quite literally a shadow

shadow • he/him • aroallo

[shadowsatsunset]

bought a pack of cigs for the first time in years and i feel Myself

[homochampagne]

taste of chaos 2005 dvd - bert ft. danny payne, zui suicide & quinn

[shadowsatsunset]

i’m in a dark space today

[pup-purgatory]

[shadowsatsunset]

i’m definitely a different person than the host. it was theorized that i was just the Crazy 🤪 side of him back in the day but it’s clear i was a product of my time in our life. im still here. i’m a little different. we’re in a more stable place now and i don’t feel the need to be Evil TM or hurt our body. not that id even be allowed to. too many ‘responsibilities’. it’s whatever. i don’t need to do that rn. getting tattoos is more fun anyways

i have a more restrictive music taste than host and the other parts. a circle mostly within a circle on a venn diagram. i think in words a little more than the others. i feel the need to write with my hands but also to Post TM. i feel i/we have a good filter for what to put where at this point. when i gave negative fucks about everything it was easy to just wildly overshare online and then torture us with others’ responses. now i just give zero fucks. some here and there about our dogs and partner and family but that’s kind of it. i’m irritable and anxious and easily overwhelmed. we can mask well enough at work but even in class sometimes i struggle to hide my feelings. i’m a little bit puerile. probably because im literally the shadow of our 14-18 y/o self. i kinda topped off at 18 and disappeared a little. it’s kinda what i do best.

im kind of just defined by being depressed but i also enjoy art and music. im actually a little bit of an introject of natewantstobattle (specifically "natemare" because every youtuber Needed a dark alter ego in 2015-16 ig) and i really enjoy his work among others. some faves are secrets / myka, relocate / motionless in white / dangerkids / the used / a day to remember / bring me the horizon / machine head / falling in reverse unfortunately / cardinal / the funeral portrait

anyway. i wanted to distinguish myself more. maybe ill try to. its comfortable for me to live in the bckground of my own life. i dont like being an active participant. i never expect us to be around long when im here. not even in an actively suicidal way anymore. just a living through globalized white supremacy way. and i dont have much motivation for that or other change but i guess ill stick around so the others can do fun stuff. they tend to feel like it. i cannot relate

[dogheadeds4int]

[roadkill-pup]

[szc-unknown]