sehyn.

20. pieces of my heart.

[twistcmyk]

[sehyn]

my mom says she’s not a hugger. but when i put my arms around her on a gloomy day or after bad news she’s the last to let go. my dad says he doesn’t want gifts on his birthday, but i see the way his face lights up when i get him a card with a nice message and a box full of chocolate anyway. he’s just a kid inside, still. it makes him giddy. my brother never says i love you. but when i tell him “i just need to finish the dishes before i vacuum!” he wordlessly goes to vacuum the entire house before i can, and if he sees me struggle with a wrapper or a jar or a bottle he mutters ‘c’mere’ and opens it for me without even sparing me a glance. the thing is, people love you quietly, and you love them quietly, and the air is buzzing with tiny but grand gestures & once you look for them, you find them everywhere. i think that’s really beautiful.

[sehyn]

"who has a brother like this" I DO!

[sehyn]

my dads a pretty tough guy but his kids (including my brother, a grown man) can make him go 😘😘 on the phone with 0 effort. he must give all of his kids kisses before hanging up

[sehyn]

i’ve always thought it was so beautiful how people have the capability to fight for others, including complete strangers. like the fact that we have entire hospitals to help each other, the idea of surgeons in those hospitals who’d have 30+ hour surgeries to save one life. firemen running into a burning building and training for the possibility of it ever happening. people volunteering to help in a country they’ve never been after a natural disaster, expecting no money in return for their kindness. i think this urge to help and be a part of this and keep as much people as possible alive is something natural and it might just be what we were made to do and be. even if you think you’re unloved, your life would always be considered worth saving, if not by those around you then by the surgeon, the firefighter, the paramedic, the volunteer, the eye-witness who’s hell-bent on not losing you.

[sehyn]

sleeping at last saying “you are loved, you are loved, more than you know. i hereby pledge all of my days to prove it so” and “i will soften every edge, hold the world to its best” and “with every heartbeat i have left, i’ll defend your every breath” made me believe in love.

[queerbookwhore]

Jesus literally was like eat the rich. He told his followers to sell their earthly possessions and then give the money to the poor. He believed in helping the less fortunate and even told his followers that no rich man could enter the gates of heaven. In todays political climate Jesus would have been a socialist. In this essay I will piss off conservatives

[sehyn]

bon iver’s music feels like having your heart and your lungs gently carved out to have them decorated with flower petals and moss and leaves and then having them given back to you and every breath hurts and you’re light headed but it’s okay because it’s beautiful and it’s yours and dying a gorgeous death feels more heroic than living a life without ever wilting.

[sehyn]

what blows my mind most about the usa is how a lot of people have such an outdated, patriarchic, patriotic, racist view on what the country should be like. instead of getting mad or shocked when they hear someone got murdered by the police, their initial reaction is doing research to justify their death. “he had a fake dollar bill” so he deserved to choke and die, rather than being talked to and maybe arrested? “they thought his toy gun was real” so he deserved to get shot and die, rather than being asked a few questions about it? “her boyfriend shot at the cops” because he thought the people quietly entering his home in the middle of the night were intruders? and like you advocate for the right to bear arms and protect your home with it, he was using that right?

you’re proud of a country where people die at the hands of the force installed to protect them. you’re a person who cannot say “they didn’t deserve to die regardless of the mistakes they might’ve made”. you’re advocating for the right to bear arms but you’re not advocating for the lives of children who were just playing outside, who were walking down the street and napping on the couch, for the lives of the people sleeping and living in their homes, the men selling cd’s, leaving a corner store, jogging in the neighborhood. you advocate for lives that don’t exist, lives that are career paths that are chosen, lives that are costumes that can be taken off at the end of the day, over lives that are brutally taken without any consequence.

the entire world outside of this crazy country of yours is disgusted by you.

[sehyn]

novo amor, sleeping at last, bon iver, bruno major and vancouver sleep clinic make me levitate into a world where my body does not know how to hate itself

[sehyn]

I FORGOT RY X! SHORTLINE? HOWLING? BERLIN? ONLY? HEAVENLY.

[sehyn]

thinkin abt how beauty has no weight class or look..... and it exists bc u do.... u are It

[sehyn]

my mom says she’s not a hugger. but when i put my arms around her on a gloomy day or after bad news she’s the last to let go. my dad says he doesn’t want gifts on his birthday, but i see the way his face lights up when i get him a card with a nice message and a box full of chocolate anyway. he’s just a kid inside, still. it makes him giddy. my brother never says i love you. but when i tell him “i just need to finish the dishes before i vacuum!” he wordlessly goes to vacuum the entire house before i can, and if he sees me struggle with a wrapper or a jar or a bottle he mutters ‘c’mere’ and opens it for me without even sparing me a glance. the thing is, people love you quietly, and you love them quietly, and the air is buzzing with tiny but grand gestures & once you look for them, you find them everywhere. i think that’s really beautiful.

[sehyn]

novo amor, sleeping at last, bon iver, bruno major and vancouver sleep clinic make me levitate into a world where my body does not know how to hate itself

[sehyn]

when mark sloan said “i’m still in love with you” and lexie grey said “i have a boyfriend now” and mark sloan said “i know, i’m saying you could have a husband” !!!!!!!!!!!!