spiraling

all my posts are wanted by the spiral

[serwenyx]

since the last two days ive been staying up late and feeling suicidal every second of it, tonight im choosing to be responsible and to go to bed at 21:30 :33

[serwenyx]

i'm going to commit unspeakable acts towards my body and my psyche🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 god why am I like this 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣how could you allow my existence🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[serwenyx]

some months ago i saw someone on tiktok berating about youtube taking away an accessibility setting, only to find out that they were talking about the x3 speed setting being accessible only through youtube premium. to this day i still wonder what tf they were talking about. how is speeding up a video an accessibility setting??? doesn't it make it harder to understand??? are our attention spans THAT bad??? is x2 not enough anymore???

[serwenyx]

welcome to nightvale has the same vibes as huggbees

[serwenyx]

watching inside by bo burnham, when the credits came on along with "any day now" it took all my willpower not to start hysterically laughing

IT HASN'T STOPPED YET, CUT THE BULLSHIT

[serwenyx]

it's so weird having maladaptive daydreaming

like, what do you mean i have to take frequent breaks while consuming my favourite pieces of media or i won't be able to contain the characters threatening to get out by exploding my mind??

i'll never be able to take my struggles seriously frfr

[serwenyx]

chat how is it possible to feel like the smartest person ever AND the stupidest person ever at the same time

[serwenyx]

i should get a medal for surviving staying at my grandparent's house for the holidays with my cousins

[serwenyx]

nobody cares but one of my hobbies is honestly sexually harassing the minecraft horror mod entities. the knocker knows not to let me find him on my bed. the obsessed now runs from me, it doesnt even try to stalk me anymore, it knows id start chasing it. nothing_left needs to be aware of how lucky he is that I find him way too cute, and i cant, in good conscience, harass null in that way, but do believe i am bullying the shit out of him for those ass builds. circuit and r2 are absolutely getting brutally backshotted tho.

[serwenyx]

idk about you guys but i have a disorganized attachment to the voices in my head. i kinda like their ominous whispering sometimes. other times i want to bash their head in with a crowbar.

[serwenyx]

"if you think that you're strong enough, if you think you belong enough"

but it's about coming out to your friends

[serwenyx]

i hate those people on tiktok that say "shifting is just maladaptive daydreaming"

NO IT IS NOT.

can we please stop using words we don't even know the meaning of??? please???

the implication is that maladaptive daydreaming is a type of psychosis (which is not btw)

do they just imagine people go like:

"fuck life is hard and i am bored...."

*forces myself into a psychosis*

"yay!! i am totally so not aware that this is just a figment of my own imagination!!"

"oh damn time's up I've gotta study"

*forces myself out of a psychosis*

[serwenyx]

rip anaxagoras you would've loved little alchemy

[serwenyx]

I think jonathan sims and arthur lester meeting would probably be like: arthur asks john🟡 what the fuck is going on and jon👁 is really confused as to how he knows his name

[serwenyx]

arthur: john what's going on? john: I- jon: who the fuck are you and how do you know my name arthur: I actually wasn't talking to you jon: oh arthur: I was talking to the voice inside my head john: OARTHUR- jon: I should've known honestly, people only call me the archivist these days

[serwenyx]

you ever wonder if you're aroace because you simply are or if it's just a weak excuse to explain your awareness of the fact that you are unlovable and unlikable and unable to keep a relationship going?

oh i guess it's just a me thing then

[depsidase]

[serwenyx]

hates gay people!

*crowd boos*

[serwenyx]

"I can't get over how clever his name is. You'd think his name would be Dr. Hospital, but they call him Dr. House because the hospital is like a home to him"