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Honours year Biomedical Science student A sometimes-powerlifter. 100/55/115kg @ 67.2kg Instagram: leafyy1 Ask me a question! Selfies

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Hi

I’ve made a new blog

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Feeling so good :) 3 days in a row of no binging! So full of energy and just feeling good in general

Got a haircut yesterday and bought some things I’ve been meaning to buy for a while, including a new quilt cover set. Got my eyelashes tinted, tanned and painted my nails. Taking full advantage of my days off.

Plan for today is deadlifts (for sets of 10 fml pray4me), a pedicure and cleaning the house for tomorrow’s inspection + re-organising my room.

Who is this human who actually does stuff??? Feels good to not be a dead shit

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Many updates

I have, historically, had a serious binge-eating problem which flared up again pretty badly during exam time in November and has been continuing ever since

Have put on about 6kg since it started in Nov

Have realised it’s trigged by two main things: my mental state and also my energy levels. If I’m not feeling too good mentally or emotionally, I binge; if I’m super tired or exhausted (which usually also causes me to become mentally exhausted), I binge.

These last 2 days I’ve been in a really good place mentally as well as physically and I didn’t binge! I’ve been feeling really great, getting my workouts done. I enjoyed being at work yesterday, had plenty of energy and 6 hours felt like 1. I wish I could feel like this all the time lol

Crazy work time is over and I’m not working so much over these next coming weeks - I’m only doing 3 days this week which I’m so excited about and then 4 days/wk for the last 2 wks of January. So, I’m hoping the less time at work will = better mental state + less exhaustion = better binge control, so I can work on getting those 6kg I put on back off.

I started a BB-type split this week (omfg wot? ye I know) because my work capacity has dropped to absolute 0 so I need to do lots of high volume stuff. Monday was 3x10 on squats no knee sleeves no belt nuthin. After my first set at 60kg I could’ve sworn my quads have never felt so swole in my lyf. After all 3 sets I didn’t even bother trying to do accessories. I waddled over to coles, got some groceries and went home lol. Same as bench yesterday... 40kgx3x10 and then 1 pushup felt like I weighed 500kg so I gave up and went home.

Leg DOMS are so fkn real today

On Monday I was really hungry when I was about to go gym so I decided to have my shake before and not after (and didn’t wanna eat anything else because I had already planned all my meals in terms of cals+macros for the day). I haven’t had a protein shake in literal years. I was still full when I got home from the gym, 4 hours after I had the damn shake. It made my sets of 10 squats just that much harder cos a big protein shake stuck in your belly makes keeping your core tight rly hard

Mind you I didn’t even go gym until like 2 hours after I had the shake it just stuck around for an unnaturally long time

Again really fucking excited about only having 3 days at work this week. I’m getting a haircut today, and I’m gonna get my eyelashes tinted and lifted, I’m gonna get a pedicure, I’m gonna go shopping. I’m gonna clean my room and buy new bed sheets. I’m going to go doctors and I’m going to start Honours readings. I’m gonna treat myself and I’m gonna get stuff done!

I applied for a permanent part-time position at work to continue on after my contract ends. Contract initially ended on 17th, but they’ve extended it until the 31st. Basically they sprung an interview on me yesterday so I was totally unprepared but I went well anyway. They then told me that they were planning on hiring me, and they want to, but are now in 2 minds because they’ve gotten negative feedback from my floor? Apparently some surrounding staff have told my manager that when she’s not around I’m a totally different person who swears at people really loudly and ignores customers. Such ridiculous allegations and I got so angry I broke down in tears lol. Someone clearly fuckin hates me

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Remind me to never ever have a shake BEFORE the gym again, ever [more on this and why I broke this super important bro-rule l8r when I'm not gonna spew]

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My gym re-opened today after being shut for 2 weeks and even though I was so exhausted all day at work, I sculled a long black and forced myself to go. I only did 3 sets of 4 (skwatz), but I’m pretty sure I’m not going to be able to walk tomorrow.

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I want an activity tracker. I’m tossing up between FitBit (Charge/Surge), Garmin and TomTom. Anyone have any pro’s/con’s they can list for these/any recommendations, opinions, etc.?

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hello. I haven’t had wifi for like 4 weeks hence why I’ve been MIA but this ridiculous internet connection has finally been fixed!

First time back on tumblr in how long and my dash is flooded with Star Wars, LOTR and SPN... I am pleased

Work has been insane. In. fucking. sane. I started at 5am on Boxing Day and worked 11 hours. I only had like half an hour sleep. Customers were pushing me. I couldn’t move in my own store. I literally couldn’t move. It was disgusting and I was so beyond tired... was quite seriously one of the most shitty days I’ve ever had.

I then worked another 9 hours for the next 2 days after that, each day, and then one more day (7 hours I think it was) before I finally had one day off. Worked NYE and New Years Day, and then had today off. Working tomorrow, Monday and Tuesday before finally getting 2 consecutive days off. I’m so over it at this point. I need a holiday so badly. I haven’t had proper time off from uni and work to myself to just relax, without any interfering drama, since the 2013-2014 summer holidays.

Up-coming pay check will be worth it though. I worked all the public holidays, and Sundays. Buuut tax will destroy me tho

Contract ends on the 17th. I applied to continue my position but I don’t think they’re flexible enough with hours for me to balance it with Honours - I don’t want to be working any more than 2 days a week or 15 hrs a week while I’m doing Hons, and I think the company requires a minimum of 3 days and 25 hours? Or so I’ve been told. We’ll see, but I’ve already started looking elsewhere just in case.

My gym re-opens on Monday and I am so keen to get back in there!

I have three sets of goals for 2016 - academic goals, fitness/health goals and general life goals. I am really, really determined to achieve them. They’re all definitely achievable - I just need to keep focused, determined and responsible and I’m set for a productive and rewarding 2016.

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#theforceawakens was so, so good. Was awesome to experience an entire cinema erupt into cheers at the commencement of a film. Still recovering from the excitement!! #starwars #episodevii

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What the frick is with men agreeing to go on dates then on the day you don't even hear from them this is the second time this has happened to me in several months omg

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When you're having a really, really tired day then hit a cardio PR lulz wot

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Was out by 5:30, at the gym before it even opened at 6, and now having my coffee at 7:30 with plenty of time to get ready for my 9 hour shift today. Yesterday was my day off and I cleaned shit plus purchased some necessities and prepped today’s meals. I’m productive as fuck

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So results are out and as expected I had the shittiest semester I’ve ever had and my GPA dropped slightly, but I officially passed my degree and will still be graduating with an above-distinction GPA! 3.65 on a 4 scale. I’m so happy with that.

Excited to see what I can achieve in Honours next year.

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TMI

Some pretty TMI info ahead, related to periods and pooping. Proceed with caution.

Does anyone else here get like really effing constipated for a full week before their periods, and then on their first day of menstruation, their body decides that it’s finally time to poop? I was stuck on the toilet for 15 mins today with some serious pain considering I had like a weeks worth exiting me and I’d really like to know if there’s any way to prevent this shit. (Pun may or may not be intended.)

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Just came home from work to not one but TWO huntsmen in the house. Is dis real life

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Apparently now you can sign up to get notifications when blogs post new things Wow this is going to make it so much easier for me to be less of a shit tumblr-friend!

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Spent the past couple of hours reading articles on powerlifting & nutrition while cutting weight and I'm feeling better. Just need to be patient and continue with trial and error. Seems I'm on the right track, just need to keep monitoring progress and adjusting calories accordingly. Starting high considering my activity levels are pretty high atm and will slowly work my way down based on weekly results. Other than that, I'm genuinely enjoying training at the moment. It's good to have my therapy back. I feel like I enjoy the shorter, more regular sessions better than the longer, dragged out sessions too.

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Let’s be real: I need a coach. I’ve known that for a long time. I need an experienced eye to recognise my weaknesses and program for me accordingly. I need someone to keep me accountable. I need someone to guide my nutrition. I’m trying to diet at the moment but I have no idea wtf I’m doing? How do I even start trying to figure out how many cals and what macros I need to lose fat yet sustain my activity levels? Imagine the progress I could’ve made this year if I had someone to guide me, so that I didn’t need to be blindly doing trial and errors all year trying to fix all the problems I had? Now at the end of 2015 I’m starting off again at a position weaker than where I was when the year started.

But let’s be real again: I can only just afford a gym membership, let alone coaching. And it really sucks. The general population always assume that I have the luxury of help, and it’s something which I’ve found really frustrating. People are always surprised to find out that I pay rent and bills. They’re even more surprised to find out that I pay for my own groceries and cook my own meals. But even after that, they still for some reason assume that my parents help me out some way or another. “Your parents don’t help you? Why?” That’s the response I get most often. No, my parents don’t help me. And I think it’s almost offensive to assume that all young people receive financial help from their parents, because no, some of us simply do not have that luxury. Why? There are plenty of reasons why our parents may not help us. Maybe they’re not around anymore. Maybe we’re estranged. Maybe they’re not in a good financial position themselves to be able to help us.

So apparently, according to most people, I’m in a disadvantaged position. I’m 22 and totally independent: I pay my own rent, my own bills, my own groceries. I pay for my own gym membership and my own phone and my own internet usage. I pay for my own clothes and my own material items and for my own social life. I pay for these while studying full time and working part time with government assistance but no parental assistance whatsoever.

So I have to manage my finances mindfully and stringently. That means sometimes I can’t afford the luxuries I want. That means I probably won’t become the athlete I want to be anytime soon. That means sometimes having to turn down social events. But that’s okay. I know this is temporary, and this all gives me drive to keep on pushing, to keep on achieving and to trust that my hard work will pay off in the end.

Lol. This started off as a post about how I want/need a coach and turned into a menstrual-fuelled whinge. Woops