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adhd executive dysfunction sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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Sometimes I think people underestimate how exhausting it is to look functional while internally feeling completely overwhelmed.

To answer normally. Speak normally. Smile normally. Continue conversations normally. All while your mind feels unbearably loud underneath it all.

And after a while, there can be this desperate feeling of wanting someone to finally see it. Not because you want to be dramatic or difficult, but because trying to explain intense emotional pain calmly over and over again while nobody fully understands starts becoming exhausting in its own way.

Sometimes you start thinking, “would people only realize how bad it is if I completely fell apart in front of them?”

And then immediately comes the guilt for even thinking that.

The shame.

The “am I just attention seeking?” thoughts.

But honestly, I think a lot of people only call themselves attention seeking when what they actually mean is:

“I want someone to notice I am struggling without me having to reach a breaking point first.”

And that is such a deeply human thing to want.

Human beings are not meant to carry emotional pain completely alone and silently forever. Wanting comfort does not make you manipulative. Wanting to be understood does not make you selfish.

Sometimes it just means you have been holding too much inside for too long.

And if you relate to this, I really hope you know your pain does not need to become catastrophic before it deserves care.

You do not have to prove how badly you are hurting in the most visible way possible before you are allowed softness and support.

You are already deserving of gentleness while you are still holding yourself together.

You are already worthy of someone listening before things become unbearable.

And I hope one day comfort stops feeling like something you have to earn through collapse 🤍

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“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

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thepeacefulgarden

Yes, other people's needs matter, but yours matter just as much.

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serialstranger

Burde være gået i seng før… Når jeg når ud på natten, begynder mit psykotiske hovede at tage over og kan aldrig kontrollere mine 1000 tanker ha

Jeg er kommet langt, og det er jeg stolt af.

Når mit psykotiske hovede tager over, bliver jeg ked af, at jeg er blevet misforstået.

Jeg bliver ked af, at der er skabt et narrativ omkring mig og mine følelser, som ikke passer - at der bliver misfortolket ting, ud fra mine skriv.

Da jeg skrev, at jeg var ovre dig, passede det.

Da jeg skrev, at jeg troede, at vi kunne have været gode sammen, passede det.

Men betød ikke at jeg ville tilbage til dig, eller at jeg havde følelser for dig.

Jeg var såret over, at jeg blev til the bad person, og at jeg var den der skulle behandles dårligt - at jeg var den, tingene skulle gå udover, og at du først lærte af dem bagefter. Uretfærdigt.

Jeg har altid været ærlig overfor K, hele vejen igennem. K har altid vidst, hvad jeg har tænkt og følt, og K har aldrig fortjent, at andre går og tror, at jeg stadig havde/har følelser for dig, pga. andres usikkerheder omkring dig.

K er det bedste, der nogensinde er sket for mig. Da jeg sagde ja til hende for 6 år siden, har der aldrig været andre end hende. Vil der heller aldrig være. Mit hjerte og mine følelser har lagt hos hende siden, og vil de altid gøre.