[ryoga-deactivated20231223]

[gholdic]

[sexxanddaisiess]

[sexxanddaisiess]

4.22.19

when did i get so big? it feels like i’m always trying to lose this weight but it’s a never ending fucking battle that i can’t seem to win. i’m tired of hating what i see in the mirror.

and yes, i know there’s more to me than my body and i do value myself in other ways. but that doesn’t take away from this constant struggle with body image. it sucks and it’s hard.

hopefully these next couple months i’ll finally get my weight under control (although i say that every fucking month.)

[sexxanddaisiess]

8.26.21

I wish I had better news…I’ve gained more weight. BUT I’m having a good week. And the moon is full and so many dreams have come & are coming true and maybe, just maybe, if I keep working on my shit… this turning point I’m in. This crack, or riff, or shatter …. will let me rebuild. And lose the bad. And love the good. And I don’t know what that means today but I know I will learn to love myself even if it hurts to learn. That’s okay.

Im ready. And It’s this different now, because I’m finally working on myself before my body. And mj hope is that the physical and mental health improve given their Intricate relationship.

A balance. I am learning. I will continue learning. And then loving.

Today, I am grateful. Today I am hurting and maybe that’s… okay.

[sexxanddaisiess]

11.13.22

Im finally at a better weight. Gained a couple over the lady couple weeks but have loads almost 30 lbs since these posts.

Im not perfect. I’m not better. But I’m stronger. I don’t feel how I felt writing these. I’m healing. And that feels like something to celebrate.

[sexxanddaisiess]

[prompt] This is what my center feels like:

I….

Don’t know.

I mean.

I guess…

Center is stillness.

No.

Calm.

Perhaps,

I think…

My center finds itself where sky meets earth - horizon

In the sound of waves caressing rocks. Softly.

And not. Crashing wildly - as they should.

The way water turns to wave, to foam on sand.

Where shorelines emerge.

I stand tall.

And,

Finally,

Live.

[confessionalists]

under no circumstances, kiera. k

[unreadable]

[remanence-of-love]

[weltenwellen]

Mary Oliver, from “Upstream”, Blue Iris

[stability]

[surra-de-bunda]

Phyllis Hyman (1978).

[junk-drop]

[jojordan-art-deactivated2025120]

[adoringlana]

[replanting]

[perrfectly]

[aevie]

mood tbh