I've been having many thoughts and ideas, intangible and abstract in my mind beginning to constellate into something tangible..
I'm just contemplative right now, it's not fully perfectly articulated but maybe the "cure" for suicide is self permission.
There is an intrinsic relationship between power and responsibility.
"With great power comes great responsibility "- Uncle Ben from Spiderman.
Well, we are responsible for ourselves right? That's what all the mental health and self help programs say.
I think a lot of the time, at least in my experience and in others I've spoken with, suicidality comes from a position of extreme helplessness. It can feel like the only way to say "no". It can be like a defiance, rebellion or revenge against life itself. Against the violation of being alive. It's a position of the perceived locus of control lying solely outside of the individual.
So that responsibility has to be reclaimed. But that responsibility can only be reclaimed if the power is reclaimed.
Others cannot demand power over an individual but also demand that individual retains full responsibility over themselves and their consequences. I mean they can and do, but it is a double bind.
So.. maybe.. power must be reclaimed within the individual, through self permission, in order to reclaim that self responsibility, in order to survive and have a life worth surviving for.
I'm trying to figure my shit out and wanted to share this somewhere...
