’t want to lose me.

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Blissful Disatisfaction

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I literally have no idea where to put my emotions, thoughts, etc..

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Sometimes I feel like the time and energy I waste thinking about why I feel bad/sad could be spent thinking about how I can feel better.

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My thoughts are extra heavy today and I am on the verge of tears because my body doesn’t know how to understand, dismiss or comprehend my thoughts. My thoughts are flooding in rapidly and each one is heavy and suffocating. I feel frozen, paralyzed. I’m drowning in ice water unable to even panick or struggle. No feelings of internal thrashing. Just stillness of discomfort and unhappiness. Suffocating grasping for an opportunity I analyze a single thought but they pass before I get the chance and the next has arrived to hold me down and torment me without revealing itself. Blank, faceless, nameless, empty thoughts weighing tons on my shoulders, pressing on my heart and phasing in and out of my mind with no chance of identifying the culprits robbing my joy.

- RGM3

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A tormented soul forced to wonder