I found this while unpacking into my new flat. It was super faded and old, and for a moment, I considered throwing it out. But I didn't. I pulled out my marker pens and refreshed the colours
I may not be super in the Jacksepticeye community anymore, I don't use this side blog (I'm over @wayward-wren now) and I only sometimes watch Jack's videos nowadays. But throwing this out would feel like a betrayal to younger me who just wanted connection. Younger me who made this and thought "maybe when I move to university I can hang this mask out and someone else who likes Jack and the egos will be my friend."
To the me who sat alone in highschool, watching Jack's videos. To the me who spent hours theorising and getting excited over ego hints. To the me who wrote dark stories about egos and antisepticeye because I was lonely and scared and wanted to fit in. I'm keeping this for her, and a remind that in the past three years I've grown so much.
I still remember my time in the jse community with huge fondness. It was loads of fun and honestly helped me through one of the hardest years of my life. So I'm going to keep this mask and continue to brighten the colours ever so often for a while longer, even if I don't display it quite so obnoxiously anymore!
