He heard her approaching and Sheen rose, moving to her and pulling her into his arms, swallowing as he saw the look on her face.
"You have to," He whispered.
They couldn't do this here. Nowhere in the Capitol was safe but here, so public, it wasn't safe at all for this discussion. For Lustre to show such weakness.
"Come with me. We can't talk here," He whispered as he kept her clutched to him, guiding her towards their room. It should be at least a little safer there.
"You don't want to know... I tried to warn you but how could I tell you what they've made me do? I had to... if I didn't, they threatened you and my family. I had to protect you," He reached up to stroke her cheek, "why do you think I didn't want you in those Games? I knew what they'd have you do if you won..."
As soon as she was sure it was safe, she stepped a little away from him. She didn't know how to feel right now. Nervous... anxious... Hurt... disgusted... angry.
"I do want to know Sheen. I want to know how many people I have had to share you with." She said, tears getting heavier. "You didn't warn me. If you had told me flat out, never to enter the games I wouldn't of entered, but I did it to make you proud of me. I did this for you. You should of told me, I thought we told each other everything." She said.
She stepped back again "Don't touch me right now." She said, her heart breaking as thoughts entered her head. Thoughts she didn't want there. But she couldn't help it, they were worming their way in.
"In Our home, it would of been safe to tell me. And sure I wouldn't of liked it, and may of been pissed at first, but I also know that you would of been trying to protect me." She told him. "But now... I find out that not only did you do those things.. that you knew I would have to as well, and you kept it all from me." She said, sucking in breath, because she felt she couldn't breath.
"Are they better than me?" She then asked. The nasty thought that had been swirling around in her head. "Are there ones you go to regularly, that you like to be with?" She then questioned him.
She shook her head, turning her body and head away from him. "Leave me alone." She whispered as the tears got heavier, as her throat felt like it was closing, as her heart pounded harder against her chest.
Sheen's stomach rolled with guilt, shame, disgust... how could she think any of those things?
But he knew... if it was the other way around... he'd think the same too. Wonder the same. Be as angry and confused and hurt.
He stayed back, as much as every fiber of his being wanted to reach out, to pull her close, to kiss her, to show Lustre she was the only one he cared about. But she needed her space.
"None of them mean anything to me. They are just a lot of disgusting old men and women who use us for a chance to be near glory. Every time, I felt so dirty afterwards. I thought about telling you but I was so ashamed. It disgusted me, what I had to do. I'm sorry, I know.. I've let you down. But I love you, I love you so much..."












