ღ There is reason for hope.

Sem; reader; writer of meta and fic; graphic maker; sketcher of pictures; Sam fan until the sky falls. Occasionally multi-fandom. On an NiF kick now, possibly indefinitely. See fandoms / navigation for details. This blog is hate-free but not criticism-free; everything is tagged.

[littlebitalexis]

Deep in their roots, all flowers keep the light

[guzhuangheaven]

nirvana in fire | you can’t control me

[nanashi1869]

#never speak to me or my 70000 ghosts ever again  via @aurorean

[semirahrose]

I miss you sharing your insights and positivity on Sam. So much. Hope you're doing great :)

I miss those things a lot too! I hope you’re also doing great. I wish I could honestly say I missed watching SPN, but waiting for the narrative to let Sam shine (and waiting, and waiting) got to be too much. I have so much respect for the folks who are still at it and still harbor plans to watch s15.

I’ve been off Tumblr for a while, even though I peek in sometimes and see some really neat Sam gifs on my dash and grin. 

I’ve been writing a lot of original work this year and even gathered the courage to start submitting to various magazines. I decided to only submit to pro-rate publications because I am foolish. I’ve gotten a few tiny publications under my belt, but they were either smallish and/or regional or paid only in contributor copies. On the bright side, actual publication in one of these places would mean professional pay: close to $100 for even a short flash piece.

Unfortunately, no luck so far! But out of around 10-ish attempts, I’ve gotten 4 rejections that were personalized, which is a step above form rejection! The editors took the time to provide positive feedback personalized to the story, which felt really good. I haven’t been trying long and have a lot still to learn… and writing has been like pulling teeth for most of the year.

I plan to keep at it. Even if I fail, I’ll grow. And meanwhile, I’m working on a couple of novels and enjoying self-guided language study and living my best life.

I sure as heck miss Sam fandom, though. Much love, wonderful Anon!

[semirahrose]

Semirah, when I came back to your blog, I thought I would only reblog this Sam Winchester comic for which I made an account for. Who knew that I would eventually run into your Nirvana in Fire posts, and that I would be sucked in so quickly, and that only 17 days later I would be here, crying at my laptop because of the last episode. I have so many mixed feelings, but I still have to thank you. I began this series because of you, and I don't regret it. Thank you. TT_TT

Ahhhhhhh on the one hand I’m so sorry but on the other, Nirvana in Fire is the literal best and deserves all the love in the world and I’m so happy that the coolest folks in this corner of the internet (Sam fam, obviously) are watching it. I have never in my entire life watched a series that is so good and hurts so good.

Like, with Supernatural, it has an insanely high amount of hurts so good, but the show itself (in my humble and subjective opinion) has become a reeking dumpster fire—though I say this without having seen any of the new season. It could have gotten better. Nirvana in Fire is so amazing and tightly plotted and all the characters are extraordinary.

I would say NiF tugs on all the heartstrings, but I have none left. It completely obliterated all of them in the best way.

*sending virtual hugs if that’s okay* <3

[semirahrose]

hi you saiD TO COME SCREAM WITH YOU IF WE WATCH NIF AND GUESS WHAT I'VE JUST WATCHED IT AND I'M!!!!! DEAD!!!!! I LOVE LITERALLY EVERYONE IN THIS SHOW AND I WOULD DIE FOR MCS OHMYGOSH SEND HELP

WHyyyyyyyyyyy didn’t Tumblr tell me I had any asks? Literally it hasn’t told me for months? What is going on? (Admittedly, I am not on nearly as much lately.)

I am so happy you watched Nirvana in Fire oh my gosh. Thank you I love you.

IT’S TIME TO SCREAM. 

RIGHT THOUGH?? LITERALLY EVERYONE IS THE BEST I WOULD DIE FOR ALL OF THEM AND I JUST WANT TO PUT MCS IN MY POCKET AND CRY FOR A THOUSAND YEARS I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO LOVE HIM AND LET HIM BE SOFT AND HE NEEDS A LIFETIME OF THERAPY HE’S SUCH A MESS HE HATES HIMSELF SO MUCH MY SONNNNN.

Tumblr isn’t even telling me when I got this message. I’m crying. I’m so sorry I only just realized I had this message. Please scream with me if you are still in a screaming mood and I’m super sorry ahhhhhh

here have a soft baby MCS getting hugs from Jingyan.

[positivexcellence]

jaredpadalecki: In honor of #supernaturalday and #fridaythe13th i decided to confront my fear of bears. It went well. #spnfamily

[semirahrose]

Things exactly no one needs to know: I mentally read “fear of bears” as “fear of beers” because my brain saw another “-ear” and was like, I know what to do with this! Then I went back, because I knew I had screwed up, and promptly read it as “fare of bares.”

[aborddelimpala]

14 seasons | 307 episodes | 2 brothers

Happy Birthday Supernatural 🎂

[angel-e-v-a]

Dean Being a Caring Brother | 07x02 

↳ Let me see that hand.

[su-gege]

I don’t know if it’s just me but I always feel like Zhen Ping is taking a tiny jab at Jing Yan’s conscience in this scene where he stops them from seeing Mei Chang Su after the latter falls ill from his ordeal at the Xuanjing bureau. Zhen Ping’s way of speaking and mannerisms are completely polite but it’s what he says that got my attention. In this scene, he tells Jing Yan that his master’s health has been worse ever since the winter started. This is kind of sufficient explanation by itself, in that cold weather is detrimental to Mei Chang Su. But he goes on to bring up the incident where Mei Chang Su stood in the snow in order to stop him from recklessly trying to save Wei Zheng. In other words, his master is sicker than usual because of him. Poor Jing Yan was already pained from wrongly judging his strategist to be heartless and immoral, and here he looks even more guilty when Zhen Ping mentions this. 

The amusing thing is that Jing Yan’s subordinate (I didn’t catch this guy’s name) looks at him and breaks the awkward silence by saying that Jing Yan wasn’t here to trouble Mei Chang Su. He just wanted to see how he’s doing, like he’s not going to make Mei Chang Su stand in the freaking snow again.

Am I reading too much into this scene? LOL.

[chaikat]

I love how salty Zhen Ping is here and I 100% believe he’s doing it on purpose. He brings up Jingyan making MCS stand in the cold but not Xuanjing Bureau putting MCS in prison? Definitely making a point there. And I remember that when MCS was going to Jingyan’s place even though it was snowing heavily, Zhen Ping went on his knees to beg MCS to take care of his health but was told by MCS “what is the point of my health if I let Prince Jing walk into this trap?”

There’s also this deleted scene where Zhen Ping is very deliberately not looking Jingyan in the eye as he tells Jingyan that the bell in the secret tunnel has been fixed.

[ao3tags]

canon-typical levels of poor decision-making

[lotus-tower]

nirvana in fire + onion headlines

[billiethereaper]

@samcreationschallenge​ | @billiethereaper​ ↳ Prompt: Quotes from other TV Shows 

“Strong is fighting. It’s hard and it’s painful and it’s everyday.” (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

[starlightswait-deactivated20220]

i can never go home.

[semirahrose]

#don't imagine college sam who feels like he can't even call his brother or his dad to see how things are. don't do it. dont d-  (via)

[supernaturaldaily]

The only thing you’re missing is a couple dozen cats, sister.

[grumpycas]

#bitchface

[lets-steal-an-archive]

(x)

[bluefirecas]

So this has been a dry “fuck you” look all this time.

[deanpendragon]

some days it feels like  t h e  o c e a n  lies inside of me

[fentasticical]

{ spn meme } five relationships ♦ 1/5

If you come near Sam Winchester, I’ll kill you.