sharlotta

[sharlottakozolv]

She knew Valentine’s day would get crazy, but nothing could’ve really prepared her for the kind of crazy it actually got. She’d gotten so many orders to the point where she’d asked Arliss, one of her helpers to stay behind and just help out a bit so that they could have a chance at finishing up. And out of anyone she could’ve asked, her gut always went with Arliss.. They just got a long really well, like their personalities just mixed well to the point where she just enjoyed having him around for conversation.. And tonight was no different.. But as it got to pushing 9 pm they finally where all done. The shorter female glanced over at the tall blonde,“We did it! We’re all done with the orders for today, and all the things we had for tomorrow!” she let out in excitement, smiling wide as she did.

@musicianarliss

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it had been a roller coaster of a few days.. ever since learning that their very very last night together would result in an accidental pregnancy.. and the thing that excited her the least was telling alek about it.. but she knew she had to as soon as she found out.. as he’d be more upset if she’d kept it from him.. so after leaving the doctor, and after she’d had time to collect her thoughts, she got to buy a baby onesie to tell alek about it all with.. and after she’d asked him to come over, she got to placing it in a tiny box, kinda just at the same time as she heard her front door opening, and the familiar sound of alek’s heavy foot steps. “aleksei?!” she called out, grabbing the box, nad holding it behind her back as she walked to find him. @hustleraleksei​

[sharlottakozolv]

spencekozolv​:

He looked over at her for a moment giving her a soft smile, it was just a lot to  deal with what they had been through.  He got dressed and picked up what clothes he had, it was better if he took them with him now.  “She will I had get few extras for her” he knew what both of them liked so got few of them each.   He nodded as he walked over towards her putting his hand on the side of her face softly. “You are… amazing…  I hope you find someone as great as you someday” he did mean it. He looked at his phone, it was time for him to leave. He moved his hand. “Tell Ellie i miss her and that I hope she is feeling better”  he said as he grabbed what he brought and his clothes. “You know text me or call if you need me any time…” he said walking towards the bedroom door he looked back at her before taking a breath  and walking away. It was hard, but for the best for them both.

she got an ever so slight knot in her stomach as he grabbed all his clothes, even the ones that had been laying there for the past year..  but she knew it was about time it happened. clear everything out, clean clean slate.. watching him come over to her side, and placing his hand against her face, just listening to what he said she moved her head over just a little, kissed the palm of his hand before looking back up at him.. “I hope you do too spencer.. you deserve an amazing man too, that can give you exactly what you want.. and i will tell her as soon as she wakes up.” she assured him as he gathered up everything for real, heading for the bedroom door before turning to her.. “i will i promise..” she assured him again before their eyes met one last time as he left her bedroom, and their apartment..

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spencekozolv​:

It sucked he didn’t want to leave her like this. But if he slept on the couch or just slept in the bed with her, he would have left early still. He knew she was at the age, she was smart she get idea that if her parents were both there it did mean something.  “I don’t like leaving you like this…” he said as he got up and started to get dressed again. “I got you enough soup and some cookies… and pastries for a few days”  since they went to bed right after eating pretty much.  “I..I know we shouldn't’ of but I think it was good for us…”  it was a way to show their love a last time and let that all go, they had too without all the drama and pain around it normally. 

sucking her bottom lip she shook her head, “i’ll be okay Милый мой ..” she said, her shoulders felt so much more lighter than they had been before they’d fallen asleep, her hand hit the mattress as she let him get up to get dressed again. sharlotta sat up, bringing the duvet up to her chest simply to cover herself up a little while she watched him, hearing him say there should’ve been plenty of both soup, cookies and even pastries to last them a little while.. “thank you.. i think we both know someone that is gonna love that even more than me.” she said, smiling gently. running her fingers through her hair. “you’re right though.. i think it was very much needed..”

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spencekozolv​:

He looked at her with a smile as he pushed some hair from her face. “I should…” he looked at his phone.  He thought a moment. “I dont want to confuse Ellie…” by being there when she woke up. “But I really dont want to rush out on you” he said he didn’t want her to feel like she was used or something. But their last time was good, he was happy with it and his time with her. But Ellie would be up soon and he didn’t know what she would do if he was still there.

sharlotta watched him, smiling softly back as he pushed her hair away from her face.. letting her know he probably should leave before ellie woke up and found out he was still there, and she’d think they were getting back together, or he’d moved back in or something that wasn’t true.. reaching up she touched his face, moving slightly closer against him “no you’re right.. it wouldn’t be fair to get her hopes up like that..”

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spencekozolv​:

It had been so long since they let each other touch each other, to love each other they had longing a need, he wanted it still even if it was from someone he didn’t love anymore.  Bodies were natural things they craved and wanted the feeling that sex and love gave you.  He caved in, he knew she wanted it, she needed and he wanted to let her go too and his way of doing it . 

fade till later

That shouldn’t of happened he knew it, but it did and it wasn’t the worst thing. They both were emotional and had feelings that were bottled up for so long, they had to let nature happen. He sat up after they slept for a while and looked over at her and smiled, he always care for her.  

the whole affair’ had worn her out¨, and after the both of them had finished , they’d laid there for a few moments cuddling before falling asleep. she felt safe, secure and happy just in the moment as she slept. how his skin felt against hers.. it was a perfect last one.. many hours later, she felt movement which made her open her eyes, gently rubbing them as she looked over her shoulder to see spencer smiling down at her.

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spencekozolv​:

Ellie was the best thing that came from them and he knew it. But they still did have their own love from one to the other, that no one else would know.   He didn’t know why he kissed her, he shouldn’t of. he hadn’t in long time months before they separated…  he kissed her deeply as he laid her down and was on top of her kissing her he couldn’t helps himself, he had let her love go. 

her heart was beating hard inside her chest, not helping the reaction her body had. she hadn’t kissed or felt anyone  in a year and a half--  or more.. and well she felt the same thing anyone else would, if they hadn’t had sex or been touched in year, so her body reacted as such. her body was needy and hungry for more. her tongue slipped into the kiss, it moving past his a small hum slipping past her lips, set on going all in, and enjoying every bit of this for as long as it did, knowing this would be the very last

[sharlottakozolv]

spencekozolv​:

There was a guilt he always have over him for what he did to her. That he lost track of his life and she was the one that really took all the damage from it.   He looked over at her for a moment pausing at her touch, it was always so soft and loving.  “I don’t know what we were made to be…’ maybe just Ellies parents.  He looked a her in her  eyes, he still cared he couldn’t help himself.  He just was lost in the moment of them, they never really talked and got to let go of what they had before for years. He learned into her kissing her softly. 

perhaps he was right, maybe they were just meant to be someone’s parents. cause it was one thing they did well.. one thing that in of itself didn’t cause any drama.. shar felt herself get lost in him for a moment, and before she even managed to register what was happening, she felt the old, familiar taste of his lips against her own.. one that deep deep down was missed.. she moved her other hand up to hold the other side of his face while kissing him back

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spencekozolv​:

It was strange to be back in the bathroom like this and changing. From something that he spent severy day in to not going in at all. He didn’t before change behind a bathroom door, but now he had too. It wasn’t right for him to change in front of her anymore.  He sighed as he looked at himself his clothes did smell like her after being around only her clothes now. “No it’s really yours but you are letting me share it” he said he normally wasn’t one for pjs like he had on he wore less, but he wanted to be proper around her.  He shouldn’t be doing this, he knew it. This wasn’t normal all for ex’s to do even if they had kids. He sat down by her and looked at her. “I want the best for you… you know that right a good guy who wont hurt you like I did” he saw it in her eyes, the hurt he gave her. “I wish i could have made it work” he did but his true feelings just couldn’t stay back and hidden anymore. “I just think…..” he looked at the wall that used to hold their wedding photo. “You were always the only women for me….  I just couldn’t make it work anymore” he did try for a while before he started to go around on her, unable to control himself. 

sharlotta’s hues lingered on him before he sat down besides her, once again apologizing for the cheating.. and the medication..  thought the very last part about wishing he could’ve made them work. lifting her hand, she gently reached for his hair, pushing it off and away his face a bit, before coming to hold his face a little instead.. brushing his cheek with her thumb. “maybe we just.. weren’t that kind of soulmates..” she said quietly while her hand lingered.

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spencekozolv​:

Spencer looked at her and nodded about the bed.  It was just him sleeping a couple hours it was going to be fine.  He did want to always ask to do anything now since it was her home. He didn’t have much in the home that was his a few things did remain for when he was over. So he knew too his clothes wouldn’t smell much like him anymore  He grabbed the clothes and looked at her as he passed her by and went into the bathroom to change. He did that leaving his clothes folded on the counter and quickly used some mouth wash to get by for right now. He came back out to  the door stopped near the foot of the bed “Are you sure I am fine with the couch, he really didn’t want to over step with her. 

with the nod towards the bed she got it, gently she smiled gently biting her bottom lip a little as he disappeared into the bathroom. giving her a moment to undo her robe, hanging it where it always had. no longer hiding the seamless bralette and pj shorts that hit just at her upper thigh, just enough to cover her ass and then a little bit more... it was weird really in a good way seeing him in his clothes that had laid here for so long, though she knew they no longer did smell of him, part of her brain still could smell his cologne on things. hence why she still had his clothes, and she was sure when he left in the morning he’d take his clothes with him too.. then the bathroom door opened, and he stepped out, coming towards her on the edge of the bed. blue hues looked up at him, and nodded. “I’m sure spence-- bed’s all your..” she said, while her fingers tangled themselves in with his and gave them a ever so slight  squeeze 

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spencekozolv​:

He looked at her for a moment and too away at the walls that had photos of the family, but mostly was Ellie all over the walls.  “It’s just sleeping for a little bit” he said he could stay away keep on top of the blanket anything that made her feel better and okay. He smiled at her for a moment “I’ll go and look?” he said he went into the master bedroom it had drawers in it and he went down to a bottom one,  and found them pj pants and old shirt and and a change of clothes. “They are still here…” he said as he got up. “I’ll go change?” he said as he moved to go into the bathroom. It was like stepping around glass right now, but he knew he didn’t feel like he should be alone tonight.

sharlotta looked at him for a moment as he said something back.. “so no couch..?” she asked carefully, not wanting to assume something and have it be wrong. And as he said he’d go look she  nodded, “of course- you know where to go.” she said and smiled back ever so slightly, knowing fully well the second he’d put his clothes on, they’d all smell more like her than him. but she let him walk off into their master bedroom where she eventually followed behind him. sitting down on the edge of the bed, watching him from behind as he dug through the dresser where he eventually found something and let her know he’d get changed.. Gently nodding she let him go into the attached bathroom to get changed into something else

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spencekozolv​:

He did this before Ellie would fall a sleep on the couch or sometimes the floor after a day of playing or watching a movie. He carry her to bed and she get all tucked in. It was cute and she was getting to be past that age that they could do that with how big she was getting. But he got her all tucked into bed and out in the hallway by Sharlotta. “I am sorry….” he said he be here for Ellie more but really both of them but that wasn’t good for them.  He looked at the couch and back at her. He had slept on the couch before with normal fights before they got divorced like any couple did do.  “I shouldn’t … and it’s your bed now  Sharlotta “ he said he hadn’t been it in over a year now closer two really.  He thought a moment “i think I left some clothes in closet..?” he said something for him to sleep in and change in, just in case he kept one of each here. The couch did suck but really it wouldn’t be good for them they still were so close He  looked at her for a moment, she still beautiful to him and he just got lost looking at her.

At the reminder, she looked down at her feet for a moment.. “I know it is-- i just.. I figured it wouldn’t really matter though, right? it’s not like anyone would happen..” she said a bit nervous, tucking her hair behind her ear. before he brought up the clothes in their closet.. some that he had  forgotten, and that she found herself sleeping in more than she planned on admitting.. “oh-- yeah.. there might be some stuff in there somewhere..” she muttered shifting which foot she leaned on.

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spencekozolv​:

It was another time, he was told one thing over and over when he was younger. That a man and women got married, and had family and that was it. For a while he did think what he felt for her was the normal and he loved her. But not the right type of love and it started to get to him after time. But he could always relax with her and feel better with their touch. “and she needs good nights sleep”   He slowly moved his hand away from her and got up and went and picked her up. He slowly carried her to her room and laid her down tucking her in. He missed being able to do this each night, now he really only got it a few times a month. “Love you baby girl…?” he said giving her a kiss on the forehead and moved so Shar could do the same and walked out of her room. “I miss her….” he couldn’t help it, the courts made the rules for a reasons from his actions.  He moved back towards the living room “ugh can… I stay? I mean on the couch just it’s late and I dont feel like I should go home” he was tired and wasn’t in a good head space.

she nodded, “she really does..” she agreed, and gently loosened her grip on him and while spencer got up from his seat she followed. allowing him to go pick up ellie, sharlotta would adjust her robe a bit as it had started slipping open, and showed a bit more than maybe was appropriate? but she followed closely behind him as he carried the little girl into her room.. sharlotta kept to the back, allowing spencer to place her down, and kiss her good night. and as he moved, she followed behind, placing a soft kiss to the girls forehead, and telling her goodnight, before the two of them walked out, gently closing the door behind them. shar looked up at him, “.. we miss you too..” she said quietly after him. taking another deep breath she returned to the living room, where she stopped as she heard what he asked.. “Oh- oh of course yeah.. I mean.. You can stay in our bed too if you’d prefer not being on the couch..? i’d hate for it to like.. ruin your back and stuff..” 

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spencekozolv​:

He let out a breath, there was a reason why they got along so well and  were a couple for so long too. They were alike in a few ways and just had a bit in common.  He shook his head as she touched him, he missed that from her really.  “It’s fine he will always be that way, he’s always been a bit rough…but he does it since he cares about you…” even know it was a bit over the top about it. He rubbed her hand lightly and looked over at Ellie. “Should I put her to bed?” he asked since she was passed out now,  and needed a good sleep.

when they first met, and eventually began dating, she really thought she’d met the one she where to spend all of her life with.. and she supposed in a way she still was, just in a different way.. and those deep genuine feelings.. well  they slipped out in moments like they were in right now, just being able to slide her fingers along his skin made her feel so much closer to him.  taking a deep breath through her nose she knew he was right.. feeling his hands rub hers gently, she felt slightly fuzzy on the inside again.. before he asked about ellie..” Yeah- no i think that would be a good idea.. better she’s sleeping in her bed than the couch-- plus its getting late for her..”

[sharlottakozolv]

spencekozolv​:

He looked at her, his eyes more sad “You shouldn’t be… you are such a great women and good friend” why she had times she was alone he didn’t know. “I know it’s hard and big change I’m still not good at going out…” and knowing what to do with himself.   He shook his head “No I did… the worst to you” he put his hand on hers “I get why he’s mad… if someone hurt my sister…” he would be upset too.  but yeah he was bit rough but he could handle it.  “I should have done better with my feelings… before  and not did what I did I am just … I didn’t know what to do” he told her this before that he knew he felt so bad for what he did to her.

as he looked back at her, their eyes met for a moment.. “.. Think that makes the two of us..” she added to what he said before looking ahead of them again, seeing the girl fast asleep on the couch.. like an old habit as she hugged his arm, her finger started gently caressing hs skin while he spoke.. “I just don’t think you deserve it as rough as he does it sometimes.. It’s not good for you, its not good for me, or us, or ellie-- it’s not helping the way he acts sometimes even if i know its to protect me.. plus.. right now i dont need protecting.. i’m doing fine..”

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spencekozolv​:

He looked over to see Ellie laying down now that she had to be sleeping or almost was there. “I hope so too, I never like to see her feeling poorly like that” he sighed.  “Are you sure you are feeling okay too?” that she could have whatever Ellie did just was a few hours or a day behind.  He sighed as he looked away. “I know we are…” he looked up at her with his eyes. It was hard he did want someone to talk to about all of it with, but it couldn’t be her. “Just it’s hard stuff who I have met and stuff and your brother never helps anything” he chuckled a moment. He got why he was mad, he would be too if anyone hurt his sister. But what he wanted with Zepp he didn’t know he was confused. Having the first guy he was really with as someone who was with someone and now married was a lot. 

sharlotta nodded, “yeah.. i’m just tired.. lonely..” she said and shrugged a bit..”so nothing new..” she added while resting her chin on his arm again. hearing him speak, explaining everything.. and with the mention of her brother she instantly felt bad.. she knew why aleksei was the wy he was but it was starting to hurt her more than it helped.. but tht was here nor there..”You don’t deserve having it that rough... I’m really sorry.. “ she said , carefully stroking his arm as she did

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spencekozolv​:

It was along time ago since Ellie was going to be eight soon, but he did remember it what it was like for that first year they got married since Ellie came so quickly. They never told their parents she was more made before they got married.  “No never, but she don’t look to bad” that was good. He had been there before when Ellie was very sick and it was so hard to deal with. He went and sat by next to her “What’s up” he could see that in her eyes that something was going on. “Much to much with me… and nothing you want to hear…” he looked away. “Just guy stuff…” he hadn’t really talked to her about it before.  But he made a mess of what he had with Zepp and he knew it. But it was compilated with him in the first place.  He took a bite of the cookie he had and enjoyed it. 

she nodded in agreeance, “hopefully it’s just a one day flu..” she said before her entire attention fell on him as he sat down besides her..her head gently tilted over to the side to lean against his arm.. “It’s nothing really, just my body feeling weird..and i dont know.. “ she muttered and just glanced up at him, letting her gaze linger, wrapping both of her arms around his arm while she listened to him speak. “about time you found out boys suck..” she said, teasing him a little, giving him a little bit of a nudge.