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what the actual fuck? i havent been on tumblr in years and a lot has changed on this platform obviously lol. I doubt anyone in the stacking world will even see this haha.

Im planning for my return, but I’m waiting it all out, mainly because of the fact that I need to get myself in a better living situation and move out of state. I know that moving out of state will help me improve as a creator for stacking, but I’m now in a position where I have to save the community whether I like it or not. It’s going to really destroy me, but it’s going to be the only thing that i can do.

Everyone isn’t taking cup stacking so seriously anymore. there’s always going to be drama left and right. Hell, I’ve even been in drama myself and I’ve respectfully distanced myself representing the community as a whole because at the end of the day, I’m absolutely gaining nothing out of it. I’ve always been backstabbed by who i called my ‘close friends’ and now they’re my ‘former friends.’ no one stood by my side and just wanted to jump to conclusions. They can't admit to it because they want to be in the right 'all the time.' Of course they're going to constantly tease me or just make fun of me and I really could give no fucks anymore.

My new plans now:

Competitions - Worlds, JROS (maybe), Asians, (WSSA or ISSF) Europe, Malaysia Open, Australia (WSSA or cupstacks) and finally Iran. South America and Africa will have to be at a different time because it's going to be merely impossible to make it a reality. I might add in only 1 US tournament and that's going to be HOTlanta.

Videos - Roaring 20's projekt

hosting - 1 influencer tournament.

I think as long as I'm on track, I'll be set to finish everything within 4-5 years from now. It's almost my 14th year anniversary for stacking. I truly see myself finishing it all up around my 20th year of stacking. For my 20th year of stacking, I think that I'm going to really be done with competitive stacking and only focus on the projekts that matter a lot for me to really complete. Once everything is really done, I'll slowly start retiring a lot more than usual and just post the old footage series and then, post the last stacking video and then transition into making new content.

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Sailor Moon (1992-1997)

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I just

really

want to be happy in 2019

akeenerheart

I can’t stop laughing at this.

antideprincesss-deactivated2017

seoulcalstudios

Same

sadbaffoon

can ppl stop having babies? like goddamn, we’re running out of water stop being so selfish.

sadbaffoon

but like forreal. If you’re having children while the world is the way it is, you’re so unbelievably selfish. how about adopting the ones that already exist first, yeah? like shitttttttt do u want your kids to be thirsty?

mxxn-kitten-deactivated20180722

I’m adopting 4

cuntreal-deactivated20180603

I mean, I don’t think having babies necessarily makes somebody selfish. There are of course reasons that people have babies that can be selfish, for example, having a baby to as a last resort to stay in a relationship, having a baby because you have baby fever but are no where near prepared to have one, etc…

Adoption isn’t for everybody and that’s okay. It is freaking awesome that people adopt, don’t get me wrong. I’m adopted and come from a family of four kids and we are all adopted. My parents were unable to have children so they had a family in a different way that wasn’t biological.

I feel like, wanting a baby and having a baby for the wrong reasons can lead to selfish motives however that being said, just because the original reasons might not be the most healthy does not necessarily mean they will be an unfit parent. Of course there will be, there’s unfit parents everywhere.

The thing about adoption though, like having a child through the hospital, it’s expensive. It’s expensive and it can be stressful, the process is long, it can be spontaneous. There’s also a lot of rules depending on the country you adopt from. Example: my parents could not adopt from China because they already had one child when I was being adopted. Stuff can change in the middle. My family was supposed to adopt this boy from Viet-Nam when I was a kid. My parents had his Christmas presents all ready and everything, my dad had his plane ticket ready, but at the very last minute, a few days before my dad was going to leave, we got a call saying the boy’s grandmother decided to keep him in the end.

Adoption is a fantastic choice, however it’s not for everybody.

When my dad went to go get me, there was a lady who adopted this baby boy in the same orphanage. I’m pretty sure it was her husband who went to get him. When they landed, the lady had a toy for the baby, but the baby did not react in the way the lady wanted him to, so she literally told them to send him back. So they did. The baby had to go back to the orphanage.

A lot of people start families for so many different reasons. I won’t lie, when I start my family, I want to go through motherhood. I want to experience it. I don’t want to adopt. That might sound hypocritical of me because I was adopted and so were my siblings but I have reasons behind not wanting to adopt. Does it make me selfish? Maybe, does it make me a bad person? Absolutely not. There are other ways we can help.

I won’t lie, I often judge people who get pregnant when they are teenagers because the ones from where I live came from the lower class side of the area. Being grown in an upper class house with a lot of privilege makes it hard for me to understand why people do x and y. “Why won’t she just abort the fetus? Or put it up for adoption, so that a family that deserves a kid can have one?” I personally believe whatever choice is made will have a mental effect on somebody, whether it is good or bad.

I’m myself and I live in my own situation and my own story. I can’t ever truly relate to someone else, nobody can. We can have similar situations, go through same events, but our feelings and how we react will never be exact.

So because of this, I don’t think it makes someone selfish.

If you disagree with me, that is completely alright I will not get angry or disrespect you. Everyone is allowed to their own opinions.

TLDR; not adopting does not make you selfish.

sadbaffoon

You entirely missed the point of this post. It’s more about how having children while Donald trump is president and the fact that we’re running out of resources to actually live (food and water) is legitimately dumb. Having children while the world is literally deteriorating is the stupidest thing anyone could possibly do. If you want your child to have a hard time finding water and food to eat, if you want your child to possibly be discriminated or killed for their skin color or religion, or if you straight up just do not care about the future then go ahead. Have more kids ya dweeb. That’ll really do great things for the planet. Ya selfish.

cuntreal-deactivated20180603

I mean it did not mention Donald Trump anywhere in the post so how was I supposed to know? The way you phrased it made you sound quite arrogant. There was no mention of Donald Trump or the United States in your post what so ever.

Also, I don’t think I can take this seriously considering how immature you’re sounding. Our world has been scarce for the longest time, and there’s a lot of ways to help preserve resources and help the economy. If you’re just thinking about how the world is overpopulated now, then dear check out China, or other countries.

There are worse things than wanting to start a family. Again it does not make you selfish.

candygirl1997

this is like the most dumbest argument tbh. u do realise not every 1 lives in america, right ?… u do realise the maximum amount of time (if he doesnt get impeached first) dt can even be prezzy is 8 yrs? liike huh. have u ever been on a farm or any type of self sustaining compound bc there r literally millions of them all over the world. like idk what propaganda conspiracy theory youtube vids OP is watching but all the food in the world isn’t gna dissapear . science is literally improving by tenfolds everyday & new discoveries r being made 24/7. she DOES sound immature because she is and also misguided . what next r u gonna say . we should kill all ppl under the age of 25 + preg ppl bc there wont b resources for them anyway & its selfish to b alive 😂 !? like if u personally decide to never have kids … cool! but 2 say tht ppl who prefer to birth their own SELFISH is rude n extra af.

sadbaffoon

sorry to break it to you but the water crisis effects the whole world. without water, you know what that means, hunny buns? no food. if everyone takes a small step to conserve water (aka stop having children who need water) it will make a huge impact on the state of the world in the future! Water is a natural resource but only a small percentage is fresh! Fresh water is renewable but at a very slow rate. The Donald trump part was only @ America but you see, America impacts a good majority of the world! So having Donald trump as president does very much so effect everyone else. I’m not into conspiracies but I read a lot. I have sources as well. Enjoy at your leisure 💕

http://the-generation.net/water-the-currency-of-the-future/

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=122195532

sadbaffoon

Also if I might add, do you realize how much damage can be done in 8 years? Like lol. Come on.

candygirl1997

yes becoz the world will end after 8 yrs of a shit president like we havent had tons before. no offense but have u seen history ? i saw someone in the comments mention stuff like the great depression. holocaust. fricken japan got ATOMIC BOMBED. slavery which lasted 300+yrs. chernobyl fricken exploded & gave generations of ppl cancer / mutated genes. but ppl still continued having children . and also theres this magical thing known as a WATER FILTeR. there r filters tht literally make OCEAN water drinkable . so um ya idk abt u but ima have kids & continue drinking my 8 glasses a day & shower . have fun being stinky & dehydrated :-)

antideprincesss-deactivated2017

usually do not comment on posts like these bc everyone just argues and does not listen but- There is a colossal mistake in this post about how people having babies is going to affect our water supply and labelling 2017 pregnant women “selfish.” 1. Babies do not have water for the first 6 months - they have breast milk or formula. 2. You could argue that it is in baby food. 3. But , they have such a micro size portion of food for six months. 4. Anybody over the baby age range , ( which includes us all ) use / waste more water than a baby does in a week. 5. Big sized portions of drinks and food that are sold at stores and food services. We all invest in that daily- 6. Babies require a strict food and water diet until a certain age so they only use what they require to survive and be healthy. 7. On the other hand , the older generation uses water for many things we do not need - Make up, water for paint, junk food , goodies, ingredients for sweets and cakes. soda. ect. 8. We as the older generation waste more water within a month than around 5 babies could within their baby stage. 9. babies only have what they NEED. 10. Any born babies within 2017 will cause much less shortage of supplies than you, I and anybody else will. 11. In your profile picture , you’re wearing make up which requires water as a factor for making it. That is wasteful right there - not to mention , you invested in it which means youve payed for more of the product to be made again. 12. BASICALLY, new born babies are NOT going to harm our water supply barely. If we all cut down on shit we do NOT REQUIRE to LIVE then the natural cycle of human life reproducing will not affect us . 13. WE are more of a danger to our supplies and ourselves than BABIES WILL EVER BE.

📌fact.

seoulcalstudios

I'm actually adopted mxxn_kitten

Relationships

As a 20 year old, I never really got around to dating in person. Like going on dates and such. I never really had a “real” girlfriend. The reason why is because where I used to live, I always have gotten rejected. It was either because of my appearance, not their type, or others.

One girl has even lied to me about seeing another guy and my friend was upset about it because her friend decided to lie about it. It just hurts me because they never gave me a chance to prove myself.

I’ve decided to convert to online dating.. As a result, people really don’t like the idea of me online dating because I could get catfished over and over again, but with all of the relationships I’ve had online, were all real girls that I had feelings for and fell in love with.

It’s hard to see girls that I talk to most of the time that are dating such in a horrible position because their boyfriends are either idiots or abusive towards them. Girls always like the bad boys and they can handle the abuse and act like it’s nothing. They have to recognize that their really hurt and need help and support from others.

I’ve just been rejected for the possibly 20-25th time I believe? I’ve been rejected enough to where my heart itself couldn’t handle the sadness from rejection and is forever sad for eternity..

I know that people will be like, there’s plenty of fish in the sea and so forth. I know and it’s really obvious.

I’ve had crushes on girls for more than so many times. I either wait too long or just let it go because I wouldn’t want to ruin a friendship that I would have with a girl that I’m really close with. I wouldn’t want to ruin a close friendship =\ because if I say something wrong, they wouldn’t talk to me anymore, which sucks honestly..

I’m going to be really honest, I’ve always been too busy to be in a relationship. If I get into one, then I would slow down the content I make on YouTube.

My last relationship lasted a year, which is irreplaceable because I really loved her to death. She broke up with me because she didn’t want the depression go into me as well, which I completely understand entirely. It was also on Valentine’s Day, which was horrible timing and I just got more sad.

I’m just always sad most of the time. My only happiness is when I edit videos or I watch YouTubers. Like right now as I’m typing this, I’m heart broken and hearing nightcore of Kiss the Girl.

idk if I should give up or keep going. It’s hard because there’s possibilities, but at the same time, they’ll end up rejecting me no matter what.

Life isn’t always fair. It’s always fake or people will eat you alive. You have to find the right significant other to be safe.

I really wish they could give me a chance..

Highly doubt people will actually read this..

#relationship #struggles #rejection #hopes are lost #wish i had a chance

My major concern for the community on my side. 1/3

The fact that I make videos online on YouTube part time, there’s a lot to it from what I know personally on my side.

People always think that making content, especially the way that I make my own videos are easy pieces of cake. In reality, it’s much harder than you think really.

Knowing from the community, they mostly range from:

Cyberlink Power Director, iMovie, iMovie (iPhone), Sony Vegas, Windows and others.

Me on the other hand, I use Final Cut Pro X. I make my videos very complex and different from others. The only reason why is because some stackers tend to copy other stackers ideas and don’t credit them. It’s almost taking an idea for granted and never saying who you got the idea from in the first place.

Knowing from the past, there has been people who have taken my ideas in the first place. One specific person has asked if he could make the idea into his way and I told him “not” to do it. Even with the rejection, he did it anyways and I got really mad at him about it. We ended up talking on Instagram and he was acting so fake about this because he was really ignorant about what he said. He didn’t acknowledge that he took my idea that I’ve turned into a viral stacking sensation to the community because I’ve helped get a lot of notice to newer stackers that are really fast and consistent, but never got recognition from the other stackers. Back to the topic of this paragraph. So, mainly he decided to keep talking really ignorant about taking my ideas and never becoming original. Stackers always should be original with their content than copying others and taking others for granted.

One of those days..

It’s one of those times of the month or week where you really don’t want to do anything at all. All you really want to do is to kick back and relax. It’s always like that for me personally.

I’m always like that whenever it’s one of those types of days. It’s quite rare for me to be in this position, but it’s all good.

During one of those nights, I usually watch YouTube or end up watching anime online.

Luckily, I managed to record and edit and upload one video at least, which is good, but it’s a meh because it looks bad. One of the major problems I have is self-critiquing because I’m always saying my own videos are bad, but in reality it is. People always know that for a reason. There’s more than that for content I make, but that’s for a different post :p

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Logoless ordeal 2/2

Alright,

People are really making this very bad in some way. Back from Worlds 2017, it wasn’t so good. My only reason for saying is because people were having huge issues.

When I mean it, Josh Hainsel (Team USA member) said that he’s retiring only because of this reason. The logoless ordeal has put a huge impact on the big stackers out there. Like Zhewei Wu, Lawrence Maceren, and much more.

I’ve even talked to a friend of mine and she said that she herself would stop because of this reason. This also could give a chance for stackers that use snaptops a lot (*cough* sarina *cough*)

Anyways, on my side, this doesn’t effect me as much because... I’m going to be honest, I’ve forcefully taken off the logos before realizing how much time consuming it’ll take! Until this time, I really haven’t used foreign substances to wear off the logos.

Moving on, concerning with tournaments wise, within July 1, you are not allowed to use logoless cups anymore. Regardless if they’re worn in or naturally worn off.

My thoughts? I’m just going to deal with it and hopefully see where the bright side of life is honestly.

~seoulcalstudios

Logoless ordeal 1/2

Well, speed stacks or the wssa. I don't really care anymore. They made such a bad move imo. I'll explain later. I'm using my phone to type this :p

So, as in the stacking community, I might as well start posting updates about what the actual hey is going to happen and such. Just be advised that some of the stuff that I will say will be around PG-13 or so because it’s just the choices I want to do and there’s seriously no one that can stop me really :p

So that we’re clear.

Thank you :)

#sportstacking #speedstack #speedstacks

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