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[shaneseplease]

Pain is nothing

Fear is something I think

Love is as well

I’ve spent time dealing with these three emotions understanding which came first the fear of losing you the realization of falling in love or the pain of seeing you happy with someone else

I sound so childish I wish I could sound more mature with my words I wish I could stop being childish

[quotefeeling]

“One of the best feelings is finding someone who really gets you. A person who lets you be vulnerable and honest. The kind of person who encourages you to push past your flaws because they accept you as you are. Someone who never tells you that you’re too much of this and too little of that. Because to them you’re just enough of everything they love.”

— Sylvester McNutt

[thoughtkick]

“The soul always knows what to do to heal itself, the challenge is to silence the mind.”

— Unknown

[ritikajyala]

He asked me when I fell in love with him and I knew it sounded dramatic to say the moment I saw him, so I told him this story of my grandma who had Alzheimer's- she forgot her name and the words for fruit and food, she forgot her address and how to use the washroom, all her life lost to the disease. The only thing she remembered was her son's name and when that began to fade, the one thing she always remembered was that she loved him, even in illness, even in insanity. She saw this 6 foot 2 man with a scrubby beard and she didn't know him but she said she trusted him, she asked him to hold her hand when she died. When does memory end and love begin? All I know is- she loved him before she remembered him.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

[shaneseplease]

So I'm sitting here with lotus flowers because he suggested I get lotus flowers I'm here with them now they're artificial because- did you know lotus flowers are seasonal? So not a single flower shop in Saskatoon has lotus flowers. I had to order them online and it took I think 3 weeks to get delivered to my house. We're not talking really anymore but here they are beside me in my hands. Lotus flowers. I don't even like lotus flowers. But I got them because if he was here he would get me lotus flowers and I'd smile and pretend to like them I'd take them home put them in a vase... and eventually I'd like lotus flowers because he got them for me. But here i am holding lotus flowers that I ordered myself and we're not even talking anymore. These flowers don't need water too they're artificial. I got myself artificial flowers that were suggested by someone who I am no longer close to. If he was a complete stranger it would be wholesome. But he's not. And anyone who calls them fake flowers is getting throat punched