I’m craving everything I cannot have. I want to look at the white lines as I cut them up, to taste the drip in the back of my throat. I want to watch the blood pour into my syringe as I hit the vein, I want to feel the heroin coursing through my veins. I want to watch the blood drip down off my my stinging hips as I slice them open. I want to purge so hard that it feels as if I purged all my sadness away. I wanna throw back shot after shot of alcohol until my words are slurred and I can’t walk straight. I want to be ina daze where I’m numb to everything.
How do I make it stop
















