The Brightest Things Fade The Fastest

Michelle. 24. I believe that there is always more than meets the eye. Question everything, and never settle for less than what makes you happy.

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I almost forgot this thing existed.

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So, I did DMT for the first time over the weekend. It blew my mind even more than I expected. I wish I could explain my trip, but I feel like the things I experienced are beyond words. It starts so fast, and everything goes so quickly. But I feel like I've unlocked something in my brain, and I'm curious to see what happens if I do it again. The most significant part of my trip was that I saw my whole existence, all at once. I could see my past, present, every dream I've ever had, as well as a multitude of paths that my future could take. It was so much to take in, than its hard to grasp any one little thing. But it has somehow given me a sense of calmness. This is by far the craziest drug I've ever encountered. It's amazing that the human brain is capable of experiencing something like this. It really feels like I was in a completely different dimension.

[uneventfulness]

[looopism]

[hexeosis]

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I'm freaking out a little right now. This might really be happening. I'm so excited and so scared. But everything feels right.

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I know that these feelings are going to pass. I know that I'm going to wake up and it's going to be a new day. But I haven't felt this low in a really long time.

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I wish that people could understand what it means for me to trust after my trust has been broken. Trust is extremely important to me. When it comes to most people, you're gone once I learn I can't trust you. The INFJ door slam is real, and I won't hesitate to door slam someone. There are very few people in my life that I have let back in once they've broken my trust. These people are extremely important to me. What is difficult is making them see what this means for me. Don't get me wrong, some of them get it, but some of them don't. To me, my trust is like an incredibly rare diamond (not to say that I think highly of myself, but trust is essential to any of my relationships), if you're lucky enough to lose it and get it back... You better damn well value you what you have. Otherwise, I'll be gone. Building the trust back is a process. I'm always going to be a little skeptical. I'm a highly analytical person. I also have a lot of confidence in my instincts. They rarely fail me, so I trust them 99.9% of the time. I try my very hardest to not jump to conclusions, but if I'm getting all kinds of red flags.... I'm probably going to need you to explain yourself. I'm struggling a lot with this right now. I don't know how to convey that it's not that I don't trust you, it's my fear of being hurt again. I don't think that makes any sense though. I just wish someone could help me explain this, because I don't do a very good job of that.

[zoombeani]

Rainbow Starfish Pulse

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[puppunkprincess]

Hiked to the top of a small mountain and there was a register book on top, found this in there.

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I don't know where else to get these feelings out... So here goes. My heart is heavy today. I woke up to the news of the mass shooting in Orlando, and it's all I've been able to focus on since. All of those innocent people went out to have a good time last night. They could have never expected something like this to happen. No one should have to expect something like this to happen. I don't know if this attack was targeted at a specific community, but no one - regardless of race, sexual orientation, gender, religion, etc. - should have to feel unsafe because of who they are. My heart is aching because of all of the hate in this world. It makes me feel like it's something that I don't want to be part of. It's one of the reasons why I don't know if I'll ever have children. There's so much senseless hate. My heart goes out to everyone affected by this tragedy. I'm so thankful that all of my friends in Orlando are safe. It's such a shame that we wake up to this kind of news so regularly. One day I hope that people learn to love other people unconditionally. That's a big dream, but we are all human and we are all deserving of life.

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I'm trying to not freak out right now. It's not working. 😳

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My dreams keep getting more and more fucked up. Last night I dreamt about some weird competition, and then about being friends with some girl who turned out to be a demon/sea creature. Can I just go back to the dreams about being bff's with 3lau?

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So, today I have to go take an exam that could potentially change my future. I'm fucking terrified. I haven't really told anyone about it, because I'm afraid of failing. But all that I really want right now is some encouragement. 😕

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