IMPOSTERS peeps to the front!!!
Hi guys! It’s been forever since I’ve used this account, mainly because I had plans to revamp this entire page to include my newer work. In saying that, if you’re subscribed to me on ao3 (my acc not fic) then you would have seen me post regularly on another fic called Just Strangers ( for the Stranger Things fandom!) I like multiple fandoms/media (I have a ton of drafted up fics for multiple fandoms I hope I can post in the near future fully completed on the backend of things) I have been having so much fun writing for that fandom and getting to expand my writing skills a bit more outside of the IMPOSTERS universe.
In saying that, I am NOT abandoning IMPOSTERS. I never will. As long as I am actively writing and have regular access to a computer— that fic is getting done goddamnit!
Now, with that out the way. I HAVE a chapter for IMPOSTERS. It was written up, completed, edited about halfway and at that halfway mark (about 4 months ago now) I ended up hating the end result of the chapter. It felt rushed. It didn’t feel like it was up to par to what I usually post and I just hated it. So after trying to edit and re-edit it, I decided to delete it. I’m a perfectionist— it’s been the core issue with myself for a long time (especially when it comes to my writing) & I take fucking forever to write. I literally fight with myself constantly cuz I just can’t write as quickly as other writers. & I’m self-taught so I’m constantly wondering if my writing is even readable to my own dyslexic ass lmao. Maybe this heavily has to do with the fact that I write at a larger word count to not sacrifice pacing, character development, word building, and DETAIL. Because those are the things I mostly enjoy putting my writing focus on.
In saying this, I paused on Imposters and shifted my focus to my other fic (which btw is fully planned out, 8 out of 11 chapters posted already so it’d be wrapped up soon!) I took that pause because I think I needed it. I was overthinking the Imposters ending so much I gave myself this paranoid idea that it’d suck and all of you guys will hate me (I know sounds pretty silly but can be a very real possibility lol)
I’m writing this not as an excuse as to why I’m not writing Imposters but more so as an update because I did go kind of MIA there on ao3 if you don’t follow any of my socials. Just coming on here to share my thoughts, especially cuz my last imposters note felt pretty cold (I was not in the greatest headspace & I convinced myself that I shouldn’t really vent my real life problems or overshare as much on the internet anymore lol) which I’m gonna stand by but I don’t necessarily need to be devoid of my entire personality from you guys. Some of you may or may not know this based on old imposter author notes and/or comments, but I have the worst anxiety/social anxiety. I am now managing it PROPERLY (I now go to therapy regularly) and now medicated (to a certain extent, I’m still testing what works for me) so I don’t have a dumb dark cloud over my head 24/7.
I have now drafted up a new chapter for IMPOSTERS! I took the time to read back my work, work through my notes again, fall in love with it again. I’ve had the ending in my head for so long that I just want to do it justice. Not only for me, but for you guys. Imposters started as a shit-post in the middle of a pandemic where I had the best/worst year of my life. Bare bone notes of what I wanted to write, my players and my imposter. All the detail and passion coming from a need for escapism which has been the core of my writing journey since I started as a kid. In some ways, Imposters became a sort of safety blanket for me. I didn’t want to see her go or the audience with it. But I have something cooking! Very smut, clue heavy, thriller content for our next chapter. You’d just have to be patient with me as always and trust that will be out soon enough 🖤
That’s all I came on here to say! I plan on revamping my ao3, socials and everything once JS is done or when I wrapped up Imposters (haven’t decided yet, I just know I’m gonna clean up everything again) I’m on twitter way more often these days (it dragged me back, unfortunately) I try to regularly post and interact more on there so if you want to interact with me or just get updates or sneak peeks— head on over to my twitter/x! (I do have plans for more media focused stuff, I’m kind of planning on exercising my film degree and doing something with it, maybe YouTube lol)
I worried that I’ll disappoint you guys that this isn’t an official chapter update but I figured since I can reach out to you guys more directly here, you can receive this little author’s note faster. You can comment but I will be deleting this post maybe (tomorrow?) just so it doesn’t ruin my chapter count on here. If you want to read this author’s note, just head onto my tumblr!
Thank you so much for sticking with me, supporting me, and all in all being such lovely readers to me. I’ve been seeing a lot of crazy fandom spaces and the new readership, it makes me unbelievably anxious. But also made me unbelievably grateful to have the kind of amazing patient readers I have, I’m fucking spoiled with you guys.
As always, I hope you guys are having a wonderful day/night. Happy reading! ❤️💙