Sera

Digital Diary. I want to stay annonymous, and will most likely get pretty personal here and there, who knows. My name is Sera, I'm 20 years old.

[seraphimrequiem]

Diary Entry #2 06/09/25

Hello again! I'm writing this while helping my brother with some summer homework. In the past few days, I've gotten obsessed with this game called Fear & Hunger: Termina, and with one of the characters, Marina. I'm broke af right now after paying some bills, so I can't buy it so I can play it ;(

Today, I was having a bit of self pity party moment, where I was, jealous? envious? Of those who are in relationships. Why can't I be in relationship? Why am I so unlovable? and all that kinda thing. The thing that made me calm down was making me have an epiphany, I was thinking like an incel redditer and that made me calm down super quick. I try not to boil myself down for being single and barely having a love life. It's kind of my own fault for not putting myself out there, but in nearly all of my relationships, I've been cheated on, which sucks. I mean, no one talks about it, but being cheated on is kind of a traumatic experience. In my case, it made me lose so much trust in anyone who ever tried to get with me into a relationship. I always take it as a joke if anyone had shown interest in me. I think I'm revolting to look at, even though a few people have called me pretty but I don't believe it. I mean, if I'm really that pretty, then why am I given up so easily on? I kind of gotten over it and I'm in peace with the idea I'll die alone, surrounded by cats eating my face. But I do crave to be loved by someone that isn't platonic, I want to be loved romantically and yes, I do envy those who are in a happy relationship. I wish I could be so loved someone would willingly stay around me. It's a nice thought, that maybe some day I'd get married. If I were to get married, id love to wear a soft, pastel pink wedding dress. I wanna feel pretty, beautiful even if I allow myself to feel like that.

Sorry about the rant, or whatever this was. Hopefully I'll have more happier entries, I'm still young, so hopefully it isn't too late for me to find someone that'll tolerate my unbarable presence that somehow makes a lot of past boyfriends cheat on me.

[seraphimrequiem]

Diary Entry #1 06/07/25

First day on writing on this blog. Honestly, this is mostly just for me to get some kind of therapy? I really don't know. I guess, I'll just start with some of my interests in case someone decides to read this, and wants to follow me, in case I, somehow, have a charming enough personality.

I just turned 20 years old, my name isn't actually Sera, much like I said in my description, I want keep myself anonymous, 'cause I don't want anyone that actually knows me to find this. My favorite color is actually pink, I love pink. I'm a writer, and hope to be a published author one day in the near future. I dropped out of college last year due to money issues but hope to go back this autumn, I want to be a kindergarten teacher. I love kids, though I don't want to be a mother, birth scares me. I'm bisexual, while not closeted, no everyone in my life knows I am bi. I really love any type of horror media, I've recently gotten into splatter punk, so far, I've only read "The Slob" by Aron Beauregard. I've mostly gotten into it due to me wanting to learn how to write gore. My favorite YouTuber right now is Papa Meat AKA Meatcanyon and of course, Wendigoon.

I have no idea for how long I'll be doing this, but probably for a while. Goodbye, whomever reads this, hopefully we'll meet again.