[self-observation]

its an awful thought that at one point you realized that there is no purpose for your beautiful soul in this cruel world created by beautiful souls suppressed by cruel minds

there will be no peace

mind control 

[self-observation]

it is 1.44 am

i am looking for happiness

my mind is an illusion

my thoughts are not real

do you want to protect my soul

my head makes wrong decision my soul can’t take

i do not have to be anything but to exist

i have to exist to be something BASED ON ILLUSION

LIFE IS AN ILLUSION

YOU ARE AN ILLUSION

i am an illusion

there won’t be an escape but

not to exist

[hereislight]

COMPLIMENTS THAT AREN’T ABOUT PHYSICAL APPEARANCE 1) You’re empowering. 2) I like your voice. 3) You’re strong. 4) I think your ideas/beliefs matter. 5) I’m so happy you exist. 6) More people should be listening to what you have to say. 7) You’re a very warm hearted person. 8) It’s nice seeing such kindness. 9) You’re very down to earth. 10) You have a beautiful soul. 11) You inspire me to become a better person. 12) Our conversations bring me a lot of joy. 13) It’s good to see someone care so much. 14) You’re so understanding. 15) You matter a lot to me. 16) You’re important even if you don’t think so. 17) You’re intelligent. 18) Your passion is contagious. 19) Your confidence is refreshing. 20) You restore my faith in humanity. 21) You’re great at being creative. 22) You’re so talented at ____. 23) I don’t get tired of you the way I get tired of other people. 24) You have great taste in ___. 25) I’m happy I stayed alive long enough to meet you. 26) I wish more people were like you. 27) You’re so good at loving people. 28) Your laugh is absolutely contagious.

3:29 p.m. feel free to add to this! (via cold-winter-days)

People should listen more carefully.

[self-observation]

Sometimes I really doubt that I will ever find someone who makes me truly happy. Worship the transient moments, I tell myself and do so as good as I can, but I can't help but wonder what's the purpose of this misery? Everythings stays questionable Some things may change and may be good but the misery remains the same No sun warms your skin, no rainbow warms your heart without a little rain But now I'm always sceptical Everything good will fade away Every smile every butterfly in my bones There will be no happy end for any of us In fact nobody even knows when a life will end Yet we aspired towards an illusion of our future lifes when we should focus on the now instead Not thinking what would, what could But then again I can't help but wonder This is not my only me I am I exist I have to remind myself that there will be times where I don't know who I am but may I never worry about my present existence on this planet I am a part of something I do not understand I exist as something that does not have to