second life

Thank you. (/he draws your hand to his mouth, kissing it and looking at you, his eyes welling up.) Don’t you laugh at me for crying. (/he ducks his head down, wiping his face on your chest, laughing and crying at the same time.) No take backs now. You’ve said it twice, that makes it official, right?

{`He can't help but laugh anyway, though it turns into a cough that he's quick to stifle and stop. He sniffles a bit and kisses the top of your head, nodding.} Yes, it's official, you big cry baby. Now sleep. You need to get your rest if you're going to get better.

(/there’s clearly something wrong with his hearing and he frowns, eyes dropping as he stares at your shirt. he could swear he heard you respond with the word love and he feels his mouth open, then close, open and close again.) Did… you? (/he clears his throat and just sits there, holding on to you and tilting his head back to kiss you quickly.) Don’t say it if you’re not ready, I can wait.

{`He shakes his head and cups your cheek softly, smiling softly.} I've had a lot of time to think about it. And to think about who I loved before. And there's really no point in holding on to someone who's dead anyway. Because it holds me back from you. {`His removes his hand to grab yours and intertwine their fingers.} I love you. And I mean it.

Babe, the only way you’re gonna hurt me is if you leave again. (/nuzzles closer, adjusting himself and bringing his hands in, pressing them to your chest.) I am sure you’re tired of hearing this from me and, really I don’t want you to freak out or leave, but Baekhyun. (/takes a breath, his voice dropping.) I love you and I want you to stay for a long time.

{`It's been a while since he's slept, and he's learned an awful lot about himself, things he's wanted to share with you and things that have taken days of writing down to help process. And it almost strains him to say it because he's not used to it, but something inside begs him to respond. Pressing a kiss to your forehead before dipping his head to look you in the eyes, he whispers,} I love you, too.

I hate you too.(/he stares down at the kittens, noting how comfortable they look before turned to press his face against your chest.) I hate you so much, I don’t even know how I stand it. (/he yawns, working his hand up your arm, gliding it up and over to the side of your neck, looking up at you and smiling softly.) Sometimes I wanna punch you in the face and then kiss away the pain.

{`He hums and nods, bringing a hand up to your hair to brush his fingers through it softly.} Well thanks for not punching me because I wouldn't have it in me to fight back, you know. {`His smile fades a bit as he pulls you closer.} I don't want to hurt you.

(/rolls over, slipping his arm underneath yours and rubbing your chest.) Baekhyun, don’t be mad. I’m sorry. Please don’t be mad with me? My head hurts so much and …. hold me.

{`He only huffs and doesn't say anything but eventually he rests his hand on your arm and turns back, and all the tossing finally wakes the cats who decide to sniff and purr at their owners. Pushing them over so they'll lay down, he scoots towards you again and holds you like you ask.} I hate you. {`The words aren't genuine of course, and he can't help but smile softly at how much of a lie it is.}