She Deserves Better
It’s hard to describe the precise feeling of inadequacy when I cum inside of my wife so quickly. The combination of knowing that stamina is a major contributor to the quality of sexual pleasure that she receives, and knowing that my cuckold fantasy is the primary reason that I cum so quickly, both cause me to feel extremely sexually inadequate at the exact moment the I am cumming inside of my wife so quickly after I first enter her.
My fantasy of her being fucked by another man better than I can fuck her has caused me to actually become less able to fuck her as good as I used to. Therefore, most any another man can easily fuck her better than me now. My cuckold fantasy has caused it to become a reality.
At the moment while I am at the height of my sexual pleasure, cumming inside of her, I am also humiliated at the fact that I can no longer fuck my wife the way that she deserves to be fucked.
I can see her frustration in those moments. Her body is craving to be fucked long, hard, and deep. She wants to fuck me like that, and she wants me to fuck her like that. We both know in that moment that I cannot. She is sexually frustrated.
In that moment, I begin to accept that she deserves to be sexually satisfied by another man who can fuck her better than I can. She now needs to cuckold me for her benefit. It wouldn’t be fair to her for me to deny her the long, hard, and deep fucking that her body craves.
It’s not my choice anymore to be a cuckold. I let that fact sink in those moments. I may have approached my wife years ago about this fantasy, and wanted it so bad, but I usually felt as if I could control it and stop it if I wanted. But this is different now, and I must face the reality that I am not able to properly fuck my wife when I so often cum too quickly. I am now obligated to be a cuckold.
So when I am laying next to her in the minutes afterwards, I try to accept the inadequacy, and turn it into sexual arousal. I picture another man fucking her long, hard, and deep. She cums hard several times during the 15 or 30 minutes. I picture myself saying to him, “Thank you for fucking my wife the way that she deserves.” That’s what cuckolds do.
I slip out of my cuckold thoughts into reality for a moment and mourn the loss of my sexual “mojo’. I had it once, and I could rock her world in bed. However, I lost it because I cum too quickly now.
It’s another reminder that once the genie is out of the bottle, you can never put it back.
