⋆˚꩜｡ he/she 21
⋆˚꩜｡ pro-para anti-contact pro-consang
⋆˚꩜｡ not really involved or interested in rq community
⋆˚꩜｡ this is a sideblog so i can't follow/like from here just fyi!
⋆˚꩜｡ Detailed journal on transIDs
Tag Directory
⋆˚꩜｡ #honk: stuff about me personally in some way
⋆˚꩜｡ #honk honk: ask responses
⋆˚꩜｡ #trisharmed #transharmed
⋆˚꩜｡ #transcisgender
⋆˚꩜｡ #pro para
Someone who feels as though they should have complex PTSD.
Other people have used the term TransC-PTSD but I haven't come across a flag.
Below is my alteration of angel2049's original TransPTSD flag with black triangles at the top and bottom. I chose to add a feature instead of changing any colors because C-PTSD includes symptoms of PTSD in addition to other ones. The diagnostic difference between PTSD and C-PTSD is the additional criteria of difficulty regulating emotions, altered perception of self (e.g. severe shame, worthlessness), and difficulty maintaining important relationships.
I'm not a spiritual person, I'm not religious. But for me, certain aspects of theoretical physics (the Many-Worlds Interpretation of quantum mechanics) function as a sort of spiritualism. I feel that certain points throughout my life are closer in proximity to alternate universes, making it so those universes sort of bleed into my consciousness in this universe. A new universe is created such that every possibility occurs simultaneously. It feels like certain universes are closer to this one than others, and I have an awareness of the events in those universes through dreams and feelings like nostalgia for things that did not occur or dysphoria-adjacent feelings that don't align with my lived experience.
Detailed descriptions of TransIDs below.
⋆˚꩜｡ My Age
I am 21, born in 2005. As I sort of explained above, I feel as though a universe in which I was born in 1995 is very close to this universe. I feel like I should have been born 1995. So I could be considered transAge and/or transBirthday.
⋆˚꩜｡ My Gender and Sexuality
I am a bisexual, aroace trans man. I am entirely comfortable with being a man in every aspect of my life. But I feel as though there is another universe in which I am a butch lesbian that is close to this universe. I specifically see the point of divergence between a universe in which I am trans FTM and one in which I am cis butch as my parents' divorce because of the effect it had on my perception of masculinity and sexuality. Since (and this is a whole can of worms) I feel like that divorce was not meant to occur in this universe, I feel like I should be a butch lesbian. So I identify with the term transCisgender, and can be considered transOrientation as well.
I am a MAP (specifically a pedophile). I don't know if people still use the term NO-MAP, I haven't seen that around recently, but that would apply as I am anti-contact. I additionally am an autopedophile/autoMAP. Based on my lived experience, my attraction likely stems from early exposure to certain material and continued reinforcement of the sexualization of particular concepts and traits. I don't see it as a mental illness and I don't consider myself to have a paraphilic disorder because it doesn't impact me particularly negatively. As stated all over my profile, I'm pro-para, so I'm not bothered or ashamed of my attraction.
⋆˚꩜｡ Lived and Trans Experience
I experience the majority of symptoms of C-PTSD and having experienced sexual trauma. Based on my lived experience, the signs of C-PTSD are likely related to parental divorce and betrayal of trust while the signs of sexual trauma are related to nonsexual violations of body autonomy.
I don't think I feel like there's a nearby universe in which I was sexually abused in the way I feel about other identities explained above. My trauma identities are more so because having experienced that trauma would better explain my current personality and emotional state than my real lived experiences.
I identify as transCOCSA and have a specific series of events that feel as though they happened -- making up an alternate story feels incorrect to me. I also identify as transC-PTSD associated with that story. TrisHarmed and copinHarmed are umbrella identities that cover those.
⋆˚꩜｡ Other things I have multiverse feelings about
I don't feel these strongly/often enough to identify with them.
Native Hawaiian/Kānaka Maoli, manatee
Original "cissors" by b1mb0d0ll699 "TransCisgender" by agab-non-conformers
Definition: A person who feels they should be cisgender. e.g. trans man who feels he should be a cis woman e.g. trans woman who feels she should be a cis woman e.g. transneutral person who feels they should be cis neutral (Can be similar to mutagender, feeling simultaneously trans and cis)
My alternate flags (detail under the cut)!
TransCisgender - Black & Gray: often used to represent cis or straight identity - Blue, pink, white: Monica Helms's transgender flag - I chose to surround the trans flag with the black and gray stripes to represent the coexisting identities, identifying as one particular gender while feeling cisgender. If you'd like to read into it more, it can also represent the constrictive nature of the cis vs. trans dichotomy.
2. TransCisgenderMale / TransCisgenderMan - The transgender symbol with the venus and combined symbols are disconnected but still present on the flag. The mars symbol remains to represent the user's male identity, but the other parts are still there to represent the coexistence of trans and cis identities.
3. TransCisgenderFemale / TransCisgender Woman - Same as above, just with the venus symbol remaining instead.
I made these because I am TransCisFemale -- I sometimes feel like I was meant to be a cis butch, even though living as FTM feels right for me. I feel like both identities exist within me. My male identity suits me physically, intellectually, and emotionally, but my female identity suits a part of me that is intangible. I'm not spiritual, but the closest analog to describe it would be my soul.
Anyways, I didn't feel connected to any of the existing flags even though they're pretty. So these are mine!
CopinHarmed , Coined by us, is a CopinID where one identifies as Transharmed to cope with something in some way. One example of this might be someone identifying with the term to attempt to healthily process with intrusive thoughts, feelings, and/or urges that stem from a variety of things, such as having PTSD and experiencing things like urges to go back to abusive situations, survivor's guilt, or not being comfortable in non-dangerous situations due to not being used to being in a safe environment.
RULES:: using our flags / graphics is okay, credit is preferred but not required [] Reposting our flags / graphics is only okay if you tell us that you're reposting it and where. Credit is a hard requirement for reposting our stuff to other platforms.
