shade

yo gregori

[marina-i-guess-deactivated20251]

Maybe it's the religious trauma, but I genuinely believe in good and bad karma. I think if you do bad, then bad will come back to bite you. Maybe I deserve my life circumstances because of my mistakes, my wrongdoings, the pain I've caused others. Every little thing feels like a sin and I'm paying for it.

[angelvalley818-deactivated20251]

[alixandra-multifandom-version]

Writing fanfiction isn't enough anymore I need that character to kiss me breathless

[charl0ttan]

this is like the only time its appropriate to call eyes orbs. those thangs are quite honestly ponderable

[shadetpf]

the rainy weather is perfect for homework

[queer-as-city-folk]

I want Richard Nixon's head on a pike

[shibology]

general dating hcs - elysia (hi3) x male!reader

• she leaves you for a woman

[wedarkacademia]

[shadetpf]

i think one of the saddest parts of grief is how time robs you of indulging in it

each april, i think of that day and i try to allow myself to feel that grief, but yet i cannot grieve fully because of the people i love, the life i live, and the expectations i face now

the people who knew at the time of what happened are gone; life has taken us in different directions

now, i have no one close to me who understands what that day did to me

my family hardly remembers, the best friends i had back then have moved on, and i have a boyfriend who didn't even know me when it happened

so what am i to do? how do i explain this void in my heart that only comes around once a year during the month of april? how do i explain this inexplicable urge to curl into a ball, brought on only by the weight of my memories?

i have two events scheduled the day of. i won't even have time to waste being upset, mourning what happened to me that day. i will go out and do my social duties, conversing with my friends and peers, only to return home and regret not letting myself mourn.

it'll be 7 years. 7 years of regret. every year, april 30th comes around and i feel the weight of emptiness that day left in me. yet, i am the only one privy to it's significance. no one else understands; there is no way for me to tell anyone the truth. i don't want their pity and i don't want their concern.

i went through that day alone. i laid on my bedroom floor, weeping for what i gave up. but now i cannot do the same. time has robbed me of that chance; it has robbed me of the grief i was once allowed.

this month will be rough. 7 years is a long time to grieve. i am different than i was then, for better and for worse.

[museify]

[actually-mentally-ill]

finding out making up whole detailed scenarios with fictional characters in your head is a “sign of mental illness”

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— nn. (via eternaldroplets)

[shadetpf]

Life as I know it is changing, but unlike before, I find myself happy to see change.

I am trying to live a healthier life and it is starting to manifest as I had hoped. Here's to a great year, hopefully!

[moonlight-dove]

David Benioff, Troy

// Adapted from Homer, The Iliad

[classycookiexo]

[shadetpf]

sometimes i wish i could feel.

at the end of the day, i feel nothing

being drunk only enhances it.

[shadetpf]

life has been so kind to me lately

Did really well on my 2nd human physiology exam!!! I'm really proud of myself cause I went in really tired and not having studied much the night before, but I think studying throughout the weeks beforehand helped a lot!!

Had another night of drinking with my friends and I felt so happy and at peace with the fact that my friends and I are living our lives the way we should 🙂

Haven't done much school work recently besides the bare minimum, but it still feels okay since I am keeping on top of it all and not falling too far behind

I applied to Pharmacy school!!! Still waiting to hear back, but I am not too worried since I have a guaranteed interview because of my program I am in. The actual interview is gonna be the hard part 🫠🫠 Hoping it goes well, but my program directors say I will do fine!!